CAM
I told Aaron goodbye and went to the track with Eric, when got to the gate and he lifted up a plant pot there was the key, i guess coach left it there for us after he went home. Eric opened the gate and i dropped my stuff on the grass and began stretching. We began with the usual, high knees, but kicks, high kicks Mario jumps back and forth across the track. When we were ready we began our practicing, after about only an hour we decided to head home the last bus was leaving in two hours so we had time to kill. Might as well use the showers. We grabbed our things locked the gate and went inside, Eric went to put slide the key sunder coaches door. I grabbed the change of clothes i always kept in my locker grabbed some body wash and one of the disposable washcloths. I put my clothes on one of the benches and went into the showers, the blue tile and the shower heads on the wall reminded me of the ones i saw in prison movies. There arent even any walls or curtains, just a big room with a drain in the middle and a bunch of shower heads, our school is so damn cheap. I walked over to the one in the corner put soap on my cloth and turned on the water. For once it was warm so i decided to put my head under it. I heard foot steps echoing in the distance it must be Eric, the shower behind me turned, i know what you are thinking but it isnt weird for the two if us to be naked, most of the time when we all smell like hell the whole team is in here as long as no one catches you staring everything is chill.
"Hey Cam, are you gay?"
"Huh, w-why would you ask that?"
"I think you are gay."
"What if i was."
"No problem here trust me."
"Yeah im gay what about it."
"Does Aaron know?"
"Fuck to the no, i think he would snap my neck if i ever told him, shit im more scared of how he would react than coach without his coffee in the morning."
"DAMN!! Would you ever tell him?"
"Not if i dont have to."
"So what stay in the closet until you grow up and you two have to be separated from the hip."
"Kind of the plan, i have known him fro years i dont like it when he is mad at me."
"He would be mad at you for being you?"
I stopped washing myself and paused for a second. All of a sudden the water feels cold, i dont know how to answer that question, i dont know if i want to answer that question. I guess he would actually be mad at me, he has expressed how he feels about gay men and his sentences always end with freaks. Then he would probably look back at us sleeping in the same bed and want to knock me unconscious and burn his bed sheets, maybe even his clothes.
"No i dont think he would be mad, he would be furious."
"Sorry that must suck to think about."
"Yeah it does. Are you gay Eric."
"As gay as they come."
"Oh, please dont tell Aaron."
"Your secrets safe with me its your burden to tell him not mine, plus i think he would kill me on the spot, i think the worst that would happen to you is you get a punch to the gut."
"True"
We both started laughing our asses off the all of a sudden things got quiet. I tuned around and Eric was really close, i feel like if it was anyone else i would feel uncomfortable and run but i looked into his green eyes and i felt calm. He took a small step forward and i took a step back, my back the water from my shower was now running over his face. Fuck what is going on, hello Cameron are you there why arent you saying anything say something. I realize there are no words to be said. He took another step forward and i took one back i felt the cold tile on my back and on my ass.I guess there is no going back ,literally. The water gets warmer all of a sudden as he cups my cheek with his hand and i look up at him. What am i doing?
"Wait Eric i cant do this, i like Aaron."
"Do you really think Aaron cares?"
"I know he wouldnt, hell the day i tell him will probably be my last day on earth. He will never accept me, might as well."
As soon as i finished my last sentence his lips claimed mine, my whole body heated up under the cold shower, he slipped his tongue in my mouth and tilted my head back. I felt his hand move to my waist and pull me in closer. I have never kissed a guy before and let me tell you i have no complaints. Eventually i needed to catch my breath and our lips part, i took in a deep breath, while he wasted no time leaving a trail of hot kissed down my neck onto my collar bone. I pulled him in closer and rested my head on his shoulder. He moved his hand from my waist to my ass and grabbed it tight, this felt so good. I bit into his shoulder unconsciously and his hands roamed my body. Just then the water turned off and i heard a car blowing their horn and my phone ringing. We stopped in our tracks looked at each other and smiled. When we got back into the locker room and got dressed, i checked my phone and it was Aaron calling.There was a text saying he was outside waiting for me. When we spotted the car we jogged over and hopped in. Aaron looked at me looked away then his head shot back to my direction.
"Cam what is that on your neck."
"Oh bug bite, there were mosquitoes an they were getting savage so we ended practice early."
"Oh ok."
Thank god i know how to lie through my teeth. We dropped off Eric and then went back to my place. I guess i wont be wearing my tank top to bed, shit. When we got inside i tossed my things in the laundry and went downstairs to heat up some food.
"Cam arent you going to take a shower? Those look like different clothes."
"Um yeah they are we took a shower at the school, the water was warm for once. I put on the extra clothes i keep in my locker."
"Oh, you took a showers with Eric?"
"Dude dont make it sound weird, both our teams have taken showers together."
"Yeah but you know Eric is gay right."
"Um yeah so what?"
"Didnt you feel weird?"
"No we had our backs turned and we didnt speak."
Shit what is he interrogating me, does he suspect something, no he cant. He would have said something he is blunt that way.
"Cameron tell me the truth."
"What are you talking about."
"Those arent mosquito bites they are hickeys you know how i know i remember that party and Jessica Shefields house and she left those all over my neck and they look exactly the same as yours. Also remember mosquitoes dont bite you often ever since we were kids and i looked like they were playing bingo, the marks were circular. Not to mention you werent answering your phone at all and it only takes you at least ten minutes to shower even when you are home, i was waiting for half an hour, what were you doing in all the time?"
I stepped back closer to the kitchen counter and took in a deep breath. I guess Eric was right i cant stay in the closet forever, and i get it now.
"Well Aaron what are you trying to say?"
"Are you gay?"
"Y-Yes."
Here it comes i said it to his face his face, his neck got red while his knuckles got white. He slowly walked closer to me and spoke softly.
"What happened in there?"
"Its none of your business so dont worry about it, you are homophobic and i know it so just get it out."
"What happened please tell me, you are my best friend how an i stay mad for being you, but tell me what happened."
"What do you care?"
"He wants to get in your pants and the chance he gets he will do it."
"Thats not true, he didnt do that."
"Then what did he do?"
"Why do you care? Tell me damn it and stop asking what he did to me, i am fine nothing happened."
"You are my best friend and lets just say the thought of Eric raping you on the shower floor comes to mind."
"The fuck, relax im still a virgin for your information if thats what your worried about."
"Ok then thats not so bad."
"Can i go on with my life now?"
"You still haven't told me what happened."
"And i never will, i didnt ask you what you did at Jessica's party."
"I thought you said you were a virgin."
"I am get over it."
I took out the left over food out of the fridge and hearted it up and went into the living room. I could hear his heavy steps back and forth on the kitchen floor pacing. Well i should be happy i didnt get yelled at thats for sure. He finally came and sat down on the far side of the couch running his fingers through his hair repeatedly. I put down my my bowl and poked him in the side. He flinched and began fixing his shirt, thats weird.
"Hey Aaron you ok?"
"Does your mom know?"
"Hell no i dont think she knows my favorite color, much less my sexuality."
"So you have never kissed a guy right?"
"Are you going to be pissed if i lie?"
"Im going to be the big daddy of all volcanoes if you do"
"Yeah i have."
"Eww with tongue."
"Oh bite me, you kiss lots of girls with tongue , i regretted the day you told me about that talk about TMI. Also just because it was with a guy doesnt mean it was gross, i have kissed both genders and it didnt feel one bit different except i enjoyed it that time."
"Well excuse me."
"You have been excused."
"Who was it."
"Nunya"
"Who?"
"Nunya business"
"Ha ha very funny, who was it?'
"Im not telling you."
"Why?"
"Because i know you will go hound them."
"Fair enough but please tell me."
"No way end of story."
I was about to punch him in the arm when he swiftly got up and brushed at his shoulder as if there was dirt on it. Is he being scornful of me, i guess i was right he looks like he wants to rip the shirt to threads. I decide to stay in my lane. I finished washing up and eating then i went to sleep on the couch, i guess at least i didnt get beat to a pulp. I just layed there crying what else could i do, i just lost my best friend that i have known ever since i could remember. I just lost the first guy i ever felt attracted to. In the morning i felt sick to my stomach, my eyes were puffy and i needed a good shower. I went upstairs grabbed some of my clothes and headed to the bathroom, before i set foot in the bathroom i heard someone clear their throats. I didnt dare turn around i just kept walking.
"Hey Cameron, wait a minute."
There as a lump in my throat and i felt tears forming in my eyes. I turned around to see my sheets are taken off the bed and so are my pillows he slept on the bare mattress and also sprayed it with Lysol, the bottle was next to the bed and half empty. He was still in his clothes though.
"Y-Yes."
"Can we talk?"
"O-Ok"
"Um about yesterday i made a mistake i shouldnt have reacted like that, im sorry. I hope this doesnt change things between us."
"Um ok."
I went into the shower and and came back out to find my room stinking of Lysol. Good god i cant breathe. I grabbed my clothes, slipped on my briefs and went downstairs before i suffocated.
"Cameron why the hell are you in your underwear, i dont need to see that."
"First of all you over did it with the Lysol nearly killed me two, you have seen me in my underwear before like a million times. Damn it Aaron just say you are disgusted with me or something but dont act like you arent."
I put on my clothes while still cursing him out.
"I admit i kissed a guy and i liked it, i regret nothing. Pull that pole made out of homophobia out of you ass and get over it, i swear if you spray me or anything else with Lysol i will strangle you with your own head band."
He was quiet after that just quiet. I went back into the room with my shirt over my nose to brush my teeth and grab my shit. I cant do this, its ridiculous, im taking the bus today. When i was about to get on i looked across the street and there he was sitting on his car hood just watching me. I rolled my eyes and got on the damn thing, never thought i would be riding the bus close to my junior year. So much for a great senior year if this is how things are ending. When i get on the bus i immediately spot Eric, he was waving. I plop down net to him and feel relaxed.
"Diaz, you look like absolute shit."
"I told him."
"Huh, come again."
"I told Aaron i was gay, well it was more of he found out."
"And you are breathing congrats."
"I lost my best friend he scorned me like i was a disease."
Tears were in my eyes and Eric pulled me in. At least it muffled my cries. I guess crying on a school bus isnt the way to start your day. I mainly avoided Aaron all day, all of our teachers noticed our weird behavior but brushed it off of course. I had to keep looking ahead, i have no regrets he would find out eventually. After school and it was time for practice i felt so self conscious all of sudden when we wee changing in the locker room. It must have been because of what he said i pushed that thought to the back of my mind and quickly changed. We got through practice barely alive. It was so fucking hot. The whole school was empty and we hit the showers as usual. I heard my phone bling from in the shower. Oh god cant i take a shower in peace. When i checked it was Ms. Helga making an announcement about a new virus, i thought hat shit was staying in Europe, its called the corona virus.The poor alcohol company not getting anymore dough anytime soon. School was cancelled for the rest of the year. Eric was as shocked as was. I got a call from my mother seconds later she cant come back to to America she is stuck in China. What are we going to do?
Eric looked like he was about to cry just like me.
"Eric you good?"
" My parents were abroad visiting my grandfather in Germany he was sick."
"Oh crap you can stay at my place you only lives is blocks away, i wouldnt want anyone to be alone , not in a time like this. Ill call my mom to see if its ok. I suggest you do teh same."
We hopped on the public bus and when we got to our neborhood, Aaron was a the bus stop waiting.
"Aaron: Did you hear what happened?"
"Cam: Yeah i did, Eric is coming over."
"Aaron: No way."
"Cam: Its my house you dont say who comes and who doesnt."
"Aaron: Whatever."
We all walked back to my house and got in touch with our parent s. Apparently all of our parents worked for the same company Importico. They all agreed on us staying in one house because ewe were all underage and things are going crazy. They instructed us to stock up and get all the supplies from the other houses. They sounded so scared so worried. Aaron cleared the houses while Paul and i went shopping. At least in this pandemic we would be together. i grabbed masks, hand sanitizers, toilet paper, cause medicine, vitamins, while Paul got frozen foods caned goods and other things.
When we came back the whole neighborhood was in shambles everyone were worried and concerned. We all holed up in my house, the pantry was stocked an the news was always on. Apparently we wont be seeing our parents for months, we will still have school online and we all need to tolerate each other. Being alone in a house is dangerous, the things it ill do to your mind along with the stress. What are will happen now that these two are under the same room. Thanks a lot Corona.
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