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He was supposed to hate me. Why doesn't he hate me? "I love you Katherine, why don't you understand I could never hate you." Pfft. Love? How silly is that? He should hate me for what I have done. He shouldn't love me. Not me, at least. Is he trying to hurt himself? "You shouldn't love me Ben, I'm not the one to love." "Katherine you are plenty to love the only happiness I feel is with you!" "Love? Ben you don't even know me." "I can get to know you. That's how you can grow with someone by getting to know them." He doesn't. He has never loved anyone besides himself. "Katherine we have known each other longer than anyone else. What is there more to know?" He really doesn't know anything. He doesn't even care for me. He doesn't know anything about me. The only one he got to know was her. "But that's the thing Ben you have to know someone to love them. You don't know me and you don't love me. You just want to love. All you have ever wanted is to love someone. But that someone is not me." "But Katherine-" "you see that's my point Ben. My name isn't even Katherine. Katherine is gone. She isn't ever coming back. You just like to pretend I'm her because you never got to tell her your feelings." It's a sad thing really. I just wanted Ben to love me not Katherine but he always chose her. He cannot give me false hope like this. "I'm sorry Luna. I know it's not right to pretend but I thought I deserved at least that much. And you look so much like her." "Oh Ben don't say that you know. You were supposed to know I don't like being compared to her. You're supposed to be my friend." "Luna darling you deserve my love." That's what I always wanted to hear, but the words never came from your mouth. All that ever came out was, "Luna you were right I really do know nothing about you. I apologize that I never put in the effort to get to know you. But its too late now." Those weren't the words I needed to hear. "I'm sorry Luna I know it was wrong but I only ever needed you for Katherine. I thought you had known already." I did. But I never wanted to hear those words for myself. How selfish of him to say those words. How utterly selfish. "Goodbye Luna, have a safe trip." No. "Farewell Ben and may our paths only meet again in the correct lifetime. One where we can be in love properly." He salutes to signify a goodbye. Why couldn't he love me? Why did it have to be Katherine? If only I had been Katherine then Ben would've loved only me. And I wouldn't have been stupid enough to get myself killed. Why couldnt I be on Katherines place? Why was she the one with everything? It was all gone to waste anyway. In another lifetime may I be the Katherine and she be nothing to look at. And let Ben truly see me for who I am. Now just like I said goodbye to Ben all those years ago I shall part ways with the world as well. Farewell.

A guy at the store I was at kept catching my eye and I couldn't help but walk over to him. "Sorry to bother you but I keep getting this weird feeling to say hi to you." I was getting a strong feeling to never let him go. "Anyways I'm Katherine, you?" "... James." He looked at me in a way where I couldn't tell if he hated me or if he was just shy. " Nice to meet you James!" I'm not sure why because I'm pretty sure I've never seen him in my life but I felt as if he was someone I knew. And I get the horrible feeling I should hold onto him and never let him get away.

I was sitting at a table when a woman who appeared to be my age walk up to me. I knew who she was immediately. "Sorry to bother you but I keep getting this weird feeling to say hi to you." " Anyways I'm Katherine." She wasn't Katherine. Guess she got what she wanted. She was still Luna I am never going to accept her as the new Katherine. She was right about what she said in my previous lifetime. I could never love her. Not even in a new life. As I came to know of my life now she was the one who caused Katherine to die. The real Katherine. She was never going to be Katherine.