September 30th

The summer has ended and we are expected to go back to school tomorrow. I had have lots of fun with Aiko and the boys. They are usually very loud and today was no exception. I liked going to the beach with them. It´s one of those quiet times where no one is there to judge and I can kiss her. Shun is still a bit embarrased to kiss Tadashi, but I´m sure he will soon be more confident. 

Aiko looked gorgeous on her red and white stripes swimsuit. She told me she hated wearing it because it made her boobs look even bigger. I told her she looked just fine and held her hand. 

When we came back to my house I looked everywhere before giving her a kiss and a hug. I wanted to catch her scent. To always remember. She gave me that look of concern and asked me if I was alright. I lied. She looks tired too, but she´s really strong... I wish I was that strong. I´m an easy target for bullies. If only Japan was more open minded about those things.

I saw her drive off with her motorcycle and cried an hour in my bed. 

I tried. I really did. 

But I can´t keep going. 

I just can´t. 

I love you Aiko. And Shun and Tadashi, but I´m sorry. 

Please forgive me.