Ashton.

I’ve been with people before so it is not like anything is a first for me, it has always been the same every time even when I was in a relationship we both knew what we were going to get out of the situation.

Kiss—Touch—Undress—Fuck—Sleep.

Things with Ari is different, so different that my body does not know how to handle him, the things that he does or what he says.

He had got down on his knees and started kissing the inside of my thighs which was sending an instant sensation to the places that were craving him at this moment.

Ari was getting closer and closer to where I wanted him to be but not close enough where was needed. I couldn’t help but to whine out quietly which he had heard causing him to smile while kissing me.

“What is the matter Puppe? To much?”

“No Ari it’s not enough...” As I said this he decided that it was time to begin kissing me on the outside of my boxers, I wanted to feel his lips on my skin. I can not handle much more of this I will bust right here right now.

“Then what is it that you want Ashton?” His voice vibrated against my skin which had caused me to moan out a tiny bit for him.

“Can..Can you put it in your mouth?” I sounded like a little bitch the way I said it which made me feel pretty embarrassed.

“My sweet little Ashton..” He slowly started to pull my boxers down, revealing me to the world.

Ari licked his lips and began teasing me all over, I could not take my eyes off of him no matter how much I tried to. He started to take all of me into his mouth and at this moment it was beginning to become too much all while it was not enough at the same time.

I leaned my head back so I could fully enjoy what this man was doing to me, as quick as the pleasure hit me it was gone. I wanted to cry out because this was not okay even in the slightest bit. I looked down to see what he was doing and of course he was looking up at me and grinning.

“Ashton.” My name though coming out of his mouth was like heaven to me.

“Yes Ari?”

“What do you want me to do?” He’s asking me?

“Ariiii.” Before I could say anything else his hand was on my throat and his face was as close as possible tp mine. Our noses were barely touching and I could feel his breath on my lips. I know how much he hates kissing but he also makes it so hard to not do it when he does things like this.

“No. Don’t say it in that sweet and innocent voice of yours. You are not innocent, so I am only going to ask you one more time and you best tell me what I want to hear and you say it like you mean it pet.” Oh dear Lord help me.

His grey eyes were staring right into my blue ones, he was going to make sure that I didn’t mess up the next words that were going to come out my mouth.

“Suck my dick Ari.” I didn’t realize what I said until it actually came out. Ari was staring so intently at me which was making me want to lose my shit.

“As you wish.” He bit his lip and started his way back down to where I needed him to be.

He let me have my moment of dominance which honestly gave me a confidence boost, I felt like I could be in control although I know that’s not allowed.

As he started pleasing me I closed my eyes and laid my head back down so I could enjoy every second of this. He put his hand on me and moved to the speed that his mouth was going, this is enough to make me lose everything right now if he didn’t calm all that down.

I was so close and Ari could tell by how much I was moaning so for a moment he went much faster, his mouth and hand both moving simultaneously that I could no longer hold it back.

Just like that I was releasing into his mouth but he didn’t stop there, he just slowed his pace down a bit.

“God damn it Ari..” I fell back on to the bed taking deep breaths because Ari literally took it all out of me.

“Get up.” Wait huh? I gave him the most confused look that I could form. “We are not done pet.” I was not ready at all for what he was wanting to do next. I needed to take a two minute breather but he really was not about to allow any of that.

I sat up fully as best as I could but apparently that was not good enough for him because he grabbed the back of my head and pulled me close to him so that all I could do was look into his eyes and nothing else.

“You’re mine Ashton, and only mine.” Without skipping a beat he pushed me on to my back and got on top of me and instantly attacked my neck making sure he left his mark for the world to see I closed my eyes and let the pleasure he was giving me take over.

Ari and I both collapsed on to his bed with our chests in sync due to our very heavy breathing. I took a moment to even remotely catch my breath before I decided that it was time for me to make my leave, I figured it would have been much easier on myself if I left without him saying the words because that would have just hurt me.

I started to shift in the bed, making my way out of it but then I felt a hand on my arm and gently pull me back. I turned my head around to see that he had this very soft look on his face, I had never seen this look from him it was such a beautiful sight of him.

“Stay...Please Ashton?” His voice was sweet and sincere, this was all a different side of Ari that I had never seen of him. He really wanted me to stay here with him, he actually said the words that he wanted me to. The sad thing though was that I was not sure if I should believe him or not.

Why would he want me to be here with him after everything that has happened? After all the times that he told me to leave? I really had no idea what I was even supposed to do at this point because although I did want to stay, my everything was telling me to leave here.

My mind was telling me to leave and not fall for those beautiful grey eyes and follow what I knew was right.

I’m an idiot though and so is my heart and my heart is telling me to stay right here with him and let him give me the love that I rightfully deserve from him.

“Are you sure?”

“I wouldn’t have said something if I wasn’t sure.” Him and his smart ass mouth.

I rolled my eyes at him as I started getting comfortable in the bed with him, he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me close to him so I could lay my head on his chest.

This was heaven to me, this is all that I want I could not be any happier right now in this moment. His body was warm and full of love even if he would never admit it to me.

I was listening to his heart beat and it was so soothing to me I never wanted this moment to end for me, I know in the morning things may be different but we were here together right now and nothing could ever take this away from me.

Ari.

“Ari you must tell us who did this to you it is the only way we can help you.” I didn’t want to speak, it hurt to move my mouth. Even if I could I didn’t want to say anything to them.

“This is useless—“

“Shut up it is not.” The police officer said to his partner.

I was sitting on this hospital bed surrounded by people who I did not want to be around, people who would never understand anything.

“Listen here son we want to help you, we aren’t here to hurt you. But the only way we can help you is if you talk to us about it.” I looked at the officer with tears in my eyes, he would never get it. I can’t tell them.

He didn’t mean to do this to me it was all an accident, if I would have just listened this would not have happened.

So this is all my fault.

“Ari—“ Before the first officer could say anything the other officer grabbed my arms and got in my face.

“You have got to start listening boy! We need to get to the bottom of this right now!” His grip was tight and it was terrifying me, it made me feel that way all over again.

As much as I tried to contain it I couldn’t help but to start crying right then and there, the more he kept screaming at me the more I panicked.

“Let me go! Please don’t touch me, get off!” I jerked away from him, and cried. From opening my mouth too much caused so much pain to just shoot through me.

I woke up from my dream with tears in my eyes and hyperventilating, I haven’t had one of those nightmares in a very long time I don’t understand why they are back.

I looked over at Ashton who was still soundly sleeping my arms he was so peaceful that I didn’t want to disturb him but I had to get out of this bed. I did my best to get up without waking him up, once I was out I fixed the blankets so that he was fully covered up.

Whenever I would have those dreams I would always go take a run or something just to get them out of my mind but I didn’t want to leave Ashton here and he wake up and I am not here. 

He would think that I left him even though it is my place.

So instead I sat in my kitchen with a cup of coffee and just tried to let those thoughts leave on their own. 

I don’t wanna say that Ashton is the cause of those dreams coming back but with how confused he has me with whatever we are doing I’m not sure if he is the reason or not.

Our intentions are completely different if I am going to be honest, when I found out that he was going out with Alex and Parker it ate right through me I could not stand it. 

So yes, I went and I hated what I saw because he was purposely trying to get a reaction out of me and it fucking worked.

The feeling that went right through me just burned and I wasn’t sure what I was really supposed to do about it, but I reacted on it and now this is where we are and I know that all of this went to his head so now this is something else I have to deal with.

That sounds bad the way I said it what I mean is we have to take this all from here.

“Good morning.” And then there is that very sweet voice. I turned my head to him and gave him a soft smile.

“Sleep well?” I asked him as he sat down at the table with me.

“Yeah, for the first time in a while I slept all through the night. What about you?”

“Good.” Obviously I was not going to bring up my dream to him cause that would lead to a lot of questions that he doesn’t need to ask.

“That’s—“

“You want to go somewhere with me Ashton?” The city Gala is this Friday and originally I was going to go by myself. Jacely continued to harass me about bringing someone and by someone I mean Ashton, every time that I said no or that I wanted to go alone she yelled at me or smacked my arm.

So I have decided to let him come with me.

“Where are we going?”

“This Friday, wear something nice and by nice I mean a tie. We will head there around 6:30.” His face looked surprise that I was even asking him to come anywhere with me.

“You...Is this a date Ari?” Is that what I should call this? Should I please him?

“Yes Ashton...This is a date.”