Dhi'ki-de ja ta u'darahje - Death to the abomination - (ja ta) my made up words

He's one of them, but human sized. We've been meeting a few times out of the week, in my secret place, well our secret place now. He has a kind disposition, and is eager to learn about his other half that lives above ground.

He's a mixed breed, a human and Yautja combination. Yautja, that's what the aliens are. Yautja... I love it... sounds strong.

He's young by Yautja standards, and is tired of this existence, he wants to live above ground, but his mixed DNA keeps him from realising his dreams.

In exchange for stories about my time on Earth, he's teaching me their language. I know that it's frustrating for him, as it is for me, but he's patient.

Da'sal, I've grown fond of him, and our meetings, and when he didn't show one evening, I actually missed him. He's become a friend to me in these last weeks.

Waiting until everyone has left the Canyon, I venture out into the springs, undressing and entering the warm water. Now this is therapeutic... I see why everyone loves coming here.

The tension leaving my body, I go under and come back up. "Can I join you?" His voice loud in the gorge, causes my heart to skip a beat. If fear was a scent, mine would perfume the whole room.

"Da'sal, you scared the shit out of me!"

The merriment in his eye's becomes clouded by something else, and trying to cover myself, he doesn't even make an attempt to look away. "Can you please turn around?"

"You don't have anything, that I haven't seen before."

"No, but you haven't seen all of mine, so I'd like to keep the rest of it private."

A small smile, before it's instantly gone. I can hear it also, footsteps echoing throughout the canyon. "A human..." Says Da'sal, listening intently. Scrambling to get dressed, I have my clothing on in record time, as Dominic enters our area. He's looking from Da'sal to me, then back at Da'sal.

"Did Vata shrink?"

We're outside of my temp home, I'm trying to get him to understand what Da'sal told me. Half breeds, a whole community of them, right here with us.

If the others knew about them, they'd be killed. Abominations, is what they're called, a disgrace. "Vata wouldn't do something like that, he couldn't."

"Are you off your meds? He's one of them, has he ever said anything to you about having children with you?"

Come to think of it, no... and there hasn't been any contraceptive use either. I never really thought about it, I just figured that maybe having children, was a toss up in the air, with him. He wasn't human and I wasn't what he was, so... it could happen, maybe it couldn't.

"Talk to him about it, his response should tell you what you need to know."

And that's what I did...

Demanding to see him, I had to take a number and get in line. This isn't what I was expecting, he has no time for me, I can't even share the same home with him.

And then to be treated like one of his subjects, I thought that I was the wife, what happened to that?

Liam's with me, even though I advised that I didn't need him. I can handle all of the curse words on my own. I'm not fluent but I can handle a few words.

He's with a few others of his kind, while I wait impatiently, with barely concealed anger. Darts flying his way, with every glance in my direction.

"You're not supposed to be here."

Finally!!! "I... I miss you." Where the hell did that come from?

The back of his hand loving caressing my cheek, I lean into his caress, eyes closed reveling in the comfort that it gives me.

"I've missed you too."

"Well... I guess that I'm not needed after all." Says Liam, as I'm lightly kissing Vata's hand.

"Wait, take her with you."

"No, I just waited a long ass time..."

"Amara, now isn't the time." Says Liam, interrupting my rant, with a hand on my arm.

Like hell it isnt...

Vata's breathing has increased and his face is set in stone. Tempering my anger, I take a few breaths to calm myself. "I waited a long time, I need to talk to you." I state, quietly.

A slight nod, and I follow him to a room, where the door is closed to prying ears.

"How could you dismiss me like that? I haven't seen you in weeks..."

"It's not safe."

"But still... I don't get to see you, do you even still want me?"

"Of course."

"I don't know what that means."

"Yes." He says, trying out a simpler word.

"When can I see you?"

With a sigh, he rambles on about something, that sounds like "Wah Wa Wa Wah..." to me.

"Liam!" I scream out the door.

An impromptu lesson, with Liam and I was able to convey my line of questioning to Vata.

"What do you think about, having children... with me?" I ask, Lying in his arms, later that night.

"No, it can't happen."

"What if it could?"

"It would be an aberration, it would have to be killed."

"Have to be?"

"It cannot live."

"Would you kill our child?"

"Dhi'ki-de ja ta u'darahje..."

Liam's translation floors me, "death to the abomination". There must have been some misunderstanding, he couldn't possibly have meant that about our child. I get a second opinion from Da'sal, and it's the same translation. Meeting him in our secret place, i'm not up for lessons today. "Where did you learn that?"

"A friend..."

"He's one of us, I can smell him on you."

"But I bathed, how could you still smell him?"

"We give off a scent, that humans can't detect. He's the one that marked your face?"

"Yes."

"You're mated to him?"

"No... well... yes... I guess."

"You don't know if you're mated to him?"

"I'm with him, so I guess we're mated."

"What about the human male, his scent's usually on you also. He's your mate?"

"It's complicated... What's with all these questions?"

"I don't think that he likes me."

"Well... that's because he thinks that you're trying to mate with me." I state jokingly, trying to lighten the mood.

"Well, his reasoning for not liking me is warranted, then."