Lights are off...

I can hear her breathing.

I can feel her touch.

She doesn't want to let me go.

I don't want her to.

Is she scared?

I don't really know.

I think she's hugging me.

Her faint voice drowning in the depths of despair.

Her bitter tears flowing down my shoulder.

Those, a river of sorrow and regret.

She says she doesn't have much time.

"Will I ever see you again?"

I don't get any response.

She keeps crying and crying.

I think she will vanish soon.

"No, please, don't die."

"Sorry, son. It's too late. Our fate has already shattered."

I never got to see her face again.

I never got to hold her soft hands one more time.

I don't think I can hold it in anymore.

I've started crying, too.

"Sorry, mom."

"I promised I'd be happy."

"But smiling seems a lot more difficult than before."

I just wanted to know:

"Do you love me?"

Although I know she would say something like:

"You were always my reason to live on."

And I would always believe those words.

No matter what.

Even if I wouldn't be able to hear them anymore.

"Don't worry, mom. I love you, too."

✑

Lights are on...

The world has stopped turning.

Its color has died too.

Her smile has faded.

Mine has also been lost.

Will I ever find it?

I'm not really sure.

So close, yet so far away.

Words have never been more painful.

They strike your heart.

They kill your dreams.

She was mine.

I was hers.

"Sorry. I should have hugged you more."

Those bittersweet feelings, neverending nightmares.

"I just didn't want to let you down."

"I just didn't want to lose myself."

But now there's nothing left.

And even if I lived a million years, I could never make it up to you.

So, at least, I just wanted to say my last goodbye.

My last letter.

My only truth.

"Bye, mom. I'll miss you."

"Maybe these words will never reach you."

"Maybe you won't be able to recall them anymore."

"Someday I'll also turn to dust and forget them too."

"But, even so, there's only one thing left I want you to do."

"No matter how far you go."

"No matter how long it takes for these feelings to reach you."

"Even if it takes a thousand years."

"Please"

"Promise me you will miss me, too."

✑