I grab my purse and storm off. I am sure mother is yelling at me but truthful, I couldn't care less.
I drive away, probably to fast but I couldn't stay there a second longer. Tears begin to fall down my cheeks, a waterfall by now. But I am driving too fast to pay attention. I have to go somewhere I can't keep wandering around forever. I do what I always do when I am upset: call Sam.
"Sam you there?"
"Oh hey babe, how did the baby shower for your bratty sister's ugly named baby?" She giggles, she always makes me smile. It doesn't last long because instead of answering her back, I return her questions with sobs.
"Hey honey, deep breaths. Where are you?"
"Just driving around." I can barely say anything between the sobs.
"Meet me at Spiceland."
"Okay."
I end our call. Spiceland is always known as me and Sam's favorite coffee shop. It's my safe place because none of my family knows I go there. I always I am just going out with Sam, it's works every time.
When I get there I already see her at our usual spot, a table right beside a window. The smell of the fresh coffee warms my heart and it helps the cute guy at the counter always smiles at me.
Sam is wearing jeans and a sweatshirt with our college logo on it. She has already moved on campus her parents are amazing and made sure she got there early. Unlike mine of course.
"Hey love," she smiles while taking me into her loving arms. Sam is beautiful with her , straight, coffee brown hair, and freckles. She is very short but she is very curvy, very breath taking. Despite her gorgeous looks she hasn't dated much.
"Hey Sams,"
"What happened darling?" Sam asks while we finish hugging and sit down.
"I drew Annabel a picture of her, Alan, and the baby for her present. Let's just say she took it 'so well.' She ended up slamming it down to ground, shattering the frame. I can't stand her. Alan tried to help me, of course, mother and father had to jump in." I just sigh, sometimes you just have to.
"She's being a bitch as usual. How did you get out of there?" Sam asks while taking a sip of her coffee, it's her Achilles heel.
"I yelled, called her a bitch, stormed out, and couldn't give a crap about what my mother roared while I was leaving." Wow that sounds pretty bad when you put it like that.
"Wow I bet your mother 'really' loved that." Sam laughs. She can't stand my family as well, she hates seeing how cruel they are to me. Sam has always been there for me, even when I feel so moody and emotional.
"Sam what I am supposed to do? I have to go home tonight with my family, which is bad enough. I have to move to college tomorrow, what about my major? What I am supposed to do?" I feel so upset Sam probably didn't understand a word I said. Ugh I am such a mess. She takes a giant sip of her dark roasted coffee before she speaks then she say:
"Darling, you can't worry about your whole life, it won't change anything. First thing is you go home tonight, deal with your bitch of a mother. Don't yell to much, remember you are moving tomorrow and you don't want her to force you to stay home from college. Then you text me tomorrow to help unpack and move for college. Oh and text Thomas."
"What about my parents? They hate your guts." I reminded her, she is best friend I could ever have. But she often forgets how my parents even hate the sight of her, which is why she wasn't at the baby shower today.
"That's why Thomas is going to be there." She smirks, I couldn't help by smiling myself. Thomas is so amazing, he loves Sam almost as much as I do.
"Hello ladies need anything?" A tall, handsome, blonde waiter asked us.
"No thanks we are good." Sam smiled brightly at him, his baby blue eyes nodded to her. While he looked away he couldn't stop looking at her.
"Ohh girl! He is totally checking you out!" I wink at her.
"Very funny Ray." She smirked.
"Come on girl, you got to get back out there!" I just want her to be happy and the last relationship she was in didn't end well.
"I will, when he is right guy."
"But how will you know if you don't give any guys a chance!" I argue back and fold my arms. I can't stand it when she does this. Sam just sighs and drinks more of her coffee.
"Renae just trust me. I will start dating when it's the right time."
"Okay." I look at the clock and already see it's 8 p.m.
"Oh crap, I probably need to go home for dinner, with parents." Sam says as she rushes to get her stuff together.
"Why are going home so early?"
"Parents want a special dinner before I leave tonight." Sam and her parents are very close to one another, she has a very open and loving family.
"Okay I understand (even though I don't understand, I don't come from a sweet family) talk to you tomorrow?" I am honestly upset because I wanted to keep talking with Sam, but I know her family needs her to.
"Totally! Love you babe, see you tomorrow!" Sam brings me in for one of her famous, warm hugs. Then she smiles and leaves. I sit back down at our table debating what I should do. I get up, walk out of Spiceland, get in my car. I decide I should just bite the bullet and go home.
"Well hello Renae." Mother says while sitting in the rocker chair right across from the door. She even has a lamp light on with coffee in her hand. Did she plan this?
"I have been waiting hours for you!" Her voice sounds like she waited about 30 minutes just so she could yell. Lovely isn't she. Beach blonde, tall, lean, always wearing for best clothes, heels, and makeup. But her natural beauty is always there, no gray hairs. She is so beautiful.
Annabel looks just her, no wonder Annabel is a model. Tonight mom is just wearing sweatpants and a sweatshirt.
"Okay what do you want mother." I cross my arms, put my purse down, and walk towards her. I decided to sit on the couch, not to close to her, she has evil glare on. Oh crap.
"How dare you act that way at your sister's baby shower!!"
Deep breathe Renae. Don't let her get to you.
"Mom, she was the one to break the gift I gave her." I argue back, she is already getting unglued and I have barely said a word. Standing up with her hands on her hips.
"You already know we don't like your stupid dream."
"You mean my art?" I stand up, she makes me so sick.
"Yes!" Now she is raising her voice. Can I go to jail if I ring her neck and blame it on her?
"Mother, I have never have been good enough for yo-"
"No with this again! Why can't you just be like your siblings?" She interrupts.
"CAUSE I AM NOT! I will NEVER be as beautiful as Annabel, or smart as Thomas. I'm not an actress or a doctor-"
"You shame this family, Renae Cathryn Anderson."
Oh course she had to say that.
"What is going on Cathy?" My father asks while walking into the room. I guess we fights are pretty ear-piercing to bring my father involved.
"Renae ruined Annabel's shower! It was awful you saw it Andrew! She ruins-" My dad runs over to mother, because she looks like she really wants to kill me.
My dad motions for me to run. He is holding mom, trying to get her to breathe and calm down. I retreat to my bedroom where all I can see is boxes.
Praise the Lord, or however Christians say it. I have never grown up in a church family, mom and dad are just not religious. I don't know if I am or not. Sam tries to get me to go to church. But I don't know if I'm into that kind of stuff.
As I look around my room, I can't believe I am really leaving for college. All my life I have been dreaming of this day, ever since Thomas moved out.
Thomas and I have always been close, when we were young we did everything together. He has always been my best friend, when he started dating Cammie, she become my best friend as well. Thomas, Cammie, and Sam are my family. I know my dad loves me but I just don't know why he stays with mom and lets her act like a witch.
I put on my pj's and just try to relax, I grab one of my favorite books: "Looking For Alaska" by John Green.
And slowly fall asleep....
"Renae get your butt up!" My mother screamed while storming into my room.
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