Oscar's Diary

My name is Oscar Allen, and even though I am unable to speak, I do have feelings. When people hear that I can't speak, they also think I am deaf too, so I have lived my whole life with people judging me just because I cannot speak. My mother left me, though I barely remember her, I can still remember bits and pieces of her, like the last time I've ever seen her. But now I am 16 years old and I've been living with Robin since I was 5. At the time Robin was 8, and I barely know how he feels about me, I do not know if he knows I like him, no I love him, but he would never like someone like me, he would like people who are able to speak, but that's, not something I can give. He is also a straight man, so I can't date him either way. I'm not even sure if I have a right to be able to think that way about him since we grew up together and he took care of me too, he's like a second parent to me, so I am mad at myself that I think that way. If I had one wish then it would either be, to make me able to talk or to make myself stop liking Robin in that way, but even if it's just a wish I will not be able to stop thinking about him since I love him, and I'm too obsessed with him, and I cannot make it stop, its like its taking over my mind every time I see him.