I took a step back from writing because I thought I was getting better I took a step back from writing because I thought I could finally do this on my own but I found that when I'm not putting the words that constantly run through my head because of my anxiety on paper they stay there and I bottle them up and I just replay those words constantly and that makes it worse so much worse to hear those words over and over I took a step back from writing because I wanted to know if I was just suppressing it or if I was dealing with it if this was the real me I found that I needed writing it helps me cope it helps me get the words that torture me out of my head it makes me connect to people who feel the same pain that I do when I started writing I thought that no one was going to read this no one was going to knowledge or look at it but for someone actually to read this and understand the pain I've been through that makes me feel not so alone and that gives me the strength to say that my anxiety can't control me any more