I blush after he picks his head up. "You- you do?" He asks. I nod and he smiles at me. "Come here Damien." He says softly and I scoot my body closer to his open arms. "That's progress." He murmurs and I lean my head back. "I want to go to your therapist." I say and his eyes widen in shock.

"Uh yeah sure." He says and I smile up at him. "Why don't you sleep ok. I'll make an appointment." He says and I nod. My body curls up under the covers and I fall asleep and sleep soundly for the first time in years without medicine. 

~Few Days Later~

"Kiss me." I read on my phone and laugh. "What is it?" Nole asks beside me on the grass. We were finished with class so we decided to hang out on the lawn. I took a drag of my cigarette and showed it to him. It was a comment on my latest video of me singing.

"Do they know that you are taken?" He asks and I shake my head. "I was thinking of doing a QnA. You would probably be in it." I say and he nods. "Here let me see my phone." I take  it from him and post the QnA announcement. It immediately blows up. "DAMIIIII." I hear Rose call and I turn my head to look at her.

She and Charlotte had become close and were playing in the grass. "I can do a back flip." She cheers and I laugh. She shows me with Charlotte spotting her. I clap. "Aren't you a gymnast?" Nole asks beside me and I nod. Rose comes running over. "Dammii show him your tricks." She says and I sigh.

"Just for you Rosie." I say and stand up. I go further back. My body positions itself correctly and I do a round off into a back handspring. I smile after I land and turn to face them. Rose is smiling and Charlotte looks in awe. "I thought gymnasts were short?" Aaron calls out. I just shrug. "I don't know. I mean I'm good at gymnastics and swimming." Nole puts his phone down after tapping something on it.

"Did you even watch babe?" I ask pouting and he grins wickedly. "Yep." I narrow my eyes and tackle him. "GIVE ME THE FUCKING PHONE." I scream and he laughs. "I just posted it to my insta." He says and I glare at him. "My angel." He says and I blush. "WHO WANTS TO READ THIRST COMMENTS FOR DAMIEN." Luci calls out running over to us with her phone splayed out.

"This one says; I'd like to kiss that ass allll day." Luci reads out and I blush. "Not even the worst." I mutter and Nole turns to me. "Tell me the worst." He says grinning. Rose looks confused and Charlotte takes her away. They wave goodbye. "It er said something along the lines of 'I want a foursome with Damien,his ass, and his dick." Nole laughs and I hide my cherry red face.

"So you would have to-" I cut Aaron off there. "Nole don't we have somewhere to go."He sighs but nods. "Yeah we do. Bye guys." We say our goodbyes and head to his car. "She is really nice and knows about your history." I nod feeling really nervous all of a sudden.

"Hey it's ok." Nole says and rubs my arm. "I'll be there with you." I nod but just stare out the window. When we finally get there it's a homey building with a nice looking couch. "Hi Nole. This is..?" The receptionist asks. "This is Damien my boyfriend. Lilah he's gay." Nole says after she eye fucks me.

I blush and she laughs. "I figured." I smiled at her indifference and Nole paid the fee. "She will be ready in a second." Lilah says and we sit on the couch. Nole texts on his phone while my foot taps quickly on the ground. There are other people in the waiting room. "Nole and Damien?" A woman who looks to be about 40 asks.

Nole looks up and smiles. "Hi Zia, this is Damien." He says standing up. I follow him nervously. She smiles and I shake her hand. "Let's head back shall we." She says and I follow Nole to the last room. It's nice and homey like the entire place and we sit on the two person couch. "If you ever feel uncomfortable please tell Nole or me ok." Zia says and I nod.

"So I'm just going to start of with asking why you are here. We can figure out the lead causes and try to help one at a time." I nod and smile. "I erm want to get over some trauma and learn how to handle my emotions better. I also want to stop self harming." She nods and writes those things down on the notepad she has.

"Ok so we know our goals. I want to start with the emotions because if we help with those it can help you with your other issues." She says kindly I nod as Nole leans against me. "So I would like to know if you know why you might have these highs and lows. Could you try and explain those to me please?" She asks politely.

"Well er my parents have abused me since I was 7. I have had to take care of my two younger siblings, on of which who hates me. I never really got to interact very well socially. My parents kept me away from people a lot. The times I have interacted with people it turned out terribly." She nods and writes stuff down.

"Have you tried to calm yourself when you find yourself in extreme anger or sadness?" She asks and I sigh. "Well when I get angry I call it seeing red and I can't really calm down. The last time it happened was last Sunday. He uh was the receiving end." I say the last part quietly. She nods and smiles at me.

"You are in luck with that. I have known a lot of people who struggle with that issue. Can I guess that when you are sad it's extremely hard for you to communicate with people correctly?" I nod and she smiles at me softly. "So the next time that you feel a wave of anger or sadness I want you to turn to something that calms you. This isn't something that is going to be fixed easily but you being able to say that you want to fix it is already great progress."

I smile at her words. We go on for a little bit and by the end of it she has helped me understand where these feeling may have come from. "Can we see you next week?" She asks and I nod. Nole makes the appointment and I walk out of the place feeling happier with myself. Nole and I talk about random things as we make it back to the school.

"So let's film the QnA video." I say and he nods. I post on twitter that my live stream is starting. I sit down on the chair in what was Nole's room. It's now our room. I smile a the thought and Nole flops on the bed in the background. I turn on the camera and wait for people to come in. Soon I'm ready to begin.

"So here we have the list of questions that you guys have. The one I see the most is if I'm single. I am not single. Sorry guys but I have a boyfriend who is here right now." I thumb to Nole on the bed and he looks up. "Hmmmm." He mumbles and stand up coming over to me. The chat is filled with compliments to Nole and I.

"The next question is why did I start singing. Well er I started singing to put my brother and sister to sleep when my parents were at parties. Then Nole heard me singing one day and just lovessss to make me do it often. I figured why not try and put it on YouTube." Nole smiles and sits in the chair next to me.

"He's really good in person too." I blush at his compliments. "NEXT QUESTION." I yell. "Why do you have scars on your body? Uh well I am a self harmer. I'm not proud of it and I am actually trying to stop." Nole smiles at me. "He hasn't in a few days and I'm really proud of him." He says and kisses my cheek. I blush and he laughs.

"Fourth question. Do I have any siblings. Yes I have two. I love them both a lot." I don't say anything more and go onto the next question. Nole grins and shows me his phone after about thirty questions. I roll my eyes. "Anyway, I'll be posting more videos of us. Have a nice night,day,evening, or morning." I say my outro and close the stream.

"GIVE ME A KISS BITCH." I yell and Nole blushes. I laugh as he falls out of the chairs in surprise. I lie on top of him and kiss him sweetly.