Chapter 1 Part 1: That a man must laugh or die (and general notice)
Chapter 1 Part 1: That a man must laugh or die (and general notice)
Jul 16, 2023
Hey just wanna give everyone an official trigger warning before reading more into this story. This is a story revolving around mental health their will be TONS of mentions of suicide and SH, and a character also does these things. I will have trigger warnings on each chapter with more specifics on that chapter. Also I just want to say when I published the part 1 and part 2 of this chapter I didn't think so please read this chapter and the next at the same time cause yeah . . . Anyway! Happy reading hope you enjoy To Die Laughing.
Trigger warning: (check discription for more specifics)
Chapter 1: "That a man must laugh or die" -edgar allan poe
“But pardon me my dear sir, pardon me for my uncharitable laughter. You appeared so utterly astonished. Besides, some things are so completely ludicrous, that a man must laugh or die. To die laughing must be the most glorious of all glorious deaths!” Ah yes, death. Always an interesting subject. Some find it scary, others find it fascinating, and even more act and live like it doesn't exist. The afterlife is an even better one: ghosts or no ghosts, heaven and hell? No one knows until they actually die.
“Kit? Kit! KIT!”
“Huh what?” I had just remembered where I was.
“Class was dismissed a few minutes ago, and I knew you were reading ahead because you said that Edgar Allan Poe is your favorite poet, but I think you need to go to lunch.”
“Oh yeah probably.” My name is Kit and I’m 14. I just cut my shaggy brown hair shorter and I am not loving it, (maybe that was because I cut it myself in the middle of a dysphoric breakdown last night, and it looks like a really shaggy mullet) but I mean, at least I had less gender dysphoria. I was wearing a sweatshirt and my navy blue baggy jeans with a pair of black converse with the laces tied into stars or, as the website I saw the instructions on called it, pentacles. Although I don't think you care, no one ever does. If anything, now you think I’m a witch or satanist or something, but whatever, I don’t care. Now I'm sure you're wondering about my fascination with death. Well, I am perfectly sane or mostly, at least. By that I mean that this is not the beginning of a murder mystery in which I end up behind bars; no - this is a story about my sad, lonely, miserable, depressing life.
“Hey Kate, didit happen again?” a voice called. It was Bexley. I had known him since he moved here in 5th grade. He had the underside of his dark brown hair shaved, and he tucked it behind his ears. He was wearing baggy jeans along with a button up shirt and basic black shoes, all of which made his pale blue eyes stand out. You may be questioning why he called me Kate. Well, that’s my deadname. He keeps on forgetting that I go by Kit now.
“No,” I lied. Of course it happened again. I can't control the feeling, nor did I appreciate him talking about my mental health in front of the kids who already harass me. For example, they would come up asking me for a wrist reveal after he had told everyone in our grade that I went to a mental hospital. “and please don’t call me Kate.”
He gave me a look then said “stop lying to me,” and then he proceeded to roll his eyes. “FINE, Kit.”
“Bexley please, I don’t like talking about this in front of-” I looked around.“anyone.”
“I DON'T CARE, YOU HAVE TO TELL ME SO I CAN HELP YOU!”
“No. Stop,just stop! Besides, it is not a big deal, and I DON'T need your help.”
“I'm just trying to help,” He argued while rolling his eyes. The bell rang. I was saved by the bell. Now I don’t have to talk about it for the rest of the day. I walked away. “KIT GET BACK HERE!” After I told him last year about my suicidal thoughts, he has been an absolute jerk about it, saying how I have to be happy and that I am ungrateful, because the universe gave me the chance to live or something. At the same time, he forces me to tell him about it.
Life after death . . . always an interesting subject. After Kit Krieger a trans guy commits suicide he finds out that everything he was ever taught about the afterlife was wrong. Follow Kit and new friends Dagon Kalua and Lenore Drakos as they go on adventures to possibly save the world from God and Kit's ex-best friend Bexley Lewis.
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