Beware thoughts that come in the night. They aren't turned properly; they come in askew, free of sense and restriction, deriving from the most remote sources.
William Least Heat-Moon
- Where am I? - I thought to myself. Pain is the last thing that I remembered. Pain from being hit over by something.
- A truck! I was hit by a fucking red truck! Where's the motherfucker? Where are you!?
I look around while I come to my senses. My sight is still a bit blurry as if just woken from a long sleep. Yet I cannot distinguish any particular form or shape. All I can see is darkness but, yet, some sort of glow seems to illuminate the darkness all around.
- Where the hell am I? I can't see a damn thing! And where is the sky? There's no moon or stars? What the fuck is going on? Am I dreaming or hallucinating?
I struggle to remember anything before the pain. Where was I going? What was I doing?
- K! I was meeting up with K! We had a big fight the night before and I was going to set the record straight, I was going to propose for real and end all the charades and bad-mouthing... and... and ... stop all the lying shits that were so hell-bent in breaking us up!
I start looking for something in my pockets, something that I want to give to K. What was it? Damn it, I can't remember... what's wrong with me?
- The ring! Where's the fucking ring?! It must've fallen when I was hit by that truck... I need to find it, for fucks sake, I need to find it!
I start looking around and, again, the reality of things starts to affect me. Where am I? Why does it seem that nothing makes sense? Why is it that everything is so dark and, yet, there is some sort of light all around? And where is everyone?
- Hello! Can anyone hear me? Is there anyone there? I was just hit by a fucking truck and it seems that no one gives a goddamn fuck about it!
I was hit by a truck. So, how is it that I'm still standing? All I can remember is pain after being hit and then... I think I just blacked out and came to a couple of minutes ago. Yet, here I am, walking and shouting and without any pain. Yet, I can't see or hear anyone around. No cars, no trees, no roads, nothing. All I can see is just... nothing.
- Hello? Am I in a hospital right now? Can someone out there say something!? Hello!!!!!???? Or did I die and end up in Hell? - I said, smirking as if I believed in any of it.
Heaven, Hell, angels, demons... a big bunch of lies created by those crazy penguin-like bastards that want everyone to follow them around as mindless sheep under the guise that, if not, a lifetime of pain and suffering awaits you. I had enough of this shit throughout my whole life since I deviated from the accepted standards. No, I left all that behind as soon as I was old enough to hit the road. A lifetime ago, it seems.
- Hello? Can someone hear me? Come on now, this isn't funny anymore, I might be dying here! I need some fucking help!
Still nothing. Not a single peep... not a soul in sight. I look above and I can't see the night sky. Just complete and dull darkness. Yet there is this... glow that fills up everything and ends up showing nothing. Funny how it seems just like my life so far - so full of nothing. All those who I once called friends were so ready to turn their backs on me as soon as K told them that lie. As if I would ever do such an ignoble act! But I would set the record straight, yes I would... as soon as I was able to get out from here.
But, from where exactly? Where am I? What happened to me and... how did I end up in ... wherever I am.
- Hello? - I call out sobbing.
I'm scared. It seems that I am all alone again... just like when I was a child. Left alone by everyone as if I had some sort of infectious disease. But no, what I had wasn't infectious - I was just born like this. But, it seems, God doesn't create people like me, and, as so, my very existence was a sin.
Suddenly, I hear something dropping on the floor - there is a floor? - just in front of me. It seems like some sort of silvery coin.
- Two for the ferryman to buy you your ride. One was given to you, the other one you must find
- What the fuck is this!? Who said that?! Is this some twisted idea of a joke?! I'm here screaming my lungs out for the last couple of hours, completely lost in this senseless place and you've been hidden here all along?! What kind of sick fuck are you! And what is the meaning of all of this!?
I picked up the coin and threw it angrily against the void, hoping to hit the bastard who was playing with me. But I couldn't hear the coin drop or hit anything. It was like it was swallowed by it entirely - its sound, form, or color never to be heard or seen again.
- You'd be wise not to reject any kindness offered to you in this place. For not all are worthy of such grace and the path ahead is filled with perils and hardships for those who seek a way out. And the only one that is able to guide you through it will not do so freely.
The strange voice went silent just when the coin dropped again in front of me. Nervously, I picked it up and stored it in my pocket. And stared blankly against the void, wondering still where was I and how the hell was I going to get out of this.
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