February 14, 2014

Decided to wear that dress Ryan sent me for Christmas today. Though, I had to wait to get to school to change into it since I didn’t want mom and dad to get suspicious of the fact that I suddenly have a new dress they didn’t buy. I got lots of compliments from guys and girls in my class! I don’t really know why, but the compliments from the other girls in my class, especially Noori, flustered me more than the ones from the guys.

March 6th, 2014

Huh, so I was doing some research for one of my classes and apparently there’s more than two genders… and more than one sexuality. Apparently there’s a whole community dedicated to supporting these people… how did I not find out about this sooner? And… would it be too bad if I reached out and supported these communities…? Mom and dad say it’s weird to fall in love with people of the same gender… or not fall in love at all.

March 7th, 2014

I want to talk with mom and dad about what I found yesterday so badly, but I’m scared they’ll get mad with me for looking up weird stuff like that… and actually wanting to support it… and maybe, just maybe… I might be a lesbian… but I really don’t know. My mind’s just in a really weird place right now. Maybe some time to just stew and think on this will help me.