I regret it
I regret everything
Everything I ever did in my life
Every choice I chose
Every decision I made
My actions, my thoughts
What am I supposed to do?
Now that I know I'm a bad person
I tried to do good but...
I only hurt those around me...
I hurt everyone that tried to help me
I pushed them away
I told them I didn't need their help
I told them I didn't need their comfort
I said they were just a bother
That they weren't doing anything but being a road block for me...
How could I do that?
To my friends, my family, all the people who cared
And I just pushed them away
Like a gas station that I ignored when I was running low on fuel
Like a starving dog that ignored the bowl of food in front of it
What is wrong with me?
The doctors say I'll be fine
Just as long as I take my meds and see my doctors
But I have been doing that
I take my meds, I see my doctors, I visit family and hang out with friends
But I haven't changed
Maybe it not me that's wrong
Maybe it's them, maybe...
They're just some more road blocks
I'm the one that's right
I'm the one who's perfectly fine
They're the ones who have the problem
They are right
Maybe there is something wrong with me
Maybe I'm going insane?
I'm their problem?
I'm the problem...
I don't want to be the problem
I don't want to be the burden
I don't want to hurt them
My existence is hurting them...
That's the problem
I need to get rid of it...
I need to get rid of me...