October 6th, 2012

Another year, another birthday. I just noticed, I sound like a little kid when I write… I should probably stop that. I’m gonna try to write like the mature eleven year old I am. I got a really cute necklace from mom and dad. Though, it still doesn’t top the necklace Ryan gave me last year, in my opinion. Speaking of Ryan, he still hasn’t come and visited yet… even though it’s my birthday. I’m worried he may have forgotten about us… or he may hate us… I wish I knew where he moved to so I could ask him…

October 20th, 2012

Still nothing from Ryan… I miss him so much… I just want to see my brother again… and mom and dad don’t say anything whenever I ask them if we’ll ever hear from him. This just doesn’t make sense… first, he moves out without telling me--and I know he’d tell me about something like this-- and now I haven’t heard a peep from him since… I haven’t heard anything from Rachel, either now that I think about it…

October 31st, 2012

I stayed home instead of going trick or treating today. It’s just really been bugging me lately that I still haven’t heard anything from or about Ryan… I hope he’s doing alright and that he visits soon… I think I’m gonna stop writing in here for a while… I don’t wanna fill this up with me worrying about my brother… for all I know, he could be doing perfectly fine and is just having trouble getting in touch with us…

November 22nd, 2012

Ryan didn’t come home for Thanksgiving… and he still hasn’t contacted us… I’m starting to grow worried… where could he be? Should I try to track him down? Does he not care about me or mom and dad and more? I still miss him… I wanna see my big brother again!

December 25th, 2012

Still nothing from Ryan… I can’t believe he didn’t even come home for Christmas! It’s supposed to be a family holiday and he didn’t show up or send anything! Does he really not care about us…?

January 1st, 2013

Ryan still hasn’t come to visit… not even for New Year’s… where could he be? Why isn’t he talking to me or mom and dad? I wish I could text or call him, but I don’t have a phone… mom and dad said I’d get one when I turn thirteen… even then, I don’t know his number… I just… I just want to see my brother again… is that too much to ask? Please… just let me at least know my brother’s okay...