(Amisia’s point of view)

Ever since I can remember I've been able to feel the emotions and injuries of everyone around me. I'm unable to feel any pain or emotions of my own but I can experience them from others. But I can't pick and choose what I feel and what I don't. I experience the good and the bad whether I want to or not. For example if i'm on the beach and someone gets attacked by a shark I feel the pain and fear from not only the victim. But I also feel the fear and panic from everyone else on the beach and in the water within a fifteen foot radius. That's why if I go anywhere I always have my earbuds in and my music up as loud as possible. Music helps me meditate through most of it. Sometimes I wonder if my parent knew since they named me Amisia which means all seeing. I've been to more doctors than I can count. 

They all tell me and my parents the same thing, “I've never heard of anything like this. It’s just all in her head.” I've tried every prescription to try to dull it but the only thing that helps is taking a sleeping pills so I too exhausted to feel anything. I remember one time when I was five. Me, my mom, and dad when just sitting in our car of a hospital parking lot after another doctor told them to take me to a good therapist. I felt my mom start to break down I felt her sadness and hopelessness. My dad had the same emotions clinging to him. I rubbed my moms back because I knew that was what you do for someone when they had that emotion. 

Five year old me said “It’s ok mom. When if there is nothing anyone can do for me i'll learn to deal with it. It will get better.” My mom turned around to face me and held my hand tears dripping down her face. I could feel dad start to feel worse, “Dad never let the hopelessness swallow you. Because I'm linked to you. If it swallows you it swallows me. If you cant fight for yourself fight for me.” My mom spoke, “You've always had the heart of a poet sweetheart.” I nodded not sure what she meant.