I do not know where I am. I'm afraid. What is this place? Where is this place? It is so dark. I can't see. The darkness is blinding. This silence is deafening, but the only things I could hear is my breath and my rapid heartbeats. The fear in my heart, the anxiety in my breath, I am alone. Such darkness I have never seen. Such darkness I wish I never would have seen. I must calm myself. Calm myself so I can think clearly and "see" clearly.
There is no light, no sign of it at all. Completely empty of life I can assume, aside from myself. There is nothing that has scent. The air is light, eerie yet calm. I can feel deep down that I am in a room, but how large? Feeling deep down, it must be endless but in reality I am not sure. All I can do is feel, and do what I can with such thoughts and feelings and what is best. How good they will do for me I can only see in time. Time… how long have I been here? I wonder if time still passes in the great emptiness I am in. Does it really matter though? I would never know. I don't know which is worse, the silence and the darkness, or being alone with my mind.
I have to try and remember what happened before this. I remember that the day was bright and sunny. No clouds in the sky and no people were outside. It was quiet in a way, but you could hear the wind passing through the trees, the birds chirping, and the sweet aroma of flowers drifting along with the wind. Then that was it. The rest of the day I do not remember. I cannot remember anything aside from that one moment. Wait, right, I remember it being nighttime. I was in my home, in my bedroom to be exact. I was getting ready to lay down, and I did. I was in bed looking up at my ceiling and thinking. I couldn't have been drifting off because I was still wide awake when I was laying there. Even stranger, I remember the ceiling and parts of my room that I could see, but then I just ended up here. None of this makes sense. Maybe it's a dream? Maybe…
It doesn't feel like it though. It feels too real and everything doesn't feel like a dream. Even if it was, I should have been able to wake up by now. It cannot be one of those dreamless dreams either because I would not have any recollection of anything here or anything of the sort. It would be just pure sleep.
Maybe I should just close my eyes. Maybe, just maybe that will work.
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