“Should I tell you the truth? Or I can lie as well?”

“Of course truth.”

“I would have never-ever told you about my feelings.”

My expression changed, eyes got wide, my mouth got open again and the room was again too damn silent. “Please tell me why? And please it be reasonable”, I kept saying this to myself. Now he got off from me and sat alongside of me. This was my call to sit as well which I did. When I faced him, his expression were easily readable, he was figuring out to say the thing which is there in his mind but also at the same time thinking how to convey it. His fear of me getting disappointed from his answer was transparent.

“Just speak your heart out. I wasn’t to listen, I won’t judge you.”

“Ok, listen then…”

He took a deep breath and then exhaled it.

“We were classmates from the starting of the year, but we didn’t have interaction between us. I don’t know why… but we didn’t.”

Well yeah, that’s true.

“But since that media class which we started attending together, I was… I don’t know, I was feeling myself different around you. Not a bad different, good and pleasing different. I can say whatever I want, I can do whatever I want. It was like finding a new “ME” with you. And I liked that me, no I loved that me.”

“Drake…”

“Let me finish, and then you can say anything.”

“Ok”

His hands were trembling so I took both of them and cupped them with mine. He released another long breath and continued.

“I was myself amazed and astonished, feeling towards you differently which were not just friend feelings. It was different and it scared me. Scared the hell out of me. I have been with the girls, and I have always felt attracted towards them. But when the same attraction I started feeling towards you, my head started spinning own its own. Then one day…”

Ah, I have these long pauses.

“What happened that one day?”

“Well, the decision I told you that I would have never-ever told you about my feelings was not something I made it at the first time when I started having feeling towards you. Well, I clearly remember that day, I was standing in front of the media class and had made myself to convince you to not to attend the class and then when we would have been in cafeteria or other place. I will speak my heart out.”

“Then why didn’t you?” I squeezed his hands. It was not intentional, I was an instant reaction.

“Remember the day when you met me outside the class and the first thing came out of you was “Man, you won’t believe, I going out with Sarah.”

“Yeah, so?”

And again there was a long pause. Now I will kill him for making another long pause. But this was different. It was like now I have to understand something. Which I did after a few seconds. And when my eyebrows went up, and again I squeezed his hand but I wasn’t able to open my mouth.

“And that day I realized or you can say got step back from telling you. I convinced myself that you are into girls and only into girls. And I really didn’t wanted to ruin something precious for my feelings and that’s your company, being with you. I didn’t wanted to lose you, I wanted to be around you. And to do that, if I have to hide my feelings, I will do it gladly without any sign of sadness.”

A flood of emotions started rushing in my mind, my heart, my soul, my body. There was anger that still why he didn’t told me, we could have worked things out. On the other hand, a feeling of being liked to such an extent is making my heart melt. All I could do was to slowly move my hands from his hands to his neck, both of my thumbs caressing him. Then he continued,

“And then I also started going out with other girls, but damn if that helped. And when I finally found one, she said she wanted her friend to be also set up by someone. And before I can name any of my friends, Amanda said your name. And I don’t know why, instead of saying no, I said ok in a blink of an eye.”

“Well, let me tell you that my going out with Sarah, didn’t worked out well.” His hands were on my mine, not trying to stop me from what I was doing. He was just getting a hold of me and I got a sense of togetherness, being loved, being liked.

“Can I ask why?”

“Because all I could think about was of you damn it. Can’t you at least figure this much out?”

“For that you are here. Aren’t you?” and he gave me his most simple smile which made my chest swell if satisfaction.

“I was aware of my feeling for you even before you became aware of yours for me. And that’s the only reason I too started looking for distractions, paths, ways to get you out of my head.”

“Well, I think we both were on the same page of the book at the same time, it’s just that we didn’t knew we were there together.”

We both have now said what was there all in our heart and now were silent again. But this silent was not annoying, it was pleasing. It’s the silence after the storm is gone. And now all we have to do is some repair work, starting from the base. And the next thing uttered from me was,

“Can I kiss you?”

He nodded, and we kissed.