-Yoru-

Seeing that Hiro was still outside the door, made me confused. After I closed the door, I went to my room, as usual, but I remembered I didn't take my medicine. I casually went downstairs again and that's when I saw him through the window. At first, I thought that he might have forgotten his phone or something. After watching him for about a minute though, I noticed that he wouldn't knock or ring the door bell. I couldn't just stand there, so I opened the door to see what's going on.

"Sorry," he apologized. 

"This might sound weird, because I just said that I can't stay any longer, but I figured it's gonna be fine," he added. I raised an eyebrow, trying to understand what he was saying. 

"My dad works the night shift so he won't know how late I'll be home," he explained, trying to make me understand.

"Dude, you could just say so! What about your mom?" I asked.

"Naah, she's okay with it since she knows I'll only be two blocks away." he smiled. Things finally made sense and I have to admit that I liked the fact that he didn't need to leave. We've spent a lot of time together this past week and I noticed that I really enjoyed it whenever Hiro was around. We teased each other, talked about our hobbies and found out that we had plenty of things in common. I've learned that he also liked drawing manga and that he enjoyed watching the same anime as me. Another thing that he liked to do, was reading novels. That was something we didn't have in common, but I found it interesting. In fact, I was never really interested in anyone before. Hiro was the first person that I ever truly wanted to get to know. What's more, I even wanted him to like me. I wanted him to be my friend, because he made me feel comfortable and I knew that he wouldn't judge me, even if I wanted to keep things to myself or even if I was being cocky around him. I really needed a friend like that. Someone close to me, that I could talk to about anything. Although sometimes, the strangest thing would happen.

I sometimes felt like I was attracted to him. I couldn't understand why, because I really only wanted to see him as a friend. Not because he was a guy, but because I didn't want to mess with our still growing friendship. I knew that I still hadn't figured out my sexuality though, since I'd never had any kind of relationship with humans other than relatives. Not only that, but I'd also never watched any kind of... "adult videos". I basically knew nothing about me and that's why I was questioning whether I was attracted to him or not. In the end, I just assumed that I'd feel like this around any person that seemed willing to spend time with me. I assumed I was just confusing likeness with attraction. It's true that I enjoyed being with Hiro and I'd always write something about him in my diary, but that didn't mean that I "liked" him, right? I got lost in my own thoughts again, but Hiro's voice brought me back.

"Arrgh this movie is so boring!" he complained. 

"Do you seriously watch this stuff?" By the time he finished his question, I realized that we were already in the middle of watching a movie that I randomly picked on my laptop.

"Then what movie do you want to see, mister <My-Taste-Is-Better-Than-Your's>?" I asked teasingly, trying to sound like I was paying attention all this time. 

"Really now?" he let out a small laugh and raised one eyebrow.

"No, seriously, what do you wanna watch?" I asked again.

"Hmmm..." he paused. "Friends with Benefits?" he smirked as he leaned closer.

"Seriously dude. You were the one complaining about boring movies!" I laughed and pushed his shoulder away from me.

"Explain how romance is boring!" he protested.

"Oh come on, it's just cheesy! These things never happen in real life." I stated.

"But what if it did happen? Wouldn't that be cool?" he said, while he seemed like he was daydreaming about his perfect date.

"I didn't know you were such a hopeless romantic!" I teased him.

"I'm noooot!" he pushed my shoulder.

"Whatever you say! I'll act as if I believe you." I teased him again. I was enjoying this a little too much. Before we knew it, we were lightly pushing and elbowing each other and jokingly arguing about stupid things. With each push, he started coming closer and closer to me instead of backing away. We were both laughing because of how childish we were acting but we continued fake- wrestling on the couch.

"That's enough now, hahaha, stop!" I said, trying to catch my breath. I started to get tired from all this wrestling. Hiro didn't stop, so I tried to hold his hands and make him stop moving. At my attempt to grab his hands, I lost my balance, so he was now lying on top of me. He stopped moving, but he didn't say anything. He just stood there still, too close to my face, trying to catch his breath, too.

"Finally!" I said, breaking the silence. 

"By the way, are you sleeping here tonight?" I asked, but he didn't reply. He just stood there, locking eyes with me. I really liked the hazel color of them, but surprisingly, his eyes weren't where I was looking at. Instead, I was looking at his lips, which were almost too close to mine. I also noticed that his bottom lip piercing made his lips look really attractive to me. "Great. Again with this weird vibe and attraction" I thought.

"Helloooo?" I said as I was trying to get him off of me. 

"Can you just move already? I can hardly breath!" I added. Still no reply. Still standing there staring at me. 

"Dude, what's wrong with you right now? Can't you hear me?" I added again, annoyed. 

"Fine I'll get up by myself, but don't complain if I hit you in the process." I stated, trying to move my hands and legs. 

"Wait!"  he almost shouted. He grabbed my hands and pinned them down together, causing me to lose the ability to move my upper body. I let out a little gasp, but I managed to stay calm.

Little did I know that I was about to lose all the calm I've left in just a moment; because before I knew it, he brushed his lips on mine. It was just a small peck and then he pulled away, but I could tell that he was looking for a sign that I was okay with it, before he could kiss me again. I didn't know how to react, so I was just staring at him, dumbfounded. "Do I want this? I mean, I'm definitely not even close to hating what just happened. I kind of want to taste him some more but is it okay? What about our friendship? Does he even see me as a friend?"Thoughts like this were echoing inside my head, but I couldn't seem to speak.

"What was that about?" I finally managed to get out, in a small voice. 

"I'm sorry. I should go." I could't stand the look on his face when he said that. He seemed so sorry and regretful. He almost looked broken.

"No, wait!" I finally said without thinking. I grabbed his wrist tight and then I pulled him close to me again. I slowly pushed him back and I got on top of him. It felt kind of strange for me to do that, but it also felt oddly satisfying. Hiro widened his eyes and I couldn't distinguish if he wanted me to continue or not. I could tell that he was anticipating something, but he was also hesitant.  

"Uhm... Are you sure about this?" he said in a low, serious voice. "I'm sorry, but I don't think that I... Sorry, it's just that-"

"Why do you keep apologizing for?" I said, not letting him finish. Then I kissed him lightly. This was my first kiss, so I didn't know how to do it. Hiro didn't seem to mind though, because he kissed me back. He tenderly put his hands around my neck, then pulled me closer and he slowly started nibbling on my bottom lip. I felt like time stopped for just a moment. My heartbeat started to increase rapidly and I felt weak. I didn't know what else to do, aside from the obvious, so I relaxed my hands on his chest and kissed him back again.