So I was just unloading the dishwasher and my thoughts were kinda wandering and I started thinking about, well, my thoughts and they way I think.  You know that thing called synesthesia?  Where someone will associate one thing of a sense with another sense?  Like, a color might be associated with a smell or a taste with a color.  At least that's how I understand it.  My thoughts are similar in a way.  I can't really put them into one medium or style.  Certain things I think of in words, while others are pictures.  One of my difficulties with my stories is that they're fractured into bits of paragraphs, comic panels, and animated clips.  I also have certain thoughts that are pure feelings or sensations.  On top of that I notice I often think differently than others.  My brain compartmentalizes things differently and I often view things as separate entities that are not entirely separate.  Things that click easily and seem simple to me in my head are super convoluted when explained out loud.  And the associations I make often seem to be contrary to what others think.  Like, to me, darkness is soft, almost fuzzy, furry even.  Oh, and there's another thing, I can't always use one word.  And the different words may be synonyms but I can't use just one to try and describe what I want to say.  Another thing is that time is fluid to me, but also crunchy, and sometimes non-existent.  Events can kind of float separately in space or kind of fold into each other.  Also, certain things are interchangeable in my mind, especially when relating to gender.  To me, most things aren't really solid or fluid.  Which makes sense but it doesn't.