My eyes were watering as I told him my story. "So you're an orphan" he asked, "No, I'm a foster kid. Which means that my parents didn't want me when I was born" I sniffed. "I'm sorry" he said, "I don't need your pity or anyone else's. I survived on my own without anyone's help". "Sean-" "Don't call me that! It's not even my real name". "Even if you don't want me to, you still need my help" "You, a help from you. The one that made me decide to commit my own death yeah fucking great idea" I sniffed.

"Bullying me just to get your reputation up. And for your information, I don't like it when you have such beautiful caring parents and you treat them like shit".

"I would do anything to be in your place, just to have someone to look for me, care for me, and be there for me". I cried and cried till he came and sat next to me wrapping his arms around me.

"I'm pathetic aren't I" "You're not" "No one cares" "I do" "Why did God abandoned me" he stayed silent "Why didn't he give me a normal life, why does God hate me so much". He looked at me whipping my tears "God did not abandon you, he works mysteriously, the only thing you need to have..." he grabbed both of my hands "...Is fate".

We were down and we got out of the ferris wheel. "Let's go on and move forward" he said "Where do you wanna eat" "Anything is fine".

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We were eating at a restaurant at the theme park that serves Japanese food. “How did you find out you were gay” “What” “I mean, like did you have a crush or something”. I sighed “I, had a boyfriend once” “When”.

I sighed “Before I came to your school, there was this boy I dated. He was kind, sweet, romantic. Of course I was head over heels for him” “What happened, he seems like a very nice guy” I recalled back on those memories of me with him, because of him I never wanted to trust someone again. “He did selfish things” “Like what” “Our relationship, it didn’t have to end but, he thought something stupid is better than us being together”.

There was silence between until we got back to the car. “Rowan” “Yeah” “Thank you for today, I really appreciate it” he smiled and got in the car.