I don't like being away from school...

As much as I would love to play with Jolly, my beloved piano, all day, I still feel guilty just from sitting in my house all day.

The others in my class are all jealous of my position. How I can easily call in sick on a whim. None of them felt like they had such a privledge.

I honestly don't think my situation right now is a priviledge.

It's not really a curse, but surely a frail heart and body can be troublesome.

Just this morning, I wanted to vomit something. And it's not food.

Although I have medications to help, they're extremely bitter. Inhuman bitter.

It makes me want to vomit even more...

....................

Before, I would feel scared, even when I'm with my beautiful Jolly. I would often write music from dawn to dusk without stop. Complete distraction.

I dislike being alone... in an empty house...meant for over 10 people...

... But now... I wish I  was alone.

Because that Witch Girl won't stop touching me in weird places.

I dislike being rubbed, especially in front of Jolly.

~Frédéric Franciszek Chopin