21 June 2018

4.17 PM 

'I try to get good grades to make my parents proud'

lie...

'I try to get good grades so that I wouldn't be looked down at'

true...

I'm scared to be looked down at as a failure; someone who will never experience success.

I'm scared to be a disappointment; someone who is only waste of time and space.

A person you will see, but never remember.

I'm scared to look my parents in the eyes and see anger, sadness, disappointment

and see a failure reflected through their eyes.

I'm scared, but it's okay;

It's natural...

I learned to accept that I wouldn't always get the best grades

because I'm not perfect...

I'm just me; plain old me; the girl with the glasses and short hair.

The girl that needs to accept that not everything goes as planned; learn that not all of the homework will be marked with an 'A'; learn that life isn't about grades or whether she will succeed in life or not.

The girl that needs to learn that the grades don't define who she is now and in the future

The girl that needs to learn, because that's what she is good at