"He had a work to take care. Don't worry he'll be here soon." Soon my ass. He won't be here for the next four days at least.

After I ate my food Jason tied me up again then left. In around one o'clock Naomi came back with my food and then left. The time to move has come. I wanted to wait so that Emmet will be far away from here plus I didn't want to be hungry when I leave. I had all the power I needed and running away will be a cakewalk.

"Jason." I called for him and he quickly came in.

"Yes Luna."

"Can you untie me please, I need to use the bathroom."

"Of course." Now I really liked this guy and I didn't like what I was going to do. The moment my hands were free I quickly took the heavy lamp on the nightstand and hit him hard. From that he fell on the floor unconscious. I put my sneakers on, took my bag and searched for Jason's phone. I took it when I found it and headed for the exit. I dialed Nat's number while running through the forest.

"Hello."

"Nat it's me. I need your help. I'm in Forks, Washington and I need you to go to my house, take my fake passport and money and come to Port Angelis as soon as you can. Will you?"

"Yeah yeah I'm on my way."

"Okay so I'll meet you at the airport. Delete this number after that."

"Okay, take care." That was all I needed to tell her so that she moves. She's got a key for my house. She knew where my documents are and if I tell her it’s emergency she does what she's said. Same goes for me, if she needs my help then she got it.

I ran for an hour or so when I found a gas station. I decided I'd take a little break close to the station but not there because there might be cameras and I don't want to risk anything. I sent a message to Emmet. "Goodbye!" He called immediately but I declined. Then I threw the phone on some tree a few times to be sure it's completely broken.

When I was done I stripped my clothes, put them in the bag and transformed into my giant brownish wolf. I grabbed the bag with my mouth and headed to Port Angeles. I choose Port Angeles because it's in the opposite direction of where Emmet was heading so that when he realizes I'm gone he'll be too far away to stop me.

It took me around four hours to get to the city but at least I made it. I went deep in the city and mixed my scent with the people in case Jason sent people after me when he woke up. God helps the people around Emmet and especially Jason. I'll prey for him.

That was me trying to be funny. Not working I know.

When I was sure that no one could find me I headed to the airport. Good for me, there were a lot of people. I went to see the arrivals board and saw that Nat should be here in about three hours so for more safety. I am always about safety even thought I made sure that no one can catch my scent and did everything possible for Emmet not to find me. So, for more safety I went in the WC and locked myself in one of the cabins.

I must have fallen asleep because a knock on the door woke me up.

"Sorry." I heard a woman saying. I looked at the time and quickly left the bathroom because it was time for Nat to land. When she did we quickly went to buy new tickets for New York. In the plane I told her everything and then we fall asleep cause we were both tired as hell, plus we had seven more hours to be in the air so why waste it. When we land in New York, we immediately headed to my house and packed my things. Nat brought cartons for my computer, pillows, books and all the things I will need for my new apartment which I will be searching to buy. It will be on Nat's name but I'll pay everything because I don't want to risk Emmet finding me like he did before.

For the first few days I'll be staying at Nat's. She offered me to stay and live with her but I refused because it might be still dangerous for her.

I felt like there was a hole in my chest and it was getting bigger and bigger with every single day spend without seeing, hearing or touching Emmet. It felt so horrible that my wolf wants him and that we can't have him in our arms where he belongs. I didn't want to feel that way at all and I managed to push that feelings and thoughts away for as long as I could, but that was not long enough to make me forget him. And the worst part is that I don't really think that I'll ever forget him completely. After all he's my mate, my one and only and that can't be forgotten so easily.

All I could think about these past four days was Emmet and the note I left for him at my house where I am sure he'll come and search for me.

Emmet,

I wish that you didn't come to look for me here and that you didn't have to read this letter.

When I was a little kid my mother used to tell me stories when I went to sleep. But they weren't about princes and princesses. They were about mates. How two people destined for each other meet and fall in love. But again they weren't always with a happy end. There were stories about one or both of them dying or one of them leaving the other for their good. She taught me that not everyone gets a "happy ending" no matter how good they are.

I don't think we fit in the "happy ending" category. I know that we don't have that.

I'm sorry if you felt something other than lust for me. You can find another girl to satisfy your needs and be the Luna of your pack.

I want you to know that I wanted this to work between us but there were just too many reasons "why not be together" and only one "why be together". We are mates. I know that it's a pretty big reason but it's not enough for me. The things that matter to me are the things people do for me. And having to kill you makes it even worse.

After all we might get our "happy end". Separately.

P.s. I really hope that you didn't do anything bad to Jason. It's not his fault I ran away. Please don't get your anger in him.

I felt good. I felt happy. I felt loved. I felt that I actually had a home. I felt calm. I felt I was where I had to be, where I belong.

I stretched my hands from the long sleep and rubbed my eyes. I opened them and looked around my surroundings. I was lying on a very comfortable bed. I turned around because I felt someone on the bed next me and I saw him. The love of my life. My reason to live. I kept on laying and just stared at the peacefully and incredibly handsome, sleeping alpha next to me.

I looked at his hands. His long and strong arm. I closed my eyes and imagined them being wrapped up tight around me or his hand caressing my cheeks, my lips, my hands, and my body at all. I felt so good I almost thought it was real. Then I looked at his chest. I don't think there are words that can describe how handsome he is. He's like a god. My god. I imagined my hands going up and down around his chest. It's like touching something so beautiful that you thought it doesn't exist because it's impossible that such a man like him would walk around on the earth. You'd think he belongs in heaven.

And then I looked up at his face. There was nothing wrong with it. Everything was perfect. His nose, his cheeks, his forehead, his chin, his eyebrows even his eyelashes. I couldn't be more thankful that this man was my mate. That he was meant for me and only for me. I could never appreciate enough his handsomeness. I was just the luckiest woman in the whole wide world.

As I was daydreaming he woke up from his dream and when he spotted me his swallowed from the sleep eyes shone like he saw Santa Claus, the Snow White, the seven dwarfs and all eight reindeers on a Christmas night. He had a huge smile on his face. He was so happy to see me.

"Good morning beautiful." He said with his morning voice. I don't know why but it sounded so sexy I felt like throwing myself at him and have the most passionate s*x with him. I was immediately turned on.

"Morning handsome." I answered. I knew he felt what I felt for him. He knew what I wanted. He knew I wanted him and he didn't waste any time and jumped all over me.

He got my face in his hand and for a few seconds he stared at my eyes. After that he kissed the hell out of me. I didn't stop him. I didn't push him away like I always seem to do. I gave myself to him. I wanted that and I was not going stop him. It felt right. I loved him, he loved me and there was nothing and no one that can make us do the opposite. We are mates and we're going to stay together until we die. I wasn't intending on letting him go any time soon. On the contrary I am never letting him go. Ever.

He stopped kissing me to look me straight in the eyes and then I kissed him again...

I woke up sweating like I've been running a whole week. My heart was beating so fast that I got scared I might just die. This dream, no nightmare wouldn't let me have a normal night since I escaped from Emmet. It wouldn't let me rest. If I sleep it will be there if I'm not I won't stop thinking about it. It's so frustrating.

I checked the clock and it was three fifteen in the morning. It was impossible to go back to sleep after that so I thought it would be best to do something. I decided I would go for a run. I put on some clothes, took my phone and headphones and went out.

I ran for like an hour or two. I stopped to sit on a bench and take a break for a little. The time was almost six in the morning so I went to the closest coffee shop and brought two coffees and went home. Since Nat was going to get up for work soon I thought I would make her a breakfast.

Fifteen minutes later Nat's comes in the kitchen.

"Good morning." She said sleepy.

"Good morning. I brought us coffee and made a breakfast for you before you go to work." I said when I placed the plate with cooked eggs, bacon and pancakes.

"Oh my gosh you're my savior, but when did you wake up and bought coffee and made this breakfast?"

"I woke up pretty early."

"That dream again?"

"Yeah."

"Well honey I'm sorry but you'll have to find a way to forget about him so that he doesn't hunt you down every night. Or as I always say give that man a chance." She tried to change my mind for like the hundredth time.

"I told you Nat won't you stop being on his side."

"I'm not on his side. On the contrary I am on your side. You hurt yourself and your wolf by not being with him and your mind is showing you these things to tell you that you need him." Bat said while eating her breakfast.

"I don't care still not happening. I'm going to take a shower now see you after work."

"Okay love you."

"Love you too." I said leaving her in the kitchen and heading to the bathroom. I stripped my clothes and my hair loose and went in the shower.

I took my time in the shower thinking about that dream and about him. I haven't seen him in four months. I would always wonder what he’s doing right now. Would he be searching me or he would have already given up on me. That thought wouldn't leave my mind and it makes me so angry because I want to know what he's doing. He's changed my life completely and I'm getting scared. With a blink of an eye he turned my life upside down and I can do absolutely nothing about it. From hating him in the beginning now I feel like I'm on the edge of going straight to him and never leave him. It's so hard. And he's not even here.

From the moment I met him we've been together for like no more than a few days and most of the time I was alone and I never stopped thinking about him. But it's enough not having one night of a normal sleep to start having some feelings. I don't know it's just like I'm empty. My heart is gone. I can't eat most of the time only when Nat is here because she makes me eat. I try exercising a lot and concentrating on my job. Thank goodness my boss hasn’t found out that Emmet's not dead. I don't know what he would want to do to me if he finds the truth.

My apartment is almost ready to move in and tomorrow I'm finally leaving Nat. It not like I don't like living with her but I just don't feel comfortable with staying there and not on my own place besides it's dangerous for her.

I'm always thinking about what he's doing. I never stop wondering if he's okay and if he's looking for me. It's just super hard. And that dream that won't leave me is not helping. I wonder if he's dreaming the same. Probably not.

While I walked through the streets of New York I saw a payphone and a thought came up to my mind.

Just his voice. I just want to hear his voice again. I remembered his phone number. I dialed the number and waited for him to pick up.

"Hello." I felt like my word came out to life again and died almost immediately. His voice was the most beautiful sound. I felt like I could listen to him all day long saying "hello" and I won't get annoyed. I didn't realize I missed him so much until I heard him. He sounded worried or kind of sick. Like he didn't get enough sleep. I felt the need to help him. To fix the problem that's troubling him but then I remembered that I was the problem and I felt horrible. The thought of killing him now sounds out of world. I couldn't even think of doing something such as slap him.

I didn't answer. I just listened.

"Hello? Who's this?" He asked.

He waited a few seconds and like he knew it was me from me only breathing like I'm having a panic attack.

"Katerina is that you?"

I didn't answer again but I knew that my silence is a "yes" for him so he kept talking.

"Katerina please tell me where you are. Please I'm begging you. I've been looking for everywhere. I need you don't you get it?"

I stopped breathing when he said that. It was like my world fell apart slowly and very painfully from hearing his voice. So sad and I could hear the pain even if I didn't know what happened. My heart was hurting so much I almost fell on the floor.

"Please Katerina I can't live without you. I'm going insane here looking for you and not knowing how and where you are. Please baby tell me where you at I'll come as fast as I can I promise. I've changed. I swear. I'm nothing without you. You're in dange-"

I couldn't listen to him anymore. I shut the phone and went in my car. The pain was just too much. It was overwhelming. I felt like I'm dying. I couldn't breathe. I did this to him. That pain that I felt in his voice. It was because of me. I started crying. I let it out. I wanted to help him, hug him, and kiss him. Just hold him close to me.

I knew. I knew that I couldn't live without him. Deep inside of me I knew it but I wouldn't agree with that. I wanted to be independent. To be able to live perfectly fine without a man beside me. But all I've ever wanted for real was exactly this. My mate. My one and only. The love of my life. He was given to me and I pushed him away. I betrayed him. I was given something so special, something that is only for me. I was so selfish. I can never forgive myself for making him suffer that pain because of me.