Joined Mar 2013 Bliss
My name is Xexilia; I am an artist, author, and designer, living with my awesome-sauce boyfriend Winston, and our two amazing, snuggly cats!
I'm also your new best friend! Be sure to leave comments and follow my comics! 8D
Tools
Sakura Micron (.005, .01, .02, .03, .05), Maru Nib (Soft), Deleter Ink #4 (Special black), Manga Studio 5 EX, Adobe Creative Cloud, Graphite, Copics, Watercolor, Oil, Acrylic
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BIGGER, FATTER, MUCH MORE MAJOR NEWS!!!!
ETERNITY CONCEPTS IS *NOT* CHANGING IT'S NAME. I, however, *have* changed my last name as it was causing a lot of issues for people to pronounce, and wanted to distance myself and work away from my family.
I realize I've posted several times saying "I'm making pages again!" and only to show nothing; There's been a number of reasons. Firstly, after my surgery in 2014, I began to have symptoms of something else--all while telling myself they were minor and I could fix them. Six years later, we now know I have--and have had since I was a small child--an autoimmune disease called Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease (UCTD, also called 'latent Lupus'.) I'm in a lot of pain at current as I've only begun treatment recently, and it will take several more months for it to work. My hands and feet are in a LOT of pain on a daily basis.
I AM, seriously, making pages; My hand issues have slowed me, and I won't be releasing pages until I have a page buffer again, which could take a few months. My hands don't take well to long term use and until the world allows me (I'm at risk) to venture out more into it, I cannot begin the therapies that will assist in improving the pain. I've chosen to not use opiate medication to treat the pain, so things are slow going. Some days, I literally cannot get out of bed.
The new pages will be different looking and of higher quality than the previous; I'm including an image of Julian from one so you can see the difference! Thank all of you for going through this very long journey with me (And watching my art evolve and struggle as I did to draw despite the pain), and I hope you'll continue to stick with me! If you have Amazon Kindle OR Kindle Unlimited, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE consider supporting me by purchasing or reading it and leaving a review :) It's the last link on your left!
ETERNITY CONCEPTS IS *NOT* CHANGING IT'S NAME. I, however, *have* changed my last name as it was causing a lot of issues for people to pronounce, and wanted to distance myself and work away from my family.
I realize I've posted several times saying "I'm making pages again!" and only to show nothing; There's been a number of reasons. Firstly, after my surgery in 2014, I began to have symptoms of something else--all while telling myself they were minor and I could fix them. Six years later, we now know I have--and have had since I was a small child--an autoimmune disease called Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease (UCTD, also called 'latent Lupus'.) I'm in a lot of pain at current as I've only begun treatment recently, and it will take several more months for it to work. My hands and feet are in a LOT of pain on a daily basis.
I AM, seriously, making pages; My hand issues have slowed me, and I won't be releasing pages until I have a page buffer again, which could take a few months. My hands don't take well to long term use and until the world allows me (I'm at risk) to venture out more into it, I cannot begin the therapies that will assist in improving the pain. I've chosen to not use opiate medication to treat the pain, so things are slow going. Some days, I literally cannot get out of bed.
The new pages will be different looking and of higher quality than the previous; I'm including an image of Julian from one so you can see the difference! Thank all of you for going through this very long journey with me (And watching my art evolve and struggle as I did to draw despite the pain), and I hope you'll continue to stick with me! If you have Amazon Kindle OR Kindle Unlimited, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE consider supporting me by purchasing or reading it and leaving a review :) It's the last link on your left!
One a last note; Facebook doesn't think my last name is real and I refuse to provide documents to prove it, so if you see Xexilia Zajac on FB, fear not; It is I!
BIG FAT MAJOR NEWS:
ETERNITY CONCEPTS IS REBRANDING INCLUDING A NEW NAME.
The current series and sites will still lead to the series, but in a few days I will post a page update stating that to keep reading, you will need to subscribe to the series with it's rebranded name. This also means the Amazon book is going to be removed, edited, and re-released: However, certain content is the book is going to be removed with it--forever. Some of these are hints and clues, so if you've ever wanted a copy, I suggest making that happen ASAP.
Physical copies of the book, first editions, with this content will be sold, but there is an EXTREMELY limited number left. Once they are gone, they are gone. Forever. The one copy that will NOT be sold is the one that was actually brought into St. Peter's Basilica in Vatican City, but the rest--of which there's under 100 of--are currently for sale to anyone who contacts me wanting one. They are $20 plus whatever it costs me to mail it to you.
New books will be produced, but they WILL NOT contain a very special, revealing, un-released story at the end. They will include other special extras, though, so the current book is now a collectors edition :)
I'm also about to deal with revamping the website!
ETERNITY CONCEPTS IS REBRANDING INCLUDING A NEW NAME.
The current series and sites will still lead to the series, but in a few days I will post a page update stating that to keep reading, you will need to subscribe to the series with it's rebranded name. This also means the Amazon book is going to be removed, edited, and re-released: However, certain content is the book is going to be removed with it--forever. Some of these are hints and clues, so if you've ever wanted a copy, I suggest making that happen ASAP.
Physical copies of the book, first editions, with this content will be sold, but there is an EXTREMELY limited number left. Once they are gone, they are gone. Forever. The one copy that will NOT be sold is the one that was actually brought into St. Peter's Basilica in Vatican City, but the rest--of which there's under 100 of--are currently for sale to anyone who contacts me wanting one. They are $20 plus whatever it costs me to mail it to you.
New books will be produced, but they WILL NOT contain a very special, revealing, un-released story at the end. They will include other special extras, though, so the current book is now a collectors edition :)
I'm also about to deal with revamping the website!
I am, for the record, alive! So is EC, and my art. I'm finishing up a class (I should really stop saying that as I feel as if I am always enrolled in one), but plan to take a year off to focus solely on art afterwards. I'm setting up the means to make sure I can, so there won't be another hiccup in updates once I restore a page cache.
Hello world! If you follow my site or Facebook page you already know this, but since taking off a semester at school I realized a lot of problems I was chalking up to the stress of school continued anyway. I realized that since my surgery, I've still been in pain--I'd just excused it as been post-surgery pain, needing physical therapy, to exercise more--but it continued no matter what. Right now I'm on crutches which help me stand and walk around with way less pain, but so far my doctor's haven't figured out the cause. My endometriosis could be it, but it feels more like a problem with my spine.
I have, however, created an art studio--the Bat Cave?--in the basement; Downside is it's freezing down there and the cold makes the pain worse! Still, once I get used to the crutches I will be working on art again 8 ). Right now I feel like a giraff using them and weird about the fact I can walk but am using crutches due to pain >_<
I have, however, created an art studio--the Bat Cave?--in the basement; Downside is it's freezing down there and the cold makes the pain worse! Still, once I get used to the crutches I will be working on art again 8 ). Right now I feel like a giraff using them and weird about the fact I can walk but am using crutches due to pain >_<
Today Winsron's beloved cat of nearly 10 years went to Heaven at about 10:30AM. He was not alone; We stayed with him, petted him, calmed him, and sang to him. Iggy's quality of life had gotten to where he HAD no life; He slept all day and wouldn't even get up to eat or use the litter box. The vet discovered he was dehydrated despite drinking water. On the way, Iggy was calmer than he'd ever, ever been on the way to the vet; I think part of him knew, and was ready. It was Winston and myself who weren't.
Iggy's cancer origined from a vaccine injection site. This isn't an assumption, but what two different veterinarians told us.
We are legitimately inconsolable; Please respect Winston's, especially, and my grief during this difficult time. I am not happy or cheerful, and while normally I am willing to listen to people and help, now is NOOOOOOOOOOT the time. I do not handle death well, which is considered strange to my blended European-American family (European's "handle" it better and I react "like an American"--which it something you understand if you've seen the two cultures react to the death of the same person as I have), so I'm prone to crying fits and if you tick me off, I'm going to instantly tell you to STFU and why. Granted, I don't tick off too easily, but if you can pull it off, watch out; You wouldn't like me when I'm depressed, angry, irrational, and crying over everything!!!!
Iggy's cancer origined from a vaccine injection site. This isn't an assumption, but what two different veterinarians told us.
We are legitimately inconsolable; Please respect Winston's, especially, and my grief during this difficult time. I am not happy or cheerful, and while normally I am willing to listen to people and help, now is NOOOOOOOOOOT the time. I do not handle death well, which is considered strange to my blended European-American family (European's "handle" it better and I react "like an American"--which it something you understand if you've seen the two cultures react to the death of the same person as I have), so I'm prone to crying fits and if you tick me off, I'm going to instantly tell you to STFU and why. Granted, I don't tick off too easily, but if you can pull it off, watch out; You wouldn't like me when I'm depressed, angry, irrational, and crying over everything!!!!
I'm alive~ I'm super sorry for a year of no updates, I've been leaving update blogs on my own site. I plan to have new pages in 2017 with the new year; I'm going to be working on them AND making a big effort to be more social. I realize about three years ago I went from VERY social to 'Has anyone seen X is she dead', which is my fault as I went through a lot of life changes and to reduce stress, I didn't do pages (Though before and after my surgery I physically couldn't), and my social life just tanked COMPLETELY. That's not abnormal for me--I met Winston and I figured I probably would have a hard time balancing my love life with work. Oddly, Winston has been asking and encouraging me to make pages; It's college that's really dominating my time. I'm probably half, or close to half, through my degree, and not really sure of my next steps; Do I get another two year degree, a four year, use the degree I'll already have, get a day job? I'm not sure yet. I have learned I don't want to teach, mostly as I'm concerned I will lose my mind having to deal with insufferably stupid people (Teaching at conventions RULES; Teaching a college class does not), but who knows.
In 2017 I plan to take a break from school until fall, just as I seriously can't recall when I last didn't take a class. I want to do conventions, and may be appearing at one 8 ) I'll reveal more details as I find out more~
In 2017 I plan to take a break from school until fall, just as I seriously can't recall when I last didn't take a class. I want to do conventions, and may be appearing at one 8 ) I'll reveal more details as I find out more~
I know I said I was taking summer off school but. . .to get my teaching license I have to learn CPR (Actually to teach university I don't--but don't you WANT someone around who knows CPR? I feel like you do!) CPR training is actually pretty fast (About two weeks), so I'm going to add in tennis and modern dance to keep active during the summer months *A* None of the classes are as intense as my regular academic stuff, which is good; Come fall, I'm taking two English courses, math, and sign language o_o
And don't worry; I'll have LOADS of time to draw 8 )
Whoa, that seems pretty busy to me XD Also yay tennis is so much fun!! >u< //
I'm actually having dreams of doing comics I miss it so much; This is a good sign! I feel like once I get through this damned semester, I will be DESPERATE to draw some pages! *A* It's the feeling I miss--and seriously need--to make pages or draw anything.
As a kid, I always took breaks from drawing; I drew during class, so come summer, I spent those three months of freedom never touching a pencil. I made a point to get outside and reconnect with nature and the like.
Still, I get the sensation and urge that updates are going to happen this calendar year and perhaps resume a normal pattern. I may save up all the pages for when I'm in school and release them then, or release them as I do them; What do you guys think?
Also; Iggy is still with us 8 ) He's very happy and playful despite losing a lot of weight (He's 10 lbs and 2 oz, now--we have an electronic scale in the bathroom and the cats like to sit on it and weigh themselves), still has an appetite, wants to play, purrs, etc. We're aware we don't have much longer with him, but it honestly seems like he's in good health aside the tumor and losing weight. Still, we're spending lots of time with him, especially as Iggy demands lots of special treatment; Now we have to give him catnip and play with him until he gets bored before he will eat some days! XD
As a kid, I always took breaks from drawing; I drew during class, so come summer, I spent those three months of freedom never touching a pencil. I made a point to get outside and reconnect with nature and the like.
Still, I get the sensation and urge that updates are going to happen this calendar year and perhaps resume a normal pattern. I may save up all the pages for when I'm in school and release them then, or release them as I do them; What do you guys think?
Also; Iggy is still with us 8 ) He's very happy and playful despite losing a lot of weight (He's 10 lbs and 2 oz, now--we have an electronic scale in the bathroom and the cats like to sit on it and weigh themselves), still has an appetite, wants to play, purrs, etc. We're aware we don't have much longer with him, but it honestly seems like he's in good health aside the tumor and losing weight. Still, we're spending lots of time with him, especially as Iggy demands lots of special treatment; Now we have to give him catnip and play with him until he gets bored before he will eat some days! XD
Hey guys; I'm sorry I went totally MIA! ;A; The reasons:
1. Winston's cat, Iggy, is dying of cancer. He only has a few months to live and we're dedicating ALL our free time to spending it with Iggy, or spoiling him rotten. So far, Iggy appears not to be in any pain, but even with a MASSIVE surgery removing not just his leg, but half his pelvis, AND rebuilding his organs, and chemo--Iggy has the exact same amount of time left expected to live, plus maybe one month. We have chosen not to put Iggy though the stress and instead focus on his happiness and quality of life. . .as hard as it is for us to do. Winston and I are both very logical, but "fix it", type people--so accepting that the best course of action is no action feels extremely strange for both of us. Still, as much as we are tempted to take the risk, the fact is the surgery could actually ACCELERATE the growth--which is frightening considering how much larger it's already become--and still won't give us any more time with Iggy, the sweetest cat ever, and only ensure that his final months are spent adjusting to having 3 legs and recovering from a massive surgery--which wouldn't be enjoyable for him. Once Iggy is clearly suffering and pain medication doesn't help, we will make the hardest decision we ever have and ensure that Iggy's final moments are not spent in suffering, like my own cat was and died in a few years ago. Having seen first hand an animal I loved suffer to death, it's hard not to argue that this choice is far more humane. . .as painful for the living as it may be.
2. I'm getting my PhD, so, I'm still in college.
3. I screwed up my ankle something amazing and now can barely walk on it.
4. I'm changing domain names, since I discovered my dyslexia caused me to pick the wrong word XD Eternity Concepts will also soon have it's own site ^^
But nothing aside school and Iggy takes priority right now 8O
1. Winston's cat, Iggy, is dying of cancer. He only has a few months to live and we're dedicating ALL our free time to spending it with Iggy, or spoiling him rotten. So far, Iggy appears not to be in any pain, but even with a MASSIVE surgery removing not just his leg, but half his pelvis, AND rebuilding his organs, and chemo--Iggy has the exact same amount of time left expected to live, plus maybe one month. We have chosen not to put Iggy though the stress and instead focus on his happiness and quality of life. . .as hard as it is for us to do. Winston and I are both very logical, but "fix it", type people--so accepting that the best course of action is no action feels extremely strange for both of us. Still, as much as we are tempted to take the risk, the fact is the surgery could actually ACCELERATE the growth--which is frightening considering how much larger it's already become--and still won't give us any more time with Iggy, the sweetest cat ever, and only ensure that his final months are spent adjusting to having 3 legs and recovering from a massive surgery--which wouldn't be enjoyable for him. Once Iggy is clearly suffering and pain medication doesn't help, we will make the hardest decision we ever have and ensure that Iggy's final moments are not spent in suffering, like my own cat was and died in a few years ago. Having seen first hand an animal I loved suffer to death, it's hard not to argue that this choice is far more humane. . .as painful for the living as it may be.
2. I'm getting my PhD, so, I'm still in college.
3. I screwed up my ankle something amazing and now can barely walk on it.
4. I'm changing domain names, since I discovered my dyslexia caused me to pick the wrong word XD Eternity Concepts will also soon have it's own site ^^
But nothing aside school and Iggy takes priority right now 8O
Tis okey, dun worry about us ^u^ b
Give Iggy plenty of love from all of us! Hope the rest of his life is filled with pure happiness >w< /
Give Iggy plenty of love from all of us! Hope the rest of his life is filled with pure happiness >w< /
Hope Iggy gets to spend as much as time with you as possible. Good luck ahead.
Thanks guys ;A; Your support--everyone's support--has REALLY helped me cope with this situation. I felt, and still sometimes do, alone in this; But Winston, you guys, and others have all reminded me I am not. Some of you are even going through identical situations, so it's nice that we've accidentally put together this support group for owners of pets who are dying--a group any and every pet owner will sadly join some day--but having people around you who GET IT is so precious.
Merry Christmas Xexilia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
