Read serendipity :: Moving on

"Chungha passed away in an accident"

My mom looked towards me with teary eyes. I didn't know what to do or say, I should have felt sad and horribly guilty. But I felt nothing, I only felt numb.

I nodded and walked upstairs. I got up to my room and slammed the door shut, as soon as I leave for school I get hit with this. I grab my phone and teary with teary eyes, I scroll through all the pictures we took together. I spent an hour crying and hating myself, more than anything else.

"Hun, are you OK?" my mom slung herself at the doorway

"I'm OK, mom." I keep crying, tears covering my face like a blanket

"do you still wanna leave tomorrow?" She asked

"Yes, mom. I can't waste your money" I nod, but behind that was a thin lie, just like Chungha and Kristin said I can't run from my problems, but if I stay here any longer, I'm scared I'll hurt someone else.

"Well, if you're going to get your stuff, you should leave now..?" Then she walked away. I felt my mom's pain

Who would want to see their daughter in pain?

I sighed, It's just going to be put back, for now, Stuff it in JUST like everything else

I sighed and grabbed my phone, as well as the keys, and I walk downstairs.

I go to walk out the door, but my mom stood there.

"you don't have to do this" My mom looked at me with caring eyes

"yea, I know"

I walk past her and opened the door leaving all of it behind, I felt my world crumbling down on me, and there was nothing I could do but sit there and act like everything's ok.

This 'transition' we had was nothing, but I won't stop. Why? because if there is anything that Chungha hated in me, it was when I gave up. That and I don't want anyone to know what I am going through, I don't want to stir up trouble, I'll keep going, like a controlled doll, waiting for a life.

I pull into the Student Parking Lot, and I park my car close to the entrance. Obviously I was 'late' because of what I was told this morning, but I won't be here for very long.

I walk in, through the glass doors, and into the office.

"Hey, how are you doing from the Chungha incident I know you guys were close..." I smile and shook my head

"I'm fine. Thank you" she looks down at the desk at her computer.

"So...Are you here for a late pass?" She asked me.

"actually, no. I am here to pick up my things and for the transportation form. I am leaving" I tell her

She looks up at me in shock.

"Well, sweetie...How old are you?" She looked at me unsure

"I am sixteen...." Then her face drops to a scowl, not an evil one but a serious one

"Unless you are 18, you are not allowed to leave the school, unless a parent is here to pick you up, or we get a call..." She types on her computer then slides her glasses closer to her face.

"safety reasons," she says in a low voice before looking back to me.

"well, call my Mom, she will tell you, herself," I tell her stern.

"Ok, you can go sit over in the chairs over there" she points to 3 Cotton filled chairs.

"Ok" I walk over to the chairs

I hear my mom's voice answering a "hello" I sit down and tap my foot impatiently, so I decide to study the room.

"Sunmi?" I look up only to see the person I did not want to see

Kristin

"leave." I simply mutter and I look away.

"Can't I have to wait, I am going to a doctors appointment, my moms on her way to pick me u-"

"I don't care" I glare at her, and I take out my phone, scrolling through it, ignoring Kristin's presence.

"look, your not the only one who is hurt over what happened and Chungha." She spats out, then I decide to respond to her.

"Oh, yeah? Is that so? Because of the way I look at it. You're living your best life, happy and oh so giddy? Don't act like we're friends and don't pretend that you've done nothing. Got that?" I snap at her, my piercing glare bearing through her eyes, like fire.

Her face goes red.

"Oh please? Your acting like you did 3 days ago!! Me fine? Please? YOU are the one who left. YOU are the one who hurt Chungha. YOU. YOU." She screams at me.

"That's funny, you know? Because last I checked, you came to the US. We never wanted you always! Don't act like you played a role as some type in our circle, to us you were a piece trash. You don't deserve a second chance, because we both know in a few weeks you'll go back to the Cocky, self-centered, bitch that we all know" That was all that took.

Kristin threw a punch towards me and hits me square in the jaw. I grabbed her by her chin and slammed her forehead into my knee, then more punches were exchanged until two teachers came to break us up.

"GIRLS" one of them screamed as he pulled on me as the other teacher pulled on Kristin to get us away from each other.

I wiped my nose staining my white blouse in red.

We both had enough time to do a lot of damage. Chungha has a thin line of red from her lip and her forehead, a bruise forming under one eye.

Me on the other hand, my nose was bleeding and my cheek was bruised as well as under my right eye.

"I will kill you!" I scream in anger

"Yeah? and then what? Blame it on Hyuna?"

The teachers take us the room, which marked Headmaster/ principle. I gulped while Kristin stayed calm. I've never been to the office but from the look that Kristin was giving off, she's been here more than once.

We take a seat and face the man who the school feared.

"Who would have known grown girls like you, would do something so immature" He spoke up. I slouch in my seat, while Kristin perked her lips, but we both kept quiet.

"We just lost a student, I understand that she was close to you Sunmi..but taking your anger out on someone is not the best way to do it. You're about to leave are you seriously gonna leave on this type of note?" He says calmy but still very stern.

"Sir...I-" He put his hand up signaling me to stop speaking.

"Sunmi, I understand but at the same time, I don't. You should have had someone else pick up your things and stayed at home...Sunmi, you've never been in my office before, and you've been at this school, here, since kindergarten...I have no choice in the matter I am not able to discipline you since you are technically not enrolled here anymore." He gave a sweet smile but was still showing his place in the school.

"NO ENROLLED HERE ANYMORE!?" Kristin shrieks and looks at me with wide eyes.

"as for YOU Mrs. Jung" He points a thin finger towards Kristin.

"We've talked about this. Over and over again...and I told you IF you are in this office again you would have a 2month detention and after school cleaning duty" He glares at her, but soon he sits back and rubs his temple

"But...this is not my war, this is yours. I won't give you any discipline."

"WHAT!?" we both yell in unison

"BUT you are both to talk things over and make things up, and neither of you are leaving this office until you are both sunshine and rainbows with one another, parent or no parent" He sighs and gets up but before he leaves he turns around to us.

"I feel Sympathetic towards Chungha and Empathy towards both of you, but you are not the only ones who are torn by the loss of Chungha, the whole school is. Everyone is crying, I, myself, shed some tears this morning. One thing I will do in my part is at least know that Chungha left on a good note, and not one where the people she loved are having fights." He turned on his heel and left the room.

The silence was the only thing that was surrounding us.

"I have to leave, so say whatever you want to say" Kristin snaps towards me

"I have nothing." I glare at her

15 mins later...

"Chungha is gone, and there nothing we do to bring it back. Fighting is not gonna bring her back" Kristin finally speaks up

"Yea..Well, it might not bring her back. But me hating you sure as hell makes me feel a lot better" I say through my teeth.

"look let's go out there and act like we accomplished something, I can't be in here all day" She sighs out and glares my way

"yea, whatever" We both get up and walk towards the door.

"After you," She tells me.

I walk out all smiley and after me comes out Kristin doing the same.

"you guys work it out?" The Principal comes towards us.

"yes, I am so so sorry, Sunmi~" She hugs me and I do the same towards her.

"It's ok, let's be friends forever..yea?" I secretly dig my nails into her spine causing her to immediately jump out of the hug.

"Of course"

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4 hours later.

I was home finishing packing, I kept thinking about what happened today. My mom was not as upset for fighting as I thought she was...she said it was probably the pressure on Chungha's passing, she also told me that there were others ways to handle it.

Mom's at work at the moment and I am taping the last box, the Uhaul has been coming back and forth the collect the boxes and load them, mom hired them to take it to Taehyung's so I'll have to just unpack when I get there. I take the 8 boxes and scoot them out to the front yard near the other things, so the Uhaul can just pick them up and go.

after scooting the last box I go inside and lay on my bed..Today's my last day in Incheon I should spend my last day doing fun things instead of sulking. I get up and I decide to walk around the block and walk my way into town instead of driving everywhere, I have to have enough gas to make it to the airport tomorrow anyways.

I visit my favorite coffee shop, I buy a few books to read on the plane at the bookstore then I go to the park..I sit down on the bench as I watch the children play, sipping my coffee as I daydream.

"catch me~" Chungha runs through the tube to get to the other slide

"I don't wanna play anymore~" I whine, Chungha and I have been playing the same game all day.

"ah, ok~ let's go watch the stars~" Hyuna grabs our hands and we giggle as we lay on the grass.

"guys~ Look! a shooting star~" Chungha points at the flying light across

"make a which hurry!" Hyuna squints her eyes closed real tight and she opens them

"what did you wish for?" I ask

"For us to be friends forever" Chungha giggles

"Chungha~~ If you tell someone it won't come true"

"that's not true! We will be friends forever, right Sunmi!"

"of course, I love you guys" I hug them

"I love you too, forever and ever!" Hyuna smiles

"forever and ever, indeed" Chungha and I smile