The beginning of my fifth semester of college, Sophia’s mom messaged me on Facebook. She told me that Sophia talked about me to her mom several times during the span that we weren’t together, I seriously couldn’t think straight and thought it was a dream. The year after she broke up with me, she sent me an apology message over Facebook a few days after her birthday. I mean, i’ll admit I fell for it but then again, my life was still miserable and I didn’t care about anything at the time and this was during spring break of my second semester in college. Anyone can say something over the internet and lie without even knowing. That’s why I prefer being in person so I can tell if they’re telling the truth or not on their faces. Sophia’s message was point blank saying, “I was a huge bitch back then, I understand that if you still don’t want to talk and I hope you feel better.” My answer to that was basically “thanks but no thanks because I haven’t got much better, but I hope you and your family is doing better than me. Later.” She said those things but not saying that she’ll be down to speak to me in person so I didn’t bother. About a year and a half later from that apology message from Sophia (which was right before the start of my fifth semester) she messaged me a few weeks after my birthday. This time Sophia repeated what she said before but now she was willing to hang out and meet up. I was astonished that she said that because I wasn’t expecting that at all. I was still in my lonely feelings. Her words weren’t effective enough to me fall for her but there was something inside of me giving her a chance to show if she wanted me in her life again. We talked for about a week and we agreed on a date. She made me feel special most of the time I was with her. She would talk about me or make me feel involved in everything she'll talk about. I told her that this is a miracle because I would never have thought this would happen again. Sophia took me out to lunch to my favorite restaurant which was Chipotle and my god, that place is the SHIT! During the date, we talked about most of the things that’s happening to our lives back then and now. Mine wasn’t that special, I was just waiting on school to start and wanting to get it over with. Sophia said the same but added a “little” drama that she was having. Some guy in her group from school kept asking Sophia for advice on a girl that he liked and she told him to ask the girl out on a date. The guy had lots of negative thinking and I was assuming he was overthinking if things went wrong or not. The funny part is that the guy that he likes, the girl likes him back… I just didn’t understand him. I told Sophia to tell him “grow a pair of balls and ask her out on a date”. After when we were done eating, we got to her house and I left because she had work in a few hours later in the day. The next time we hung out was a few days later and we went to the mall. Sophia had to get some food for her pet lizard. When we were at the pet store, I told her I’m going to hang out with the rabbits. I had the urge to ask her if she’s been in any relationships since we were separated and she did say yes. Sophia went out with two different guys but both weren’t longer than two to four months. I questioned myself why didn’t it work out but then again, everyone is different in a way. She asked me the same question if I went out with anyone. I said, “no I didn’t but I did go on dates with two different girls but it wasn’t quite long, just friends with them I would say.” I would’ve told her about them but I learned that girls hate it when you talk to them about other girls so I didn’t bother talking about them... same thing with guys and vice versa. After that trip to the mall, the next time we hung out was three days later. This is when I wanted to know the real reason why she came back to me. I picked her up to a park we went to a while ago, and this is the park when we used to stare at the stars at night. The whole time we were chatting, it seemed like we were on the same page but felt weird at the same time. I’m sure that Sophia and I both thought in our heads “what does he want… what does she want…” There’s always a reason for everything and anything that’s happening. I tried doing the same things I did back then to see if she changed or not like she says she has. There was one thing at the park which it was a guy exercising. Sophia kept comparing herself to him saying "wow, I can do more push ups than him and I actually can touch my chest to the ground." I didn't care much but she said it constantly every time he done something different most of the time we were there. Around the time when I got annoyed by her comparing herself, I just decided to say, "let's go". When we were walking towards my car, I tried to explain something but I couldn’t spit it out. I was blabbering and mumbling words that didn’t even make any sense. Probably because I was trying to wonder why she came back to me instead of someone else. And on top of that, she’s literally walking beside me. I see her the corner of my eye and she hugs me tightly for at least ten seconds. That hug literally shut me up and I lost my train of thought. We proceeded to walk towards my car and just started talking about random things. After that little walk to the park, I took her to a different park closest to her home. We did have some memories there and that’s why I took her there. One of the best spots to refresh our minds and say what we want from each other. I’ve got to admit, it was the hardest things to do and the hardest thing I did in my life. It took me about an hour to spit my answer out. I felt that I needed her but I know for sure in life, you don’t need anyone else but yourself. Sophia helped me spitting my answer out by saying three things. Those three things were “we can either be friends, be boyfriend and girlfriend again, or not talking to each other ever again”. The answer I said right away was “okay so there’s no way we’re accepting that third option so it’s either one or the other”. I knew she wanted something from me. There’s no way someone would just talk to someone for a straight month casually, there’s always one or both of those people that wants something out of it. I proceeded to say “well, you’re going to bring the old me back for a second”. She didn’t understand that right away but I said, “if I kissed you right now, would you be my girlfriend?” She didn’t say anything for at least ten seconds so basically, I told myself fuck it and I went for the kill like I did during prom. Her words after we kissed was “so we were on the same page”. So, there we are laying on the grass at midnight smiling and laughing at each other at that exact moment. We made a promise to each other that we won’t betray one another… I asked, “like cheating?” Sophia said “no, just between us.” I was confused but I proceeded to say yes and on with the pinky promise action. I thought about being with her the whole time we were talking but I wanted to see if she showed how mature she said she was. I wait to see proof before my next step with anyone if they keep up with their words. She showed me that she matured more and that’s what made me choose my decision. We hung out once more which was the next day at night. I picked her up and took her to the lakefront because I usually go there for some fresh air and I think it’s the best place to get some fresh air. The conversation started off weird because we jumped to the “future” talk and discussing about kids, a future home and all that. When we were done with that little date, this was the last date we had for a while.