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Things He Never Says

A Letter to Myself

A Letter to Myself

Apr 16, 2025

Haruka sat in the dark, the diary still warm in her hands.

"If you walk out of this house, never come back."

Her father's words hadn't stopped ringing in her ears. Not even hours later. Not even now, when the only light left in her room came from the faint glow of her phone screen.

It was 2:47 AM.

Her eyes still stung.

The ticking of the wall clock echoed in the silence. "Tick. Tick. Tick." She couldn't escape from each second falling like a drop in an ocean.

She reached under the bed and pulled out a small backpack, already half-packed. She had secretly kept clothes, a wallet, a notebook, and a small box of multi-colored pens since junior high. She didn't need much. Just the things that were really hers.

In the hallway, she could hear her father snoring faintly.

He had been furious last night. Words like "shame," "failure," and "waste" had been spat out like venom. Haruka hadn't fought back. Maybe she couldn't. Maybe she still hoped, somewhere deep down, that he'd say something else. Something that didn't hurt.

But the slap had landed. And the silence after had said more than any scream.

She zipped her bag.

Her steps were slow as she opened the front door. The Tokyo night was colder than she expected. The wind stung her skin, but she kept walking.

She didn't know where she was going. Only that she couldn't stay.

At the station, she used the cash she had to buy a ticket. Her eyes scanned the list of destinations until they landed on a name she didn't recognize. A small town in the south—Shirosato. It felt oddly familiar, like a word she'd once heard in passing, or maybe a name tucked inside an old childhood memory. She couldn't say why. Only that something in her chest stirred.

The steps away from home felt heavy, but also lighter than she imagined. Every meter she put between herself and that house gave her just enough breath to keep going.

She sat on a station bench, hugging her backpack to her chest. With cold fingers, she opened her diary again. There was still one page left, half-wet from earlier tears.

She wrote:

If you're reading this one day, and you're still alive, then you've made it. You survived, even when the world tried to crush you.

She closed the book.

And for the first time that night, she took a deep breath.

The train pulled in with a soft, almost soothing metallic sound. She boarded, found a window seat, and sat still.

Outside, the sky was no longer black. A dull gray-blue stretched over the horizon. Dawn was coming.

She didn't know what waited in that little town. She didn't know if anything would change.

But she had tried. And that was good enough.

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Haruka ran away from home after one sentence destroyed her self-esteem. Failing to get into her dream university, her father decided that she was no longer a child worth being proud of.

Without direction, Haruka disappeared into a small town and lived as a hikikomori. Her days were spent in silence, only opening the door for food delivered via an app. Until one person introduced the food to keep coming, with sticky notes full of nonsensical comments and inexplicable little attentions.

Kaito never forced. But he was always there. Sometimes, just to say, "If you like sweets, tomorrow I'll bring melon bread from grandma's shop."

When Haruka ran out of money and couldn't pay for the last order, Kaito didn't get angry. Instead, he offered a solution: work for a while at her grandmother's bakery, just until Haruka could pay off her debt.

But the outside world that had always felt scary slowly changed.

And Haruka began to wonder...

Why could someone she didn't know make her feel more seen than her own family?

And why... it contains Kaito's eyes, as if he had met them before—in a past he had long buried?

#love #romance #japan #slowburn #mentalhealth #healing #greenflag #greenflagman #fulloflove

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A single sentence shattered her world: “Not worthy of pride.” Those words echoed in her mind, leaving her feeling like a ghost, drifting through life without purpose. She retreated into the shadows, her small room becoming a sanctuary of silence, where the outside world felt like a distant dream.

Days blurred together, each one a reminder of her isolation. But then came the soft knock at her door, a gentle interruption to her solitude. A delivery boy named Kaito, with his quirky sticky notes and warm smile, brought a spark of light into her darkness. “If you like sweets, I’ll bring melon bread tomorrow,” he wrote, his words wrapping around her heart like a comforting embrace.

His kindness was a lifeline, a reminder that she was seen, even when she felt invisible. Each note was a small treasure, igniting a flicker of hope within her. Why did he care? His presence stirred something deep inside her, a longing for connection she thought she had lost forever.

When her money ran out and she felt the weight of despair, Kaito didn’t turn away. Instead, he offered her a chance—a job at his grandmother’s bakery. The thought of stepping outside filled her with both fear and excitement. The world that once felt so daunting began to shimmer with possibility.

As she took that first step into the sunlight, her heart raced. Kaito’s gaze met hers, and in that moment, she felt a spark of recognition, as if they were two souls intertwined by fate. Memories of laughter and warmth flooded back, whispering of a past she had buried deep.

Who are you? she wondered, her heart swelling with a mix of fear and hope. With each passing day, the walls around her heart began to crumble, and the secrets of their shared history beckoned her to explore. Would she find the courage to embrace this connection, to uncover the love that had been waiting for her all along?
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