Today i asked Rahim and Ali over to my place to tell them about my history, it is better to see them soon or later. Ali was wearing all pink and Rahim was in all black how convenient. They seemed concerned so I started talking to get it over with.
"I had always knew I was different, when I turned 12 I knew I wasn't like everyone else. I saw girls as competition instead of possible partners, I felt hot and bothered about guys in the locker room and felt oddly comfortable around girls. When I got older and got into my first relationship I didn't know how toxic it was, he was my first love,that was a mistake, because of him my life is cut short and there is nothing that can be done to reverse it.i don't know how you two will take it but it is better to tell you both now than later. His name was Eli. Damn I loved him, he always looked on the bright side and always tried to make me happy,but all good things must come to an end. After about a year and a half he started to change. He began demanding sex from me when I wasn't ready and started to destroy my self-esteem. I was so scared of him that I stayed in the relationship so I wouldn't get hurt. One night, that one night that changed my life for the worst. He said we were going out to a restaurant. What the hell ere two fourteen year olds doing at a restaurant. We he ended up at a warehouse. He wanted me to help him and his friends to steal some weapons for a gang. He threatened me so I did as he told me to. One of his idiot friends dropped a canister on the far side of the warehouse. It had a toxic chemical that was meant to slowly kill bears. Instead it was slowly killing everyone in the warehouse. The one who dropped it died immediately while the rest of us had a few years to live. Well we were supposed to. Many of his friends died months after the incident while he died a year after.Since I was farthest away the painful side effects wont affect me but I will still die. The bastard got what he deserved but I am going to the afterlife as to be stuck with him for the rest of eternity. Like my mom always said god doesn't let gay people into heaven and i will be damned as soon a I lock lips with another man. Truth is I-I-I I have at least six months to live. I know why did i want to get into a relationship at this point in my life but I didn't want to waste my life regretting being with him and not doing anything to make myself happy. At least when I-Im gone you both have each other."
After I said that I broke down in tears both of them hugged me tight, I could smell cotton candy and strong herbs. Rahim as petting my head while Ali was telling me it is alright.Who ever is out there if its god or gay god thank you for these two, thank you for them in my life.After I stopped crying and dried my eyes I looked at them, I dont see hate or sadness. Ali gave me a small smile and was now scooting me over on the couch.
"Honey its better to lose something great and wonderful than to never had it at all."
Rahim sat on the other side of me and rested his heavy arm across my shoulder.
"kitty you've got guts I honestly would have hid in the woods that last month and died in peace instead of hurting my heart in having to say it out loud."
He gave me a gentle kiss on the cheek, I felt better.
"Wait hold the actual fuck up Rahim don't make me have to get you checked if you would rather run off into the damn woods."
I started laughing hysterically, dear lord I swear Ali is both a child and a mother, and the gayest guy I know. We all just layed there and watched tv. While watching Pocahontas I remembered a question I had.
"Wait a minute, because im dying does that mean we aren't gonna fuck anymore.!!!!!!"
They both looked at me confused and started laughing hysterically,im serious as a judge. I don't want to die horny and alone, I better get the best fuck of my short lived life. Rahim stopped laughing and managed to say a few words.
"No worries ill break your ass as much as you would like me to."
"Hey what about me little Ali still needs some love."
"You too Ali."
Months passed by quickly and I was living my best life.I wasn't ready to die I wasn't going to die. We were at a club and I felt dizzy. I called out for them both an my eyes closed. The next thing I knew I was in the hospital. They were both at my side holding my hands.
"Ali , Rahim."
My voice was coarse and and tears were streaming don my face. Ali was ready to burst in tears and Rahim had unshed tears in his eyes. Ali's voice was shaky telling me he was on the verge of crying.
"We are here honey just like we have always been."
"You know what im not going to give him satisfaction,i cant leave yall yet, I will come back pehaps in a different body. Wait for me four is company."
"Kitten what are you talking about."
Rahim seemed concerned he didn't understand
"Don't worry im not loosing my skittles ill come back."
My eyes closed and my heart stopped. The last thing I heard was a mixture of Ali screaming and crying and Rahim shouting. Their tears are being wasted I will be back I deserve to live life to the fullest, im not even half way.
RAHIM
When he closed his eyes and i heard the machine beep Ali screamed and cried out.
"NO NO NO MILES YOU DAMN CAT YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME !!!!"
He was shaking miles body like he was trying to shake the life back into him. I felt hot tears stream down my face and a piece of my heart crack. I pulled Ali back and he clung to me and hopelessly sobbed. The nurses came in and pronounced him dead. No shit. Apparently his mother didn't want much to do with him so Ali and I had to plan his funeral.We will miss him,Ali is taking it hard I havnt seen his smile in months. I wonder what miles meant when he said he will come back, in another body perhaps? I wonder. When I was panicking up his things in his apartment I found this weird book with writing I didn't recognize it wasn't found in any language. Did he deal with dark magic. Oh well he wants to be buried with it I hope he comes back I miss my little kitten. At the funeral no one came ,we didn't expect them to he had no family other than his mother, the bitch didn't pick up oh well. We put him in a suit and tie, it looked weir seeing him in something so formal. his hair was up as he always liked it and his face seemed fresh. That weird book was in his hands and he looked like an angel. On his head stone it said
"Miles Wingardio ,a friend,loved one, and an angel."
Under his name it said "Kitten" I couldn't help myself.As we left the grave yard Ali linked his arm through mine and looked at me with tear filled eyes.
"Rahim that book seemed fishy"
"I know I think he really is going to come back I don't know the science but he will come back to us, don't worry we will always have out kitten."
For the first time in months I say a bright smile come to Ali's face, I am curious as to how the little brat is going to explain how he is back, Ali might hug him then try to choke it out when we find him. We will find you kitty one way or another I promise. You are a part of us, bites and all. We went back to school as if nothing happened, no one in class except for us really missed him. That stung. The year had only two months left in it and with every passing day Ali and i grew worried and anxious. If he was going to come back no would be the time. Now it is the middle of May and we are getting a new student. Ali had fireworks in his eyes and i was overjoyed. As the class president it was to introduce him. I was waiting at the class door and when I saw him I knew it. The boys name was Axel he had long blond hair and blue eyes, I know what you are thinking he looks nothing like miles but when he looked at me I saw kitten.
"Hello my name is Rahim and i am the class president it is a pleasure to meet you. You may take a seat in the back of the room next to the kid who looks like cotton candy."
He gave me a warm smile introduced himself to the class and took his seat. When the class was settled and everyone was sitting he leaned over to us.
"Am I loosing my skittles or has this class not changed one bit."
He smiled and winked at us. Ali was furious the first words that came out of his mouth were.
"Bastard you damn fucking biting cat."
"Wow Ali I havnt even been back a full week and the first thing you say to me is bastard. Lets meet up in the janitors close."
After class he pulled both of us into the closet. Ali immediately grabbed him by the shoulders and hugged him then started shaking him once again as he did in the hospital.
"YOU BASTARD CAT ,SELFISH BRAT, DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TEARS I SHED I MISSED YOU , DAMN YOU!"
He hugged him once again and kissed him on the cheek. I immediately pulled him into a tight hug, he even smells just the same. He hugs me back and steps back.
"Now that I have shaken the hell out of you tell me how you came back we saw you die."
"My great grandmother left that book with me when she found out what happened to me.She loved me no matter what I did and wanted to help me. She told me it wasn't my time to die."
"Ok I see."
"Though I do miss my old body I hate this blond hair too bright for my liking."
"Well you could die it back black or die it pink and match me."
Ali smiles and we all feel so much better.
"Wait whose body is this Miles."
"Some American who was lost or something, no family."
"Oh ok then."
We all exit and go to lunch, just like old times, I wonder when we are going to try out his new body. Ali had mischievous look on his face ,dear lord what is he gonna say.
"So Miles I mean Axel does that mean your technically still a virgin."
"Oh no ,shit this dude was a loner that his from everyone, damn it, Ali don't even think about it."
"Don't look at me its Rahim who is a beast, I am gentle."
"I don't mean to disturb your little convo but can we not talk about sex in the cafeteria, there is an echo in here."
Some times I cant manage these two. When school is over and we are about to head home, I realize Miles lease for his apartment is up.
"Miles you can live with me since your apartment is occupied I have extra rooms. Your things are in storage."
"Why don't we all live together my apartment is far, plus I don't want you two fucking without me."
"How childish Ali."
True A;i does live quite far away and i do have the space.
"How about today we all go to my house and figure it out."
"Ok"
We all get to my house and start talking, we mainly talked about Ali's parents we would have to tell them eventually, my father wont give a royal shit but it is best to tell him because what daddy doesn't know hurts me. We decided to invite my father over on the weekend. Ali wants to wait a eek after to tell his parents honestly I think Ali will have a thing for my father he looks just like me except bigger and older of course. I drop Ali home and let Miles settle. When it was time to go to bed and were in our separate rooms I couldn't help myself,we ended up cuddling all night, what was I supposed to do, we both cried, damn it we planned his funeral and put him in the ground, how could I not hug in all night I fear he will slip out of my grasp a second tome while I sleep ,I don't think I could live with that, I don't think I could handle that.
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