It’s like the sky is falling. The Government has put more restrictions in place and we’re beginning to worry about the next few months. Hubby runs his own business. He has two staff and if they have to shut down all three of them should be okay - for now. As for me - I work in aged care and shit is getting serious. Hundreds of elderly at risk and part of my job is dealing with rooms after the death of a resident. I’m fearful for the next few months. I’ve been told if I need to take time off to use my sick leave and then my annual leave. I still have 11 weeks long service - so if the worse comes I will still be getting an income. We own our house and in a few months we were about to build a new home. That’s all on hold at the moment. Grrrrr. The selfish part of me curses this virus. I planned to have my birthday in November in our new home - not now.

Anyway, when you're home doing your thing and you chose not to go out all weekend that’s fine. It’s not a problem - in fact it might make it a great weekend if you don’t have any plans. Up until now our weekends were sports and getting Ra to work (she works Saturdays and Sundays). Ra is working this Saturday but not Sunday. We’re not too concerned for her but she does work in a small cafe and hubby and I suspect it’s only a matter of time before they let her go.

When you chose to self isolate and now you ‘can’t go out’ wholly hell that messes with your mind. I’m constantly aching to leave the house. I don’t know how many time I said to the family - do we need anything from the shops. Instead, hubby got us working in the garden over the weekend. Which in all honestly was great. It’s Autumn here now but the days are still hot and it was great to be outside. J is still sleeping a lot and now only eating custard and ice cream. Ra help us out when she was home. Our dog loved us being around all day. She was so exhausted both days, she fell asleep early both nights. And now our garden is weed free.

I know I haven't touch on the actually reports and stats for the COVID-19 virus and honestly, I'm obsessed with them. For the first time ever my phone is near flat when I get home because I'm constantly reading updates while out. I have dozens of book marks on my laptop and hubby and I are always talking about the next lot of news to come out on the day. But the reason I'm writing this is to release some of the anxiety and stress this is causing me. I haven't been to bed before midnight for two weeks now. My sleeping is poor. I'm eating well and trying to take care but my stress levels are through the roof and I can see the signs. I'd going to collapse soon, break down and maybe even get sick from exhaustion. If I can write down my thoughts, make sense of what's going on inside my mind perhaps I can get through this with a few less grey hairs than I already have. And perhaps keep my sanity.

I forgot to add - I made my own face masks too. Four in all and they are super trendy - at least I think so. Again my kids think I'm crazy.