I am so worried about death

I worry what would happen to those who love me

Would they be able to be happy

Or would they not even care

I know most will care, but some wouldn't

I have this weird feeling that just came up

It was just this worry that has been buried for so long

This whole fear is reemerging

After so many people around me passing

It makes me just wonder is a natural death painless?

So many questions I have

But at the same time I don't want them answered...