It would be no good to regret now that it is too late.

My parent is going to send me to stay in the Countryside with my grandmother and complete my studies there .So soon I won't be able to see him or hear his voice any more.

How much the idea of leaving him behind me is torturing me.I feel as though I am suffocating, So I made a decision not to meet him again until I left this town.I will express all my buried feelings which I could not show it or tell it in my pink diary.

{ On my departure day}

I met Ali by accident ,while I was holding my diary in my hand I rushed and put it in my pocket .

Ali said,"It's been a whole month and I did not see you or hear your voice.Are the words they say are true?Are you leaving?"

Hanin said,"Yes,I'm "

Ali asked,"When will you leave?"

Hanin replied, " I will leave tonight."

Ali asked,"Did I do something wrong?"

Hanin beat her lips and said,"No,you didn't, but as Arabs, we have grown up and we can not be friends anymore.From now on towards you can depend on yourself .You are no longer a child anymore."

Ali said,"Believe me,Hanin I won't be able to live without you. "

Hanin was pretending to be strong but the truth wad quite different. she was She felt as if someone was taking a part of her away from her.she was considering Ali as apart of her.

The fact is that over the past years each one of them has strengthened the other not only that, but over the past years each one of them has completed the other's shortage.

It is hard for her to give up all this, but finally she realized that they are from two different worlds and the distance between them as far as the distance between heaven and the earth so she must pretend that she has no feelings for him and that they are only friends and that they have reached the crossroads and that each one of them must follow his path By himself.It is so hard on her to do that but she has to do it.

Therefore Hanin said,"That's not true.Do not think this way.After a few years your father will choose the right wife for you. she will be everything in your life.You will not need any other woman in your life except her and you will forget me forever therefore do not make things bigger and don't give things bigger than their size. "

Ali said,"We are destined to be together When I reach to the legal age of marriage I will marry you and I will not marry someone else. No one else can replace you, so do not think about abandoning me."

The more Ali talk, the more things get hard on Hanin .she can't pretend any more so she said,"Are you insane?We We are from two different worlds and the distance between us is as far as the distance between heaven and earth.your family will not accept me as thier daughter in law so you would better forget me forever.