Um...is this thing on? Oh. It is.

Well...um...Number 149. My name is ⭕⬜♦⚫.

As long as I can remember, I...never have any control over my life. My life is like a glass that shatters at the slightest sound. It's a house of cards that I just finish building after hours of work but then collapses in seconds.

It started out at home. I don't know why but I always had this naive belief that my mom, my dad, and I were this "One Big Happy Family". I mean, why not? Every picture we took together always had us smiling and beaming as if we were happy and problem-free. Every person who visited us always said that we were the ideal family. My mom would always told me bedtime stories to help me sleep, while my dad would carry me on the shoulders so that I can reach for the stars. We were happy.

At least, I thought so...

Some time after, screaming and crying became a normal thing at home. I would always be in my room hearing my parents quarrel about stuff that I didn't understand. It was awful. To think that we were actually happy...was ridiculous. I wanted it to stop. I wanted it to end. I wish that just this once...my parents would be quiet. And before I knew it, my dream came true. Through their deaths. I am now alone. I could still feel my heart ripping apart with sorrow, but there's no one for me to turn to.

So instead, I just pretend that I felt no pain to ease it.

My school life wasn't helping either. In high school, I was a nobody. You could say that I am a pushover. I would be picked on and laughed at. Everyone knew that I am a weakling and would take advantage of that. The more I cry, the more pain I would feel.

I didn't like that so I tried to ignore the voices of those people. I portrayed myself as a normal kid with a normal life. I acted like the bullying and the insults didn't bother me, so that I wouldn't feel any pain. As long as I thought that everything's fine, then everything would be fine.

But it's not.

Looking back at it now, it doesn't change the fact that my entire life...is nothing but a lie.

My family is a lie.

My school life is a lie.

Everything I do is so that I wouldn't have to face the truth that my life sucks. I never have a say on what's going to happen in my life. I never have the power to change my story. I am nothing but a pathetic character destined to have a pathetic end.

I wish...that I could just die and get it over with.

On the darkness hour of my life, I came across something amazing. The only thing that kept me sane. That's Danganronpa.

A show about mystery and murder, I am completely hooked by it. The stimulation, the action, it makes me feel like I can do anything. I enjoy figuring out who the murderer is and how he did it. It's like a little game to me. For once it made me feel that I am good at something and that I can be anything I want to be.

That's when I made my decision to apply to be part of the show. If I were a contestant...I want to be an Ultimate Supreme Leader. The reason is that I want to have control with what I do.

You would think that someone like me could never pull it off.

I couldn't blame you...

But I know I can do it. I know that I can pull it off.

If my life until now is nothing but lies, then I will become the Embodiment of Lies. I will have everyone right under my thumb. Instead of playing the victim, I will the Jester who messes with the people around me. No one will push me around anymore. I get to decide my own fate.

That's what I want to be. That's what I strive to be.

Let the fun and games begin.