I remember meeting one of my longest lasting friends during age 17. Gorgeous girl, a little heavy for my liking, but she carried it well. I had a thing for her that I was totally too ashamed to admit to. She loved me to damn death and she wouldn’t leave me alone, even when she found herself fucking with some other dude. She tried to stick to her morals, a religious girl, but she just couldn’t when it came to me. It’s like she knew I was the one for her. She’s still around even now. Her name’s Autumn.

Autumn and I have always had a very strange relationship. I love her, I mean I’m still in love with her, but I don’t want to be with her. I don’t know if that makes sense, but I’ll try to explain it real quick. It’s not that I don’t think Autumn could make me happy, it’s that I can’t stand the thought of losing our friendship if our relationship doesn’t work out. See, I value Autumn more as a friend than I do having her as a lover. She’s still gorgeous and our emotional bond remains quite deep, we both have problems, and we’d probably still be together now if I had been with her back then. But I knew it wouldn’t work for various reasons. Now I’m madly in love with someone I DO want to be with. That woman is TRULY something special indeed and will always come first in my mind.

I’m getting ahead of myself.

This is when things got even more complicated for me. I was 17 and head over heels in love with two different girls. Yeah, I had to make a choice. Figures, right? Well, Autumn was over a hundred miles away and my high school sweetheart was only six blocks away. No brainer, right? Not just that, she was the same age as me, so we could go to college at the same time. We didn’t, but that’s besides the point. She and I also had a very complicated relationship. We were a very volatile couple. We fought like enemies but we were also highly intimate. We kissed and groped each other a lot. We exposed ourselves to each other a lot as well, but we never made it to actual sex. It’s because we were never alone long enough to do it and she didn’t have much freedom outside of the house.

Between these two girls, the one who gave me the clap later, two other girls I hadn’t mentioned yet, and a newcomer who walked into my life when I turned 20, I had made so many trips back to the stronghold that I might as well have just stayed there. I had to juggle the affections of 5 girls who were soon to be woman while I was only in high school. Those were just the ones I liked. I’m not even going to go into the literal harem of soon to be women chasing me around all the fucking time. And if that wasn’t enough, some mentally ill older chicks had it bad for me too. Goddamn pedophiles. It’s hard to have mercy on some of these motherfuckers, I swear. The only reason I’ve let it go is because they didn’t try to take me by force or manipulation. They flirted heavily and said many vulgar things, but they were decent enough to keep their hands off of me. I can’t say the same for the trifling piece of shit from a few years before, but these significantly older women knew better than to act on their sexual impulses.

And let me clear something up. Pedo- is Greek for child. Ephebe- is Greek for a military trained young adult of 18 - 20 years. Heb- is Hebrew, borrowed from Greek hebe-, for youth, which, in this context, is the same as pedo-. -Philia is Greek for love. A child by definition is any person under the legal age of majority. The age of majority is literally adulthood. A pedophile is a lover of any person under this age. Period. There are no other distinctions to be made, as pedophile is the OVERARCHING term for all of these “different classes of people.” Yes, I hit the quotes on your ass because they’re the same class. You’re wrong. You’re either not as smart or as educated as you think you are, and you’re just conceited and a bit socially conditioned. I don’t care about your opinion, I care about the facts. The fact is you’re completely wrong. A child fucker is a child fucker regardless of the age of the child. One IS NOT better than the other when said child fucker is not ALSO a child. Seventeen and under = child in the overwhelming majority of countries. Adults more than 21 years pursuing a 17 year old child, or younger, are PEDOPHILES! Fucking duh (-___-)

Anyway, I had Autumn, Theresa, Ghada, Nina, Diamond, and the other Diamond. In order, there was Autumn and Theresa, then Ghada gave me the clap [I already told you about her], I met Nina and the first Diamond, then I got with Diamond 2, and then back to Diamond. Oh, and Autumn and Theresa opted not to go anywhere during all of this. So, I was fucked and that’s why this complicated time led to me going back to the complex pretty much every night for the following 5 years. Got it?

Okay, then. I’ll explain it all in the next few episodes. It’s going to be a doozy, so be ready. I know this part got a bit messy but I’ll tie it all together. I promise.