[E.C. Recording- Hannah's room, 4:36 am. Hannah speaking to Self]
When I was-
Before. When I was still only human. I had stars on my ceiling.
They were little yellow stickers. When mom-or dad- turned out the light they would glow for a few minutes.
I would lie in the darkness looking at those stars. They would get dimmer so slowly I could never tell when it got fully dark. I'd blink and there would no longer be any light.
I always felt happy in those moments. The darkness felt safe and warm, and it was like I was out in space- exploring.
Totally isolated- but not alone.
I miss that. I miss that feeling- of total safety. Of-
sometimes your face is warm, from the sunlight falling onto it, you hear the sounds of the morning, you are rested, and open your eyes, it is night, and you are all alone, In the dark
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