Joined Nov 2023 Mexico City, Mexico
Transfeminine, depressed and spiraling down but damn it we need more gay in the world.
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I assume it's good praxis to post the cover I spent quite a bit trying to put together cause I'm utterly talentless... and also bad with editing.
But these photos are actual photos taken by one of my dearest friends, used with consent of course, and I just love them. They fit so nice together and create (at least for me) the right visual I think of when writing.
But these photos are actual photos taken by one of my dearest friends, used with consent of course, and I just love them. They fit so nice together and create (at least for me) the right visual I think of when writing.
With Chapter II coming to an end, it's a lovely time to reflect on it.
Writing was kind of scary, at least in the sense that this was the point I realize this story really feels like something I wanted to pursue. If the first chapter borrowed heavily on some of my life experiences to find an anchor, this chapter felt reassuring.
Characters really found their own face and their own voice, at least in my head, and that was probably my favorite part about it. Cause even a lot of the names come from just people in my life or in my past, and I feared that because there is that association with people I know, I would kind of run out of anything to say. I'm not writing them but in some ways I have borrowed some of my memories with them to try and craft the characters.
As of the writing of this post I'm about the end of Chapter IV and I'm pleased to say that I quite good about it. If for no other reason than these characters really do feel like people I'm trying to keep up with, not people I'm trying to remember.
Writing was kind of scary, at least in the sense that this was the point I realize this story really feels like something I wanted to pursue. If the first chapter borrowed heavily on some of my life experiences to find an anchor, this chapter felt reassuring.
Characters really found their own face and their own voice, at least in my head, and that was probably my favorite part about it. Cause even a lot of the names come from just people in my life or in my past, and I feared that because there is that association with people I know, I would kind of run out of anything to say. I'm not writing them but in some ways I have borrowed some of my memories with them to try and craft the characters.
As of the writing of this post I'm about the end of Chapter IV and I'm pleased to say that I quite good about it. If for no other reason than these characters really do feel like people I'm trying to keep up with, not people I'm trying to remember.
As Chapter I closes I think it's as good a time as any to share my impressions as I wrote it.
To be quite honest this little project thingy has seen radical changes since I came up with it. It started as a BL and, lo and behold, as my life started to change so did my vision for it.
As much as I know it's not my life and it's not as though that was the intention even back then, it does feel so close and personal that changes felt inevitable. I did consider keeping it a BL since that little broken heart of mine, broke because of a boy back in my endocrinologically boy days. But given that the main character felt in some ways a mirror image, at least in terms of the experiences I took from myself, I couldn't in good faith keep it a gay story. Though gay stories do brew in the back of my head so if and when this is done maybe I'll get into it. There's never enough gay in the world.
As the chapters go on though these characters really took their story in their own hands. I may have shaped them with some of my baseline experiences but as I kept writing they really started to feel like people in their own right.
My only hope is that I get to do them justice as I keep writing.
To be quite honest this little project thingy has seen radical changes since I came up with it. It started as a BL and, lo and behold, as my life started to change so did my vision for it.
As much as I know it's not my life and it's not as though that was the intention even back then, it does feel so close and personal that changes felt inevitable. I did consider keeping it a BL since that little broken heart of mine, broke because of a boy back in my endocrinologically boy days. But given that the main character felt in some ways a mirror image, at least in terms of the experiences I took from myself, I couldn't in good faith keep it a gay story. Though gay stories do brew in the back of my head so if and when this is done maybe I'll get into it. There's never enough gay in the world.
As the chapters go on though these characters really took their story in their own hands. I may have shaped them with some of my baseline experiences but as I kept writing they really started to feel like people in their own right.
My only hope is that I get to do them justice as I keep writing.
So, I decided to make a thing out of my depression project! "Breakingpoint: The Diary of a Suicidal Mind" is in many ways a journey of self discovery, I got into writing it after my first mayor heartbreak and ever since it's been an ever-evolving idea.
It's changd quite a lot since I first conceived it but now it's in a place I feel comfortable with. In no small part because after quite a bit of telenovela style turmoil in my life, I saw an opportunity with this little depression project that has now turned into a deeply personal passion of mine.
It borrows from my life but it is not based on it, quite frankly my life is just interesting enough to be a pamphlet not a novel lol. It follows the story of Catalina and her journey through life, living with depression and just being an adult in a rather unpredictable world. And yes, she's in a polyamorous relationship, which funny enough happened kind of by accident, but the more I kept writing the more it fit with her story. These people really took their story away from my hands and now I'm just kindly following along.
Any and all feedback, comments and likes are kindly appreciated. Please enjoy it, or at least try to endure my ceaseless drama writing.
It's changd quite a lot since I first conceived it but now it's in a place I feel comfortable with. In no small part because after quite a bit of telenovela style turmoil in my life, I saw an opportunity with this little depression project that has now turned into a deeply personal passion of mine.
It borrows from my life but it is not based on it, quite frankly my life is just interesting enough to be a pamphlet not a novel lol. It follows the story of Catalina and her journey through life, living with depression and just being an adult in a rather unpredictable world. And yes, she's in a polyamorous relationship, which funny enough happened kind of by accident, but the more I kept writing the more it fit with her story. These people really took their story away from my hands and now I'm just kindly following along.
Any and all feedback, comments and likes are kindly appreciated. Please enjoy it, or at least try to endure my ceaseless drama writing.
