Ashton has been very eager to hang out with me tonight, honestly I invited him just because he was making me feel bad about sleeping with him then leaving him. I mean I don't know what else to do about it cause I have been very open to him.

Okay, well sort of really open to him. I may not have went in to detail about why I don't want anything else with him but that is okay for right now.

Maybe I am a pretty crappy person for doing him like this.

Maybe I am not what he needs in his life if this is the type of relationship that he wants.

Maybe he shouldn’t be so much fun to play with, that is not my fault.

I mean, it is hard to resist someone with blue eyes. And blonde hair. And who is fit. And who listens to me. It doesn’t make me want to learn more about him but more about what I can do to him, and how much he can take.

‘Am I meeting you somewhere or what?’ Well speaking of the devil, here he is.

‘Meet me at my car, you can ride with me.’

There isn’t any point for him to drive for the simple fact that we do live like three doors down from each other. Got to save some gas right?

‘I’ll be ready in about 15. Good with you?’

‘You got it.’ He is also a cringe factor sometimes, it isn’t a bad thing it makes me laugh quite often.

I decided to go on to my car since I was pretty much ready, I didn’t really want to walk with him all the way to my car. Nothing against him whatsoever, he just can't think that I am waiting on him.

Why am I this way?

When I got to my car I leaned against it and lit up my cigarette. I'll quit one day but that day is not happening today I need it as of right now. I took a hit off of it and ran my fingers through my hair, damn I need a haircut something terrible.

"You know that is bad for you right?" I let out the smoke that I gathered up and looked at the man that was walking to him. For a whole second, my heart skipped a beat.

Ashton looks really good right now. Don't get me wrong, he always looks good. Right now though he looks perfect. From the fitting jeans, to the white shirt with the black button up over it, and his sleeved rolled up. Damn this is everything I like to see. Almost.

"It happens." I said as I put out the cigarette.

"I mean it doesn't just happen unless you make it." Who does he think he is talking to? I am going to mess with him.

"You look good Ashton, actually you look very good." I said as I got off on my car and walked up to him. His cheeks were beginning to turn pink, I could tell that he wasn't ready for that.

"You as well Ari...So uh, where are we going again?" Okay, I see him trying to change the subject.

"Out. Going to have some drinks, might dance a little. Get in the car." I told him as I started for my side of the vehicle.

"Are you sure you want me to go? After last time?" I turned my head to him as I buckled my seat belt.

"I know what not to do this time Ashton, we are just going to have a good time with a few friends. So behave yourself." He looked at me for a second before looking forward.

That is what I thought.

"Why do you insist on calling me Ashton even after I tell you to call me Ash?" When people say things that keep them up at night this is what they mean.

"It is your name, is it not?"

"Well yeah, but--"

"There you go. I am going to call you by your name, not no nickname."

"Do you call anyone else by their nickname?"

"Yes I do Ashton. However, I like the way your name sounds and the way it rolls off of my tongue. So I am going to keep calling you by your full name. Any more questions?" I looked at him for a split second to see his face was red once again.

I love making him blush, it fits him oh so well.

The rest of the car ride was pretty quiet, I am assuming that Ashton didn't want me giving him anymore butterflies or make him hot and bothered.

"You must like it here." Ashton said about the club, we are at the same one from the night that he learned my name.

"I like the way you look under the lights. Let's go." I smirked and began walking to the building. At the doors Jacely and Lydia were already standing there with Alex.

I told Jacely that I didn't want Parker to be here with us tonight for very obvious reasons.

"Ari!" Jacely came up to me and gave me a huge hug. She pulled away and looked at Ashton. "Is this your friend you have been talking about?" Oh I hate her so much sometimes.

"Yeah it is. Ashton this is Jacely right here. The tall tooth pick is Lydia and that dude right there is Alex."

"Fuck you Ari." Lydia said as she threw something at me.

"Stop it you two! It is nice to meet you Ashton." Jacely grabbed his hand and began shaking it.

"It is a pleasure, and please call me Ash." He looked at me once he said that.

"I am not going to stop calling you Ashton, get over it." He rolled his eyes and smiled. I may not want this guy as a boyfriend but I can not take away how attractive he is from him.

Jacely yelled at everyone to head inside because she was 'ready to pop that ass'. Her words, not mine, I would never say something as embarrassing as that.

Once inside we all found a booth and sat there together. Jacely sat on one side of me and Ashton was on the other. We all ordered a drink for ourselves and began having a pretty good time.

Ashton was really opening up to everyone, especially to Alex. The two of them were holding a conversation like there was no tomorrow and I was not okay with it at all.

"Quit mean mugging Alex, they are just talking." Jacely said in my ear.

"I'm not worried about them." It was all a lie.

"It is on your face Ari. I thought you didn't want Ash that way?" I don't want him that way.

But if anyone is gonna fuck him it is going to be me, I am the only one who can make him beg with his eyes. It is my name he will crying out, not anyone else's.

I will not allow it.

I ignored what she said and finished my drink, I have to separate them.

"Come on Ashton." He looked at me so very confused.

"Where are we going?"

"To dance." He nodded and stood up so I could get up as well. I grabbed his hand and glared at Alex. He needs to back up.

We were once again in the middle of the floor like that very first night, and once again he looked perfect under it.

This time I was not black out drunk, I could function and know what not to do. However, Alcohol seems to make Ashton forget who is in charge.

He grabbed my waist and pulled me close to him, I did not know how to feel about it.

His mouth was by my ear once again sending chills all throughout my body.

"Ari..." The tone of his voice was so deep, raspy and sexy. "Were you getting jealous?" I pulled my head away and grabbed his jaw.

"Not quite pet. Just have to make sure you remember who is fucking you." I pulled his head closer to me so that my lips were next to his ear this time. "You. Are. Mine."

I could hear a moan escape from him, this guy is gonna make me take him home tonight if he keeps this up.

Ashton turned around so that his back was against my chest and began dancing on me, he knew what he was doing. He kept grinding his ass against me making me harder than a rock, but damn was it feeling good.

I grabbed him by his hair and pulled his head to the side so I could lick and kiss all over his neck. I am going to leave my mark on him this time, show everyone that he belongs to me.

"Fuck Ari.." I heard him moan out. "Make me cum.." Did I just hear him correctly?

"What was that pet?" He turned his head to me slightly so I could hear him better.

"Please make me cum. I have been waiting Ari, I haven't touched myself because I want you to do it...You make me feel so good. Please Ari, I am so hard I want you." I like him when he drinks.

"Where do you wanna go pet?" At this point it does not matter to me.

"Right here, no one has to know. Rub your dick against mine.." He turned around and put his arms over my shoulders. He yanked me to him making me be as close as possible to him.

I still didn't know how to react to him being a little controlling, but as of right now I don't care. The moment his dick was pressed against mine made me forget about everything and everyone.

We were moving in sync together causing so much friction and so much pleasure, his moans were getting louder in my ear which only turned me on so much more than what I already was.

Ashton looked me in my eyes and bit his lip, what is it about him that just makes me wanna bust right now? I grabbed his ass with one of my hands and with the other it was holding the back of his neck.

This is feeling was too good for me, I really can not go much longer.

"Ari.."

"I know." We both knew what was going to happen, so we both pushed harder against each other, that was the last straw for me. I could not hold on much longer, and by the way Ashton's eyes were closed and his lips were slightly parted I knew he couldn't either.

"I am going to go clean myself Ashton. You do the same." He nodded and followed me to the bathroom, I went inside of my own stall for a little privacy. That and I didn't want to have sex in the bathroom stall unprotected with him.

Not saying that he has anything, but safety comes first. I don't care who you are or how clean you are.

"I need water Ari, I am going back to the table." I said a simple okay to him and continued to clean myself off.

That sounded like a great idea until now, I literally feel gross. Well my boxers are gross, I feel pretty damn good.

I couldn't stay in here much longer because I had to check on Ashton to make sure he made it back okay, that boy isn't super drunk but he is on the way there.

As I got to the table I couldn't believe who was there talking to and touching Ashton. Oh hell no.

"Oh hey Ari, didn't see you there." I glared at Parker as I grabbed Ashton's waist and pulled him close to me.

"Parker. Didn't know you were coming." Ashton was looking at with a smile on his face, he was probably happy that I was being hands on with him outside of sex.

"Well I wasn't, but Alex told me to join him. I ran into Ashton here, is this--"

"He's my date. So don't touch him." As I said this I grabbed on to Ashton much tighter.

Why am I being like this? Why am I letting all of this get to me?

"Oh of course. Wouldn't want to interfere with you all, please excuse me." Parker said that as sarcastic as he could before walking away from us.

"Ari?" His voice was so sweet.

"Yeah?"

"Am I really your date?" His eyes were so soft and innocent. His voice was so loving and smooth. And here I was, not wanting any of it.

"Yes, yes you are. You are my date and only my date." And I will tell him what he wants to hear.

"Oh you are so sweet puppy!" Wait, what?

"What did you call me Ashton?"

"Puppy. Like what you called me the other night?" Oh this poor guy, he has no idea.

"Oh yes I remember now. You are my little puppe as well."

Little does he know, it's not a compliment what I am calling him.

I am probably a shitty person.

I am probably going to hell.

I hope that one day he will understand why I am this way, and I hope that when that day comes he will stay by my side.