Nothing but water...
It's hard to breath...
My vison is blurry but somehow...
I'm not the only one drowning.
I open my eyes and wake up at my grandma's place.
"I was going to take care of the fever myself once I got home. I didn't think I would pass out"
"You seem to do that a lot. You if you would just accept my help..."
"Let's go to the kitchen. Your grandma made cookies!", said Todd childishly.
"I sleep." I pull the blanket over my face.
"Suit yourself." Todd left with Kayla to enjoy my grandma's cooking.
If I stay here any longer, granny is going to make me go home and I don't think I can face Clair just yet. Not after what happened that night. Maybe I can escape from the window. Thank god this room is on the 1rst floor.
"Andrew, your mom's calling about your appointment! Hurry your going to be late! Andrew!?"
Shit. I can't talk to Clair yet. Not yet, and I definitely not going to that appointment. There is a reason I missed the last two. I don't want to go. They can't force me to do anything. I open the window and put one foot through.
"Andrew! What are you doing!"
I turn around and see granny in the doorway, Kayla and Todd got there a few moments after. I swung my other leg over, fell to the ground and started to run for it. I can hear them screaming after me, but I am too focussed on sprinting to hear what they were saying. I need to find somewhere to hide till the appointment is over.
I take a fast left, almost crashing into the corner of a building. I could just go to the nearest park, isn't Blue Water the usual place anyway? I stop for a few seaconds to catch my breath. That was six or seven blocks I think? I think I'm getting faster. Maybe I should do the track team this year. I didn't last year because some seanior I didn't like was on it. He really got to me. But he's gone now. I better cross now.
I run across the street on the left. I run nonstop till I get to Blue Water.
Now all I can do is wait. I sit on the swing and take a few deep breaths.
Why do I need to go to these appointments again? There is nothing wrong with me. They say I have "depression" or "anger issues", I mean as if some illness is the reason why I'm like this. It's not my fault I can't control my emotions. These emotions aren't even mine! I don't know why I have them. Then once I started getting bad dreams they summed it up to "schizophrenia". I'm not crazy! I just daydream a lot! If I go to the appointments, they don't help me! They just put a stupid label on it and force pills down your throat. When I started flushing the pills down the toilet they started to force them down my throat or hide it in my food. I started buying myself take out.
They don't care about me, they just care about how the job pays. If they really cared then maybe my life wouldn't be so screwed up. Of course I try. I go to school enough to keep my grades up, I work part-time at a convenient store and I try to eat healthy. If I gave up on life I would've quit school and run away to work somewhere far away. But, you can't run away from your problems. Even if the problems never go away. If you try to escape, they just pile up or get worse.
Once the appointment is over, I don't know if I can go home. Shit. I could ask Aaron to stay over. But we haven't talked in a while. Plus, I'm not sure Daron will be okay with it. We started to drift apart once Aaron split and created Daron. I never had the chance to talk much with Daron. Well, I could try.
《Hey, Aaron or Daron
《I have some problems at home
Can I stay at your place for a while?
Sure, I'll leave Daron a note to let him know your coming》 《Thx
If I remember correctly, his house is three blocks down on the other side of the block. I can stop by the store to grab a few snacks.
Once I walk in the store, I hear a familiar voice. Is that the one cheerleader? I go to the chips aisle with my head low. I don't really care about her much, I just don't want to deal with her right now.
"You know what just leave Brian. I told you that your not my type, so stop following me allready."
At the corner of my eye, a muscular jock with black hair leaves the store. Not your type? That guy was hot and nice! We did an assignment together once and he's pretty smart too. Now that I think about it, he's a bit too nice for Sydney. She's a maneater.
"Oh, hey Andrew!"
Shit. Shit. Shit. Please go away.
"I'm sorry about the way I treated Kayla. You see I wasn't trying to be mean. I thought she broke it on purpose. I was kinda hoping me and her could be friends."
"It's fine Sydney"
"I was thinking, maybe the three of us can all hangout together!" I think Kayla might just get sick and leave the two of us alone. Maybe then you will see that I'm better than that...
"I apreciate the offer but I've been really busy lately so I don't think I'll have the time."
"Oh... okay then."
"I need to go"
"Bye bye then!♡"
I grab all the chips I can, pay for them, then go straight to Aaron's place.