The only person in this whole world that I thought we could depend on. Now had turned her back at us. She left our home and headed to the carriage which was waiting for her.
I had to stop her!
I chased her and grabbed her leg and started to beg,
“Please! Don’t leave us! Did I do something to make you, mad? If so, I am soo-”
Suddenly she struck me on the face by her walking cane. I fell to my back and grabbed my face in pain. My vision had darkened for a second and I did not know what just hit me.
“Don’t dare to touch me, you filth! Just by seeing your face make me want to vomit my guts out.”, she said with her enraged tone.
I heard her footsteps that again started to distance away from me, further and further away.
Even though my vision was blurry, I still stood up and chased her from behind. I rubbed my eyes and it seemed that my head was bleeding.
Although I should feel pain, I didn’t feel anything.
I didn’t recklessly try to grab her legs recklessly this time. Instead, I walked to her from behind and asked,
“Mother! But what about Rose and Armin. It’s fine if you hate me. But they are still too, young! At least take them with you. They are just 3 years old. Please take care of them, that’s all I ask!”
I got on my knees and bowed my head to the ground.
After what I said she stopped and turned back towards me.
With a chuckle, she responded,
“Why don’t you just slit their throats and dump them in some lake. That would take care of some of your problems, won’t they?”
I was dumbfounded from her response. I knew she didn’t love me, but she even hates her 3-year-old kids, who were innocent! What did they do to deserve death?
I was really shocked by the response,
I looked at her in the eyes, as I sat on my knees. But her eyes were filled with anger and malevolence.
“Never, ever call me mother from now on! Never did I loved you or Rose or Armin. You kids are nothing but a disgrace and slander to my family house, thanks to your father! Blame it to his blood that runs a course through you and your siblings. I never once loved that commoner lowly father of yours! I was forced to marry you because of my father.”, then all of a sudden a smile appears in her face, a twisted smile, “Now I am free at last!”
She then reached the horse carriage and two guards opened the carriage door for her. She entered the carriage and took a seat.
I got up and stood beside the carriage door.
I was hoping that she would change her mind and might return to us. Although this was just my idle wish, I don’t know what should I do anymore.
Before the carriage door closed, she looked at me once again,
“I hope that you kids also disappear and die in some ditch like your cowardly father.”
The carriage drove away as I stood in the middle of the street. I still wasn’t able to believe this. I still thought she would stop the carriage and return to us! I thought this was just some nightmare, and this nightmare would end any second.
The carriage drove away and disappeared in the midst of the busy street.
I stood and watched in the direction of the road for about 10 minutes. But it never did return. I never knew she had such deep hatred for us. I somehow knew it, but I didn’t believe that.
Didn’t mom's treasure their children? I thought all mothers loved their child no matter what species be it. Be it dog or birds or fishes, they would risk their own lives to protect their children.
But now our mom discarded us like we are nothing.
She has forsaken me, a 10-year-old boy and her 3-year-old twin child on their own, hoping they die.
But at that time something broke inside me! Something changed inside me!
Somehow, instead of feeling fear and sadness, I was overwhelmed by the urge to live! The rage and anger swelled up inside me! The so-called mother was dead. She is no mother, she is a witch!
She hoped us to die but I wanted to prove her wrong!
I will become a person worthy that even she would have to acknowledge.
In this cruel world where human discriminate in the basis of blood and birth. Where pride is much more important than blood ties. I don’t care about such world…
Such a world could go to hell.