Axel

God, where the fuck is he, he has been gone for like two hours now and he won’t pick up his phone, I also called Leon and Ryan but they said that they hadn’t heard from him since we left. I even called Andrew but he didn’t pick up. He could be dead for all I fucking know, I just wish that he would text me or something. I am about to wear a hole in this fucking floor with all of the pacing I am doing and I still haven’t changed so I feel naked in my costume. I pick up a glass and throw is when I hear the door open and immediately I turn to see who it is and I see it is Matthew.

I quickly ran over to him and grab him into a huge hug and twirl him around. “Oh my god Matthew you have no idea how worried I was” Once I put him down I noticed that he is just standing completely still with no facial expression. I then look down and notice that his pants have been shredded at the knees and he is bleeding like crazy.

“Oh god Matthew, what happened, did you get into a fight?” He just stands there unmoving with the same expressionless face. “Okay, well, let me help you with that.” I then go and grab the first aid kit and set it on the bed. He doesn’t seem to get what I’m doing because he still doesn’t move. So I go over to him pick him up and set him on the bed. He doesn’t protest but he definitely doesn’t help. I take off his pants for him and I notice that the cuts have little blades of glass in them and there are many more than I initially thought. They go from his knees all the way down to his ankles.

“Well, can you at least tell me where you went?” He doesn’t move or say anything so I take that as a no. “Okay, well, this is going to hurt but it’s necessary.” I am going to have to pick out all of the glass pieces and then clean all of the cuts with alcohol and then wrap his legs. I pick up some tweezers. “I am about to start so just be prepared.” When I pull out one of the glass pieces I know it hurts a lot but he doesn’t react, he just continues to sit there emotionless with glassy eyes.

“I’m going to need to know where you were, you don’t have to tell me right now, but I am really going to have to know.” He nods finally, the first thing I have seen him do since he got back.

It had been almost another two hours and after I get finished pulling out all of the glass from the cuts I have to clean it with alcohol. The entire time I was grabbing all of the shards of glass from raw flesh he didn’t even flinch. The alcohol is going to hurt more so I hope he is prepared. “Okay I am finished with the glass, now I have to pour alcohol on it.” Once I start pouring I had expected him to flinch, gasp or at least have some reaction but he doesn’t, he just sits there with the same blank stare on his face and unmoving.

When I finish with that I quickly wrapped his legs and then I grabbed some pajama pants from my own closet as well as an undershirt. I quickly changed his shirt and and put the pants on him. Once I got finished with that I laid him down in his bed and tucked him in. He finally moves but he is shivering and curled up into a ball. I went to my bed and grabbed my blankets and cover him up more but he is still shivering. I then got into his bed under the covers and I cuddled him, he turns around so he is facing my chest and starts crying quietly.

The next morning

I called over everyone as Matthew slept. It’s early so Leon is wearing a white undershirt with red and black plaid pants and since their dorm is across the hallway he didn’t bother putting on shoes, he is standing right next to Noah who is wearing a sweatshirt with sweatpants and is drinking some coffee in a purple mug, Leon keeps taking the cup from his hands and drinking it as well. Ryan in contrast lives in an apartment down the block so he had to get dressed but he didn’t go all out today. He is simply wearing a light blue T-shirt with some light gray sweatpants, he too is drinking coffee from a white mug with a black and white cat on it.

“Hey uhh, Michael, nice getup there” When Ryan says this I realize I still had not changed from my costume because I had called them as soon as I woke up. My whole chest and stomach are exposed so I feel very awkward.

“Oh yeah sorry, let me go change, I will be back in a second”

“Ooo, I vote to keep him in it.” God, Leon just needs to shut the fuck up.

“Oh, I do as well” When Noah says this I am very confused.

“Same” God, I thought Ryan was the normal one.

“Fuck you all, I’m going to go change.” I ended up just throwing on a T-shirt and some sweatpants. The shirt is pretty tight so you can see my muscles through it but I don’t feel like looking for another one so whatever.

“Oh, yeah, Michael, what even happened to Matthew last night?” Leon asks, and there is actually a hint of sincerity in his voice. He then grabs the cup from Noah and takes a drink, he is actually leaning on him, it looks like they’re dating but I don’t see them being together considering how Leon treats him.

“I don’t know, he wouldn’t tell me, he just came into the dorm with cuts and glass all on his legs and he had on a blank stare. He didn’t even say one word the whole night.” I don’t tell him about the part where we slept in the same bed.

“Ah, what do you think happened?” Leon asked that, he is 100% worried, but I’m not surprised, he has never acted like this. We are all scared for him.

“Do you remember at the party when he stormed out?” They all nod so I go on. “Well when we were outside he found out I had slept with Maria-”

“Wait WHAT you slept with Maria? When? Where? Why?” Ryan reminds me that they had no idea what I was talking about.

“Oh yeah, you guys don’t know, well, what had happened was I was at a bar completely out of my mind drunk and a very hot woman came over to me, I hadn’t recognized her, and asked to hook up. I said yes because it was right after Andrew and Matthew had started dating so I was upset, he had known that it was her I had slept with long before I even found out it was her.”

“Oh, so I think he is in lo-” Before Leon could finish Noah covered his mouth with his hand. Leon pushed it off though, “God, this time I am actually being serious, I think he is in love with you, even subconsciously and he broke whenever you had admitted to sleeping with someone else, I mean why else would he care?” This actually makes sense to me theoretically but I really don’t think he is in love with me.

“That actually totally makes sense, AND he had said that he was pretty sure that Andrew and her were together, maybe he broke up with Andrew and that is why he is sad. We should go to his dorm and ask.” Ryan suggests this and I actually think it’s a good idea.

“Okay, let’s all go get dressed and then we will go” As soon as I say this Leon and Noah sprint out the door. “Hey Ryan, can you leave a note to Matthew so if he wakes up he knows there is food in the fridge and where we went?” He nods so I leave to go change.