this isn't what's best for me it's best I leave this behind as a part of my past something to learn from because I know this isn't what's best for me

This isn't what's best for me putting back on a mask for society to hide all of my pain all of my fears when inside I'm suffocating and I just want to run I should have known that working in retail wouldn't be for me because you have to be to be something you're not and pretending to be okay when I was falling apart I can't do that anymore I can't pretend that things don't get to me I can't pretend that I'm not angry or upset or hurt when someone says something to me I can't put on a smile put on mask for customers I can't pretend that my boss doesn't make me feel like I'm stupid and I'm worthless and like it would just be better if I wasn't around I can't pretend that the things she says and the way she treats people doesn't bother me everyone's always telling me to smile I can't I can't pretend to be happy when I'm not I can't pretend to be something I'm not anymore I can't I can't pretend I know this isn't what's best for me