-Yoru-

*Several years later*

"What do you mean?!" I can't hold my voice back anymore. I'm shouting.

"Hey! Can you please calm down? Your parents are going to wake up!" Hiro's voice sounds almost like a whisper, but his tone makes it feel like a howl. I can't believe we're fighting.

"No, Hiro, I can't stay fucking calm when you kept this from me for so long!" He lowers his head and gazes at the floor. I can already see his eyes water.

"I'm sorry, okay?" He pauses. He sits on the bed and covers his face with his hands.

"I didn't mean it..." he continues. A soft sob escapes him and I brake. I clench my jaw. With a growl, I sit next to him and put my hands on his shoulders.

"You're making it really hard for me to hate you..." I gently move his hands away from his face and take a look at his puffy eyes.

"... Hiro, I don't think I can do this anymore." I hate this. But he doesn't leave me any other choice.

"No! It's only gonna be 3 years! It's not like I can't visit- " he pleads but I cover his mouth with my hand to stop him.

"No you won't! You won't just be in another state or country. You'll be in another fucking continent!" I'm mad, upset and depressed at the same time. This is not fair. Why does the only person that I absolutely need in my life have to leave me?

"I have no other choice! I don't have a job or a house of my own and you're gonna go to X university, which I couldn't get into." Hiro stops to look at me for the first time since he told me that he has to move to Europe.

"Yoru... I love you, okay? I really do. But I didn't know how to tell you. I'm sorry." His expression full of distress and sorrow.

"You don't understand... I'm not mad that you have to go help your dad take over you grandparents' company. But Hiro, Germany is really far and we're both gonna be busy with work or studies. It will be almost impossible to meet, and distance for three years will be too stressful. Don't you think you should have discussed this with me as soon as your parents told you?!" I want to rant even more, but I really want to know what excuse he has for himself.

"I told you! I tried, but I couldn't bring myself to tell you. I don't know what to do to make it up to you." My head feels like it weights a ton. I'm on the verge of tears and I start trembling. Hiro is still expecting some kind of verbal response from me, but I fail to give one right away.

"Please, Yoru, say something" he begged.

"After everything we've been through? That's the only excuse you have? I came out to my parents because of you! Hell, we even had sex! I trusted you! You knew we had an expiration date and yet you still let me make plans about our first year in college together, like you would be there with me! But you... you-"

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I take such a deep breath that I sound like I'm choking and open my eyes at the speed of light. I try to catch my breath and I only calm down when I notice Hiro sleeping next to me. I nuzzle into his chest and close my eyes again. Thank God it was only a bad dream.