POV: Scarlet 

I wonder if I did the right thing? Was I too harsh? I didn’t mean to be so mean, but I had to. It was the only way to keep myself from crying again. She must really hate me now. God, I am a piece of shit.

I wish I turned around and held her.

She was crying.

Fuck me.

I can’t believe I did that to her. I had to get my message across, I had to.

“Why you so down? I thought we were going to have sex.” Rey pouts as she curls up next to me.

“It’s Maddison,” I say.

She sighs.

“I gave her detention for disrupting class and I took this back.” I hold out my apartment key which dangles from the chain.

“Okay, so why you so down?”

“Because I was a bitch to her. I made her cry.”

“Doesn’t she deserve it? How many nights have you cried over her?”

“An eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind.”

“Huh?”

“Meaning whether I cry or she cries, it doesn’t matter, it’s all just pain.”

“I think I’ll hold on to this.” She takes the key.

I turn to her.

“What? I come over every day, might as well have a key.”

“I don’t know if I am ready to give that out again. I just got it back.”

“It’s just a key.” She points out.

But it’s not. It’s a symbol of my love for Maddison. I made it for her. Our one month anniversary. I took it from her, I’m an asshole.

“Do you love me?” I ask.

She sighs and set the key on the nightstand before crawling on top of me. I run my hands up her legs to her thighs as she sits on my stomach. She grabs my hands in her own and interlocks our fingers.

“Do you love me?” she shoots back.

“No,” I admit.

She sighs and gives me a soft smile before saying, 

“Well, I don’t love you either. Not yet at least. It might take some time before either of us falls in love again.”

I let my head fall back on the pillow and close my eyes.

“That doesn’t mean I don’t like you. Because I do, I think you are amazing. A little selfish, but overall great. I want to show you what real love is. I want you to be the one that makes me fall in love all over again. I want to love you in all the right ways. Make you feel like a queen. Is that what you want?”

“Yes.” I swallow down my tears.

“Tell me, tell me what you want out of this, in your own words.” She squeezes my hands.

I open my eyes and look at her.

“I want this pain to go away. I want you. I want you to be happy with me. To help me feel good enough again. I want you to be happy. I want to be able to dance with you, love you, kiss you, I want to do everything with you without ever thinking of her again. But I’m scared. What if I mess this up somehow? What if I am not good enough? What if I can never love again?”

She lets go of my hands and moves to kiss me. Our lips touch softly before she pulls back.

“The fact that you are scared tells me you care. It tells me you are trying. That’s all I want for now. I just want you to try. Don’t let the fear stop you from being happy. One day you and I will be doing whatever it is we are doing at the time, and you’ll realize you haven’t thought about her or the pain in a very long time. You’ll realize that you and I are just happy together. When that day comes, I want you to marry me right then and there.”

I giggle.

“I mean it. when you feel that moment, just marry me and let us have our happily ever after.”

“Okay, I will. Even if I don’t have a ring?”

“Hell you could propose with a candy ring and I’d say yes. Hell just grab an onion ring from some fast food place.”

I giggle some more.

“Better?” she asks.

“Much. You always know just what to say. Come here my little stingray.” I hold open my arms.

She laughs but comes into my arms.

“Keep working on it.” she snickers.

“Damn, I thought I had that one. You know stingray like the car, like the animal, Rey. I thought you would like it.”

“Put it on the maybe list.”

“Yes. Finally, one on the maybe list.”

She giggles and pinches my side.

I kiss her on the cheek. She moves and connects our lips. Emm. She tastes so good. I quickly deepen the kiss and turn it into a make-out session. She rolls around on top of me to get into a better position. I run my hands up her shirt and her back. Her warm skin feels good in my hands.

“Mmm.” She moans into my mouth.

I flip her over on to her back and get on top of her kissing my way down her neck.

“Fuck, you're turning me on.” She moans.

I lift her shirt up and grab one of her full c cup breasts in one hand and wrap my lips around the nipple of her other breast.

“Oh fuck, mmm.” She runs her fingers through my hair, undoing the sloppy bun.

I use my free hand to unbutton her pants. Then I lift her shirt over her head and toss it to the floor. She unhooks her bra herself and throws it to the floor. I kiss over every inch of skin, rubbing my hands up and down her sides.

Then I grab her pants and yank them down her legs.

“Strip for me,” she demands.

“Yes, master.” I tease.

I get off the bed and let her move to get more comfortable and a better view. Then I strip for her. Slowly and sexily removing my clothes one article at a time. She watches me with eager eyes. I watch her play with her tongue ring, her breathing getting heavier as I slip my slacks off. Then I turn around and undo my bra, taking it off and letting it slip to the floor. Then with my back still to her, I shimmy out of my underwear.

“Turn around.” She demands.

“I don’t know, should I?” I tease.

She gets up and pushes me against the wall. I am sure to keep my back to her.

“Hmm, defying orders, that will need to be punished.” She slaps my ass.

“Uh!” I moan.

She smacks my ass again, this time harder. Fuck that really gets me going.

“Spread your legs.” She demands.

“Okay.” I pant as I spread my legs.

She slaps my ass again, “What was that?”

“I meant yes master.” Fuck this is hot.

“That’s what I thought.” She smirks.

She gets on her knees behind me and spreads my ass cheeks. Then she gets under me and starts to eat me out.

“Oh fuck!” I moan.

I can feel her tongue ring bumping up against my clit. I move to hold her head closer but that causes her to stop completely.

“Please.” I whimper. She crawls out from under me.

“On the bed, now.” She orders.

“Yes, master.” I move to lay down.

She turns me over and spanks my ass hard.

“Ah! Fuck.”

God if she keeps topping me like this, I might consider switching to bottom permanently. She gets up and digs into my nightstand pulling out the strap on.

“Lay on your back.” She demands.

“Yes, master.” I turn over.

I watch her slip it on over her underwear.

God, I think her being so tiny turns me on even more. She’s so much shorter than me yet she controls me so easily. God that’s hot.

She spreads my legs and slips the plastic shaft inside of me.

“Uh, oh f-fuck. Yes, fuck me.”

“Say my name.” she starts pumping her hips slowly.

“Oh Rey, fuck me, Rey.”

“Damn you're so sexy.” She moves her hips faster.

“Harder Rey, deeper,” I beg.

She shoves it all the way in.

“Uh! Yes!” I arch my back off the bed.

“Fuck you’re so hot.” She grabs my breast in her hands.

She starts to go faster, her hips slapping against my own. She grabs my hips and begins her relentless assault. Sounds of slapping flesh fills the room. I wrap my arms around her neck and start thrusting back into her.

“Fuck, yes. Uh! More, I want more.” I beg.

She presses her whole body into me before going even faster plunging the shaft into my hot sex over and over. I wrap my legs around her small frame.

“Yes, yes! Fuck me Rey.” I whimper.

“Fuck, keep on moaning for me baby, it’s so hot.”

I grab her lips with my own and shove my tongue into her mouth, playing with her tongue ring.

“Mmm.” I moan into her mouth.

God, I’m getting close.

“I’m gonna cum!” I cry out.

“Yes cum for me, say my name.”

“Oh, Rey! Fuck! I’m Uh! I’m cumming!” my legs shake under her.

She peppers me in kisses before pulling out.

“My turn.” I flip her over.

She is almost breathless. I watch her chest rise up and down, fuck she’s hot. I pull the strap on off and then slip her underwear off. She’s so wet already. I spread her legs and lick my way up her wet snatch. She has a pretty big clit, almost like a tiny penis. It’s about an inch and a half. It gets hard and erect like a penis. It’s so cute, I’ve never seen one like this before.

I suck it into my mouth and roll my tongue around it.

“Ah! Fuck babe, yes.” She cries out.

I insert a finger into her and then two. Then I quickly push in and out of her.

“Oh fuck, fuck I’m close already.” Her legs shake as she gets ready to blow.

I suck harder on her clit and curl my fingers inside of her.

“Ah! Fuck!” her hips jerk under me.

I do it again and again until she cums.

Afterwards, we just lay there. Eventually, I make her get up and shower with me. Then we lay down and get ready for bed. She turns on the tv to watch random sci-fi movies. She eventually falls asleep on my chest. I turn the tv off and close my eyes.

Yet, I can’t sleep.

Having Rey lay here next to me, it just doesn’t feel right. I like the girl, she’s been so good to me. She is patient, understanding, amazing, and funny, but… she doesn’t love me and I don’t love her.

It’s good between us, but moments like these, moments when I am alone with my thoughts. These are the moments' doubt and loneliness creeps in. I fell for Maddison; I fell hard for her. I went all in. I have never done that before with anyone, and I am not sure I will ever take that risk ever again. I know Rey is hoping I will eventually fall in love with her and she will fall in love with me but I’m not so sure that’s how it works.

Maybe it’s too early to tell. We’ve only been together for a few days, I haven’t really had time to woo her and she hasn’t had a chance to woo me. it just feels all wrong, she already sleeping in my bed, spending the night and talking about moving in. I want to feel something with her, some spark, some passion. She’s hot, the lust is certainly there, but nothing else.

It’s like I know what it’s supposed to feel like. I know what I want it to feel like, but it doesn’t feel like that. That to me is what bothers me most of all. Am I making a mistake? Am I just being stupid? Should I just take Maddison back before Rey and I get really serious?

If only it were that simple, but when I look at Maddison I feel a deep ache in me. An awful pain and I am reminded all over of what she did to me. I don’t think I could ever trust her again. Or that I am even ready for a serious relationship like that. I don’t know what I want, I’m confused.

I snuggle up closer to Rey and close my eyes to sleep.

To Be Continued...

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