I sat thinking my leg bouncing as I was thinking Hearing Markus cough and wheeze, hearing Eliza jump sometimes crying in her sleep, I couldn't take it anymore, we need something. anything.
I took my jacket locking up the door behind me and going off down the cobblestone streets through the dark mist girls stood in alleyways selling their bodies. I walked down to the docks seeing the ships to go off in the morning as I headed down to the market, seeing the hellish people in the mist buying and selling anything and everything. I went up to the lady I remember
"Hello Sweetie" she smiled
"Hi, take as much as you need... But you pay me what I'm due" I told her
"Of course" she smiled leading me to her caravan where she worked alone this time pulling and cutting, Pulling and cutting until my hair was so short I could barely feel it there anymore she paid me and I left going down to the man who takes teeth
"You take other things to don't you?" I asked
"I'll have anything your selling" he smirked taking me to his chair "Teeth? Organs? Blood? Hell, I'll take your spunk if your shooting kid?"
"Blood... Take as much as I can handle, How much?" I asked
"three Pound a jar"
"Sold" I nodded He tied down my arm and rammed the needle in it hurt like hell as the jar below my chair slowly filled with blood I was hazy and sleepy as I filled four jars he paid me and I went out again into the dark with my vision gone and my head spinning as I went out, onto the dock
"Darling..." A woman smiled "You're a pretty little thing" she smiled "How about you come to visit?" she asked and I nodded "How much are you darling?"
"Alright" she smiled taking me inside her little caravan I knew I was already crying but she didn't care as she took me to a bed she pushed me down and sat on my lap I tried to ignore what was going on...
I need the money,
It will keep our house,
It will keep us off the streets,
It will make sure Eliza doesn't have to do it,
It will mean we can afford the medicine Markus Needs,
I just have to do something I thought I never would.
"Do I have to do everything?" she asked so I sighed and turned over so I was on top of her and moving myself as much as I needed to, I felt dirty, I felt awful, till she pushed me away as she caught her breath. I laid on the bed staring at the red celling as she got a drink and got the money sorted out,
What have I done?
What did I do?
I'm not a child anymore...
I lost my innocence
I felt abused and I did it to myself,
I sat up and did my clothes back up as she lit up a cigarette "You got a kid?" she asks
"what do you care?" I answered
"You have to have a reason for needing the money"
"I have three siblings"
"There only two" I answered "But none of them walk or talk yet"
"Where' your mother?"
"Gone, he ran off with a whore from the docks when she got pregnant with his daughter" I explained "We're out of money, Out of food, Out of everything, What choice have I got... they're my family, I Have to protect them" he handed me the money so I went out and began walking down towards the house, I felt awful and upset I never imagined I would have to sell myself to survie, I Kinda always hoped I'd lose my innocence with the girl I'd marry... Or maybe with Eliza? When I got back I sat down wiping the tears that had been flooding down my face
"Alaki? Where have you been?" Eliza asks
"Ohh Out looking for work, You okay?" I ask her
"I'm alright" she smiled kissing my cheek "Now How about some apple for breakfast?" she smiled