Dear Yuki Kim,

I owe much to you, which is why you deserve to know and understand the truth.

Monique Silvers was, and very much is now, irrevocably in love with you.

In her own twisted way.

She dated me to make you jealous, and grew hatred towards me when it hadn’t worked.

I’ve had my suspicions, but this past month has truly confirmed it.

It's very much hard to love someone who doesn’t love you back, and I have taken that knowledge to heart. I am fearful for my future.

I never mentioned this before, but aside from the mental and physical abuse, she cheated on me.

I knew it, but I was just so scared to see any life where she wasn’t in it.

As someone without a mark, I grew up feeling defective. That I would never complete a mark with anyone. That I would never feel whole.

I thought she was my only chance to have love.

So I ignored the bruises she gave me, the way she made me feel worthless, like I was nothing without her.

I ignored the way she openly had sex with anyone who even remotely looked like you.

But on that monday, when I stumbled across her kissing-

I just had enough. It was dab there in the middle of the courtyard. Everyone saw. Everyone knew.

So I ended it. But now, I’m just down to this complete singular thought after spending an entire year with that woman in my life.

Why did I think I deserved that much pain and hurt?

Sincerely…

Will.