So this really minor thing happened at school yesterday but for some reason it really affected me. In English class we had this assignment called a partner read where you get to choose one or two people to read a book with you so that you can discuss it together. Guess who chose me as their partner? That's right, no one! And I have friends in that class too, they just decided to be a group of three and read a book one of them has already read before. When I asked if one of them could do the assignment with me since I didn't have anybody to do it with, they said no. I went to the teacher saying I didn't have anyone to do the assignment with, and this is going to sound really stupid, but then I started crying. The teacher asked another person working alone if they could be my partner for the assignment, but that person also said no. So here I was, just crying over the tiniest thing. I guess the teacher felt bad for me because she said that she had read the book I chose and that I could talk about it with her. How pathetic am I? No one--not even my friends--wanted to do the project with me so now the teacher is my partner. And I cried in class, too, just because of that! The last time I cried in public was in October when the first person I ever fell in love with broke up with me over text message while I was in the middle of play rehearsal--my character had the same name as him, by the way--saying that he had been confused about his feelings and didn't actually like me. That was too in depth, and another story for another time, but either way I feel like that's a slightly more justified reason to cry in public than because no one will do an English project with you. But whatever, here I am ranting about it on the internet because I'm sure that will end well. What am I even doing with my life?