he told me I was beautiful

He told me it was a shame I put my hair up

He told me I was the center of his world

Yet-now-I want to rip my face apart

like nails against a chalkboard

Ugly-flaky

I want to scrape my cheeks apart

to engrave my nails into my forehead

If he really loved me he would still be here

I need to carve an entirely new story into my face

Unrecognizable-unrelatable-scarred

Scared, broken-numb

he promised he would be here 

he promised forever

all the words he disregarded

all the words he left behind. 

what a fool I was to believe in forever