I'm going to San Pasqual as a result to me  punching a girl in the face. I feel like my whole world is crashing and the tool I need to stop it from crashing is just out of reach. Everyone keeps telling me San Pasqual will be good for you but I don't see it. I found a place I finally consider home and it's being taken from me. My biological family was extremely abusive amongst other things and I got taken out of that environment and put into an amazing foster family that I consider my real family and they take me away from it. The system is fucked up. I thought the whole point of foster care was to give you a second chance, to be shown love , care , safety , then be reunited. But why get attached to the family you are put with if one little mistake gets you taken away from them. So basically all I have Learned about being in the system is that there is no point of accepting the love and care you are being given because in the blink of an eye it's all gonna be taken away. 

   Plus my mom and dad ( my foster parents) tried to explain to  me that it's not because of me hitting a girl that i'm being removed from the home it's the fact that i'm a safety concern ( because I'm a self harmer) … so basically all I got from that is once shit gets tough they give up ….

  FUCK EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!