| Just Give Me a Reason |
Song by P!NK ft. Nate Ruess
Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough. Just a second, we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again.
I was on the verge of crying. Who am I kidding, I am crying! Everything has took a turn for the worst. It was my fault. As much I want to think this was his fault, I couldn't. I loved him to much. It hurt. We were so young when we met. Both of us were five, and had no idea that one moment would change our lives forever. I remember he offered to let me borrow his toy hot wheels car, and I gave him my Dr. Seuss book in return. Then the moment I realized we would be together forever was that moment in third grade.
"Weirdo, you're so weird. Who would want to play with you!" I remember Bethany Andersen. She was the mean girl in class and always found a way to put me down since preschool.
"I want to play with her." I turned around to see Alistair, staring at me.
His small hands entwined with mine and he reached down and helped me up. He took off his jacket and put it over my shoulders. He leaned down and brushed the dirt off of the new dress mommy bought me.
" Why would you want to play with her?" Bethany had a major crush on Alistair, and it was no secret.
"Because she's Reyna, and she's beautiful. Go away, Bethany." She ran away.
Alistair smiled at me.
I smiled at the memory. We were so young and innocent. It started out as just a never ending friendship. Those were the good days. The wonderful days. I wish they were back again. I wish I could turn back time and relive them. Eventually me and Alistair's friendship turned into something more when we made it to middle school and high school.
"Get your filthy hands off of her, jackass!"
It all came to fast. I was on a date with this new boy, Max. He took me out to this really nice dinner and I found that we really had a lot in common. We both had an obsession with Grey's Anatomy, we both cried when we watched Titanic (which I found strange, considering he's a boy) and we both love playing piano. He even wrote pieces. I told Alistair about him before hand and he said that if something bad happened he would be there to punch Max in the face.
It turns out he followed us to the restaurant. I knew he had something planned when he gave Max "the look of terror." Alistair became very over protective as we reached our high school years.
The date was going very well and then Max leaned down to kiss me. I placed my hand on his cheek and leaned forward and closed my eyes. Then i heard Alistair scream across the room and he strode over and socked Max in the stomach.
"Alistair Marcos Ronin the third! What in the name of holy god did you do that for! Why on earth would you follow us! You nincompoop! You caveman! You jerk!"
I was punching him all over his face. Then I heard Max groan.
"Max! I'm so sorry."
"I'm fine, Reyna. I should be leaving now, though. See you tomorrow." He gave me a kiss on the cheek and then left.
"Nice seeing you, Alistair." He said Alistair's name with such venom. I waved at Max before I turned around to see Alistair walking away. Night was coming over us and it was dark and quite outside.
"Where are you going Alistair? Why did you punch Max!" He just kept walking. Rude.
"Are you even listening to me!"
"Hell yeah! I'm listening to you!" How dare he use that tone of voice with me!
"Don't you shout at me!" He continued walking. "Look at me when I'm talking to you!"
Alistair then turned around and looked at me with an emotion I couldn't comprehend. He looked so strange. It was very dark outside. Then in one smooth move he walked over to me and then picked me up and threw me on his shoulder.
At the restaurant. In public.
"What are you doing! You manhandling neanderthal! Put me down or I will bite you!"
"Careful, Rey, I bite back."
"Shut up you stubborn ass! Just stop! Put me down!" He walked us over to the beach near the dinner.
"Whatever the lady wishes!" He dropped me down on the sand.
"Yes, princess?" Alistair cocked an eyebrow and smirked. The whole world stopped right then and there. He looked so desirable.
"You can stop eye raping me, Reyna." He smirked again.
I need to focus! "Why did you punch Max!"
"Because he was..." Alistair trailed off.
"He was what?"
"Touching... you." Unbelievable! Unbelievable!
"So? You touch me, so why don't you go punch yourself!" I shouted at him.
Alistair just stared at me. My lacy dress was now dirty and ruffled. It was not only dark but it was raining. I then looked down at my dress. It was clinging to my body, tracing my curves. The lace was soaking now, so Alistair could see my underwear underneath. My hands instinctively went to cover my panties.
"Why did you really punch him, Alistair?" Alistair just continued to stare at me. I couldn't help but look at him. His hair was messy and wet. The rain drops glided on his tan skin, accenting his muscles.
"I'll show you instead, Reyna." I couldn't help be notice that his voice sounded deeper than usual. I thinks it because of puberty. One minute men are Alvin and the Chipmunks and then they're Batman.
It sounded... sexy. Snap out of it, Reyna! He's your best friend.
Alistair then inched agonizingly slowly towards me. I backed away, and he chuckled deeply. He then licked his lips, dampening them. Just like a predator.
"This isn't funny, Alistair." I tripped over a rock while trying to get away from him. He smiled again.
Alistair finally got close to me. He banded his muscular arms around my waist, pulling me extremely close to him. I gasped at the action and then noticed a large hard object pressing into me. Darn it, Alistair! You and your phone, I swear! He licked his lips again and stared at me with an emotion I couldn't comprehend. His green eyes darkened. Alistair then grabbed both my wrists and wrapped them around his neck . I tried to get out of his strange embrace.
"Alistair! Alistair, stop!"
Alistair did something that shocked the heck out of me. He leaned down and kissed me. I gasped and stayed motionless. He kissed me on the mouth harder and harder, taking my lower lip into his mouth and sucked. Alistair then thrust his tongue deep into my mouth. Where did he learn this! He read Fifty Shades of Grey to much. Christian Grey is starting to rub on him.
That didn't matter because when I tried to pull away he pulled me back and began kissing my neck. Alistair buried his face in my neck and kissed it harder. He left an open mouthed kiss on my wet neck. It began raining harder, but he didn't care. He sucked on my neck harder, biting down.
"There." I gawked at Alistair. "That's why. I'm in love with you, Reyna. And it freaking sucks to know you'll never look at me that way."
Alistair buried his hands in his hair and walked away. He loved me? He loved me! I was speechless. Did I love him?
I did something that shocked him and myself. I walked over to him, grabbed his face, and kissed him.
That was it. That kiss began a long and passionate romance of two children that grew up together. We spent every day together. Make-outs in the janitor's closet, our prom night, and the day we moved into a New York apartment together. It all started so fast. But recently our long years of love were shattered with fighting and shouting.
You're so secretive and distant!
I will tell you why if you stop for a minute and listen!
I winced at the memory at our last fight. It got so heated, I threw a hairbrush at his face. Was this the end? Were we just not right for each other. I then looked over my shoulder to see the picture of us together. His arm was around me and I was snuggled into his shoulder. Nobody else was allowed to place their head on his shoulder. My shoulder.
"Reyna, are you home?" Speak of the devil.
"I-I'm home." Alistair smiled and came close to me. Even though he was twenty eight, he still looked just as handsome as he did years back.
He leaned forward and began kissing my neck. He noticed me not responding. "You okay?"
I blew up. "Why do you think everything is alright?"
"Reyna! Is everything okay?"
"Everything is not okay!" I backed away from him. Tears began to form in my brown eyes.
"Where are you! I never see you anymore! You're always at work! Why! Are you cheating?"
What angered me was Alistair looked down and remained silent. "Are you?"
He stayed silent. "You are, aren't you!" I was so angry I went and grabbed my jacket, car keys, and purse.
Alistair then started running after me when I stormed out the door.
"Baby, if you just listen-"
"No! You listen! I cannot take this anymore! I want to..." I paused. "I want to break up!"
His eyes widened and then they were filled with pain. Alistair was the one shouting now.
"You won't leave me! I won't let you!"
His eyes were so filled with rage he grabbed me and threw me over his shoulder. I was furious! How dare he handle me like a cave man! I was punching his back and pounding my fists on him. I wanted to kill him!
"Where are you taking me! Stop this Alistair before I kick you in the balls so hard, you're balls will fall off! Not that you had any, before!" I was kicking and screaming. Thank god it was late and night. Nobody would see this.
I was kicking and flailing, trying to escape. He still didn't put me down. This couldn't get any worse. But it did. Thunder crashed and it began to rain hard.
"Put me down, Alistair!"
"Whatever the lady wishes." He dropped me. My butt landed on a hard sandy surface. I hadn't noticed he walked us to the beach.
"Why did you cheat?" I asked him. Then I noticed my dress was soaked. My black dress clung to my hips. It was short and form fitting, and my hair was like a rat's nest. I noticed Alistair's eyes darken at the sight as he openly stared at my legs.
He began to stalk towards me unbuttoning the first few buttons on his shirt.
One, two, three.
What was he doing?
"Are you even listening?" He continued to walk closer to me. I backed away and tripped over a rock. He chuckled deeply.
Then he came close enough to me. Alistair wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close. Our wet clothes clung to our bodies. His hands grabbed my wrists roughly and he pinned them behind my back.
"Stay. With. Me." He breathed out.
"Just give me a reason to."
"I'll give you a reason, all right!"
My eyes widened before I was pulled roughly close by the hair. He grabbed me and shoved his tongue into my throat. I gasped for a moment before relaxing. He pulled me closer and moved his hand lower until it rested on my butt. And squeezed. Alistair began to kiss me harder and he dragged kisses down to my neck. He sucked on my neck harder and harder and bit down. I moaned and moaned. He then grabbed the bottom of my dress and pulled it up, skimming my thighs. Alistair's hand grabbed my thigh and he wrapped my leg around his torso. He began to grind his hard into me. I could've fainted right then and there.
He then grabbed my other leg and hoisted me up. He sat us down on a nearby bench.
"There." I stared at Alistair.
"I never cheated. I was working extra hours to afford this." Alistair took me off of his lap and opened a small box.
"You want me to give you a reason. Here's one right now."
"Reyna Elizabeth Micheals. Will you marry me?" Alistair was on his knees.
I pulled his head back to me and kissed him.
Everything was right now.