I woke to Nole petting my head. I bounced back in surprise, falling off the bed. "Sorry, sorry." I mumble and shakily stand up. Roberts walks in with a cup of tea in his hand. "Oh good you are awake." He says to me, giving Nole the tea. I blink and he gives me a bottle of the liquid.

"Sorry about last night." I say and Roberts sighs, shaking is head. He doesn't argue. "Anyway Aaron and Luci are here." He announces over his shoulder and my face brightens. Aaron and Luci walk in cautiously. "Jesus." Aaron mutters staring at my skinny frame.

"I mean you have always been skinny but this is.." Luci wonders and stares into my eyes. She pats my cheek and sits on the bed, grabbing the tea from Nole. "Thanks." Luci says airily and Nole just sighs in defeat. "Well, Elly took a liking to Rose. I think she is telling her all about the rumors." Aaron says softly.

"W- what." I find myself moving quickly to find Rose. "WAIT DAMIEN." Luci calls when I finally find her. "Rose.." I say softly. She turns after hearing my voice and name. "Go away." Jack says warning. Rose whimpers, staring at me. "Bad brother." She whispers and hold Jack's hand.

"Go away Damien, no one wants you here." Charlotte says and I feel my eyes tearing up. "Rose.." I say again softly and she turns away. "She doesn't want to be a sister to people who kill others." Elly says, stepping in front of me. "I-." My voice fails me and I turn trying to hold back tears as I run up to the roof.

"Why me.." I mumble and collapse in a heap. Memories flash through my mind.

"Come on you can do it Damien." I hear my mom call. I wave to my parents and Jack as I get ready for the hundred butterfly. "Take your marks-" The buzzer makes the sound and I dive in, feeling the rush of cool water hitting my body. I build my way up and end up getting first place. Grinning broadly I hug my parents and Jack.

"This is your sister Rose." My dad says softly, letting me hold the tiny bundle in front of me. She let's out a quiet yawn and I kiss her nose. My mom smiles tiredly and I hand Rose back. "I won another race." I say quietly and my dad smiles at me. "Good job." He says and we stand as a family.

"DAMIEN WE HAD SUCH HIGH HOPES FOR YOU." My mother screams and I back up afraid. "I- I'm sorry." I mumble, tears falling from my face. "Be like Jack.' My dad snarls and they leave the room. Rose wonders in finding me shaking and sobbing on the floor. "Dami poo, don't cry." She whispers and grab my hand with her little one. I lift my head up and smile at her.

"GOD DAMMIT CAN'T YOU GET FIRST LIKE JACK." My father yells and I shrink backwards. "I- I'm sorry. My arm hurt a lot." I mumble and my father looks enraged. "Jack has plenty of injuries and does that stop him? No it doesn't." My dad snarls and slams me into the wall. I fall to the floor, my vision blurring with tears.

"I'm sorry dad." I mumble coming back to reality. "I'm sorry." I say again and uncurl myself, walking to the edge of the roof. My hands are shaking as I stare down at the pond. "No one will find me." I mutter and let myself fall. My body makes a sickening noise as I hit the water. I blink and watch my body fall limp in the water, bubbles slowly fading. The world fades to black.

"Damien. It's ok, it's ok." My grandmother whispers holding me. "You are perfect Damien just the way you are." My grand father says and my grandmother rubs my back. "It's ok." She murmurs as my shaking slowly calms down.

"You need to go back. Find happiness." My grandmother says and I look at her confused. "B- but everyone hates me." I say, my voice surprisingly strong. "My grandson, you deserve to find happiness. You will not find it here but we will be waiting." I look at him confused as I'm pulled by an unseen force. "GRANDMOTHER. GRANDFATHER." I scream but they can't see me.

I sob as I'm pulled into darkness once again. "He's alive." A voice says and I want to wake up and scream, I just can't. "He's just in a coma." the same voice says. "Can anyone hear me." I wonder. Everyday I hear people talk. If only I could say anything. I feel someone rest their hand on mine. I try but fail to give them a sign that I can hear them.

"Please.." I mumble and my eyes open in shock. "I can speak. I can speak." I whisper in awe. It's dark in the room and I hear beeping. "Is anyone there." I ask, my voice hoarse from not talking. "Did someone say something?" A nurse asks, poking her head in.

"I- I did." I say my voice wavering. "OH MY GOD HE'S AWAKE." She yells and disappears, presumably looking for a doctor. "He's what now." I hear someone ask and they walk into the room. "Is it true?" They murmur. "N- Nole?" I ask quietly. "Damien." He says in disbelief.

"Damien." He says again, and I nod. "It's really you." Nole murmurs and steps forward, grabbing my hand. "Rose hates me." I mutter and he stares at me. "No she doesn't." I shake my head at his words and stare at the ceiling. He sighs, knowing I won't speak anymore. 

I blink away tears as I stare at the white ceiling. Push people away, that's the best option now. I close my eyes and try ignore the thoughts eating away at me. The days passed slowly and finally I was released. Roberts takes me back to the school. "I have to go somewhere in a couple  hours." I tell him quietly and he nods.

I wait until noon and then leave the school. "Hey guys." I says softly, entering the gymnasium. "DAMIEN." I hear someone yell. "Hey Nico." I say. He pulls me into a hug. "God it's been so long. We heard you went to the hospital, are you ok?" He asks as my other teammates walk out. I nod and change into my workout gear.

I practice on my favorite event, the horizontal bar. My body naturally warms up to it. I flip off it and land perfectly, despite being gone for awhile. I grin to myself and get some water. "Have a good day Damien." Nico calls and I wave to him, leaving a few hours later. I walk back to the school and quickly move around the students running about excited it was a Friday. 

"I'm back." I call quietly and Roberts pokes his head out from a room. "Cool, a kid fainted so I will be busy for a bit." I nod and go into my room, shutting the door. I search around for a cigarette and find one. I light it and exhale slowly through my nose. I kick off my shoes and put on music.

I grab my guitar and strum it. I hum along to the song. My mouth starts singing the next one that comes on.

"I don't wanna hear you've got a boyfriend

Sometimes you're better off alone

But if you change your mind, you know where I am

Yeah, if you change your mind, you know where to find me

But I don't ever wanna be your boyfriend

And never did I think that I

Would be caught in the way you got me

Push another girl aside and just give in

Girls love girls and boys (sophisticated, manipulated)

Girls love girls and boys (sophisticated, manipulated)

And never did I think that I

Would be caught in the way you got me

But girls love girls and boys

And love is not a choice

Pose, you've gotta save your reputation

They're close to finding out about your girlfriend

But if you change your mind, you know where I am

Yeah, if you change your mind, you know where to find me

But I don't wanna save your reputation

And never did I think that I

Would be caught in the way you got me

Push another girl aside and just give in

Girls love girls and boys (sophisticated, manipulated)

Girls love girls and boys (sophisticated, manipulated)

And never did I think that I

Would be caught in the way you got me

But girls love girls and boys

And love is not a choice

I am just a villain vying for attention from a girl

A girl who can't decide and here's the reason why

Girls love girls and boys (sophisticated, manipulated)

Girls love girls and boys (sophisticated, manipulated)

Girls love girls and boys (sophisticated, manipulated)

Girls love girls and boys (sophisticated, manipulated)

And never did I think that I

Would be caught in the way you got me

But girls love girls and boys

And love is not a choice."

I breathe heavily from singing that much. I put my guitar on the ground and stood up, wanting to eat something. I walk out and make a sandwich.I drink a bottle of the liquid and munch on it. My legs are stretched out, my ankles crossed. Roberts trips over them and I let out a laugh. "Not very funny Damien." He says and I just grin innocently at him.

"Your sister is due for a checkup at any minute." He says and I glare at him. "Could have told me that sooner." He shrugged and went to check on the kid that fainted. I finished my sandwich. The door opens and Jack walks in with Rose. I retract my feet and stand up, washing the dish.

"Over here." Roberts says and motions for the two of them to step into a room. I sigh and walk into my room closing the door after me. The blinds are open and I roll my eyes. Roberts doesn't want them closed for some reason. I hum to myself and tap my hand to the beat of the music.

I sigh and mash my head in the pillow a few minutes later. "Damien." I hear a voice snap. "MMHPPH." I scream into the pillow as a response. I hear their footsteps coming closer and I yank my head up. "What." I ask glaring into their eyes. "Jesus Christ." Nole mutters. "Your green eyes are well, lifeless." He mumbles and I blink.

"Wh- what." I say confused. He blushes and hides his face. "That was not mean to be said out loud." I shake my head and chuckle. "God that's so fucking embarrassing for you." I taunt and he picks his head up. "I didn't say anything." I mumble with my hands in the air as surrender. His eyes narrow and he jumps on me.

"GOOD LORD I DON'T WANNA HAVE SEX." Nole yells after I started screaming that he wanted to kiss me. I giggled and kissed his cheek. His eyes widened in shock. "U- uhhh.." He stuttered and I just laughed. "You play the guitar?" He aks, changing the subject quickly. "Oh uh yeah." I blush.

Dammit why am I blushing. "I er can play it." I stumble over my words. He nods eagerly. I sigh. "I'm not very good soo.." I mumble and make sure it's tuned. 'What song?" I ask and he grins showing me the song. "Hold up, that's a girls voice." He just smirked and I sighed. 

"I feel the sunlight on my head

The scent of summer in my bed

When we were footprints in the sand

Stealing liquor, making plans

I can see your face from miles and miles away

But heaven knows it's gonna fade, heaven knows it's gonna fade

I'm a dog searching for reasons and a way

Back to your hands you make me tremble, make me crash

Forget my name

And just ride that wave until we higher than life

With the sun in our eyes

Yeah, just ride on that cloud until we fall from the sky

No more tears for the night

For the ni-i-i-i-i-ight

For the ni-i-i-i-i-ight

Yeah, just ride that wave until we higher than life

With the sun in our eyes

They said to watch out for your kind

I watched out and it blew my mind

They say that romance makes you blind

Well, I'll be blinded for a lifetime

But I can see your face from miles and miles away

And I remember every kiss, all the games you had me play

I'm a dog searching for answers and a way

Back to your hands you make me tremble, make me crash

Forget my name

And just ride that wave until we higher than life

With the sun in our eyes

Yeah, just ride on that cloud until we fall from the sky

No more tears for the night

For the ni-i-i-i-i-ight

For the ni-i-i-i-i-ight

Yeah, just ride that wave until we higher than life

With the sun in our eyes

La la la la la la la la la

La la la la la la la la la

With the sun in your eyes (La la la la la la la la la)

La la la la la la la la la

Ey

I can see your face from miles and miles away

But heaven knows it's gonna fade, heaven knows it's gonna fade

I'm a dog searching for answers and a way

Back to your hands you make me tremble, make me crash

Forget my name

And just ride that wave until we higher than life

With the sun in our eyes

Yeah, just ride on that cloud until we fall from the sky

No more tears for the night

For the ni-i-i-i-i-ight

For the ni-i-i-i-i-ight

Yeah, just ride that wave until we higher than life

With the sun in our eyes"

I blush when I'm done, realizing the door was open. "PERFECT." He shouts and hugs me. "Uhh..." I mumble, blushing. "Thanks." I mutter and put the guitar away. "You sounded like her, probably your smoker voice." Nole says and I glare at him. "Pretty boy is pretty rude." I giggle at my own pun but he doesn't think it's good.

"Have you ever sung for anyone before?" Nole asks and sits in my chair. "Uh not really. I used to sing to Rose and Jack to calm them down." I say my face falling. "Oh you and Jack were at one point nice to one another?" He asks and Jack snorts. "Yeah, until he killed my best friend."